The Crucified Jesus Inspires Us “console him’

Hello Family,

I know many are in a valley of confusion and uncertainty in our nation, but we must remember God sits on the throne and he is in control. As we wait and are so consumed in ourselves, what we’re feeling, what is going on around us and what is being said we often forget that Jesus is hurting. 

Yes, although God, He is fully man and our beloved spouse is hurting guys. He desperately needs to be loved and consoled in this hour.  He has called all of us to carry many heavy crosses of affliction not only to sanctify us but for the salvation of souls, for our President Trump and for the entire world. We are at the brink of so many things. So many lives that will be lost.  So many innocent and poor souls that will be affected and harmed.  As it is written Matthew 24:6 You will hear of wars and rumors of wars but see to it that you are not alarmed. Such things must happen, but the end is still to come.

Jesus tells us that these things must happen before the end comes upon us. We forget sometimes that He is also a Father who birthed each soul from his heart, and He is a lover who has called each soul to be his bride and He is a friend who died for love and created us for love. Yet, is left unwanted, rejected, disdained, scorned and even hated by the very souls he created. His own children who will be lost forever in the abyss of the fires of hell for all eternity. HIs heart is breaking guys, so broken by what must happen and His precious ones who will be lost. There is place in his heart that can never be repaired because it was created uniquely for a soul who chose too no longer be there. 

Jesus is suffering, yes, He too suffers on the waves of agony and looks desperately for his bride to console him. We often run to Jesus to be consoled, but because Love makes itself vulnerable who will be there when He needs consoling? When He needs encouragement? When He needs love and when He needs to be embraced and told “I love you Jesus, I am here for you Lord, I am here.” Who will it be? I pray it’s you my fellow brides. Run to your Jesus and there hold his bleeding head in your arms. Take the crown that He still wears for the scorn and contempt He faces daily and wipe the blood from his brow for the sins many commit against the Holy Spirit.

Go to the cross and stay at his feet looking up at a crucified Christ all bloody and beaten for your sins and the sins of the world who still thirst for love, your love. Then climb on the cross with him as you lay right hand on top of his and place your left hand on top of his nail pierce hands and rest your head on his heart that beats rapidly and burst out of brokenness to provide mercy for the whole world. Are you suffering gravely now? Unite every sacrifice, every trial, every tear, every prayer, every frustration, every confusion,  every delay, every inconvenience and pain you’re going thru to the cross. He needs it and He needs you.

This morning in prayer I got the reading to “Console Jesus”. I immediately saw myself sitting with Jesus on a rock on top of a high mountain. He was wearing a white robe and white prayer shawl over his head.  He was looking off in the distance with so much on his mind and I knew his heart was heavy. We didn’t have to speak to each other because I knew, I knew as I rested my head on his shoulder then slipped my right hand into his and clasped his hand. Telling him “I am here Lord, I am here”. Then when I looked down at his arms, I realized it had turned bloody and all wounded as I was now sitting with the wounded Christ. He now had the crown on and was completely covered in blood as he continued to look on in the distance and I looked at him in horror at his degenerate state. I clung to his arm even firmer telling him I wouldn’t let go that I am here, to stay and share in his suffering. I then realized are arm was becoming one. As my body began to enter into his. 

Then I was now placed at the foot of the cross as I looked up to my crucified spouse. So bloody, beaten and unrecognizable gasping for air to breath. I cried thinking what can I do, as I held on to the bottom of the cross touching his feet saying, Jesus I am here, I am here. I knew in my heart that he wanted me to climb up and be with him on the cross. So, I did, as I climbed up in my white wedding gown and laid myself on top of him and rested my head on his chest and I could hear heart beating so fast as his bloody bruised chest was going up and down. Up and down as his breath got raspier because blood was filling up his lungs. I thought to myself how I could continue to complain about my afflictions. Complain about my trials that now seemed so trivial compared with his. How could I complain with the splinters from the cross He has given me? When He did this for love of me and still suffers now for the world. I then embraced him even on the cross as if to also now embrace the crosses He has given me and will give me for love of him and love of souls.

When I came out of this, tears streamed down my cheeks as I apologized to him for my unfaithfulness the past couple of days and how I have been self-absorbed in my own sorrow, but never attending to his. Then I got a reading from Imitation of Mary and Blessed Mother was speaking to me about how the cross of Jesus should inspire us to persevere in our own trials. I felt strongly she wanted me to share this with all the Lords brides because we are all going through it and she wants us to fix our eyes on the cross and console Jesus as well. He is hurting even as we suffer. He is suffering with us and for us.

Blessed Mother began,

My beloved children, I kept before my eyes a cogent model: Jesus crucified. He spoke only words of peace; He suffered with perfect resignation to His Father’s will; He asked that His executioners might be pardoned through the merits of His sacrifice. I watched Him carefully; I entered into His heart and tried to make all His sentiments my own. As I saw Him give His life so generously for men amid the most fearful suffering. I learned to make the generous sacrifice of what was dearest to me in all the world: Jesus Himself.

My children, you find at the foot of the cross as I did, comfort in bitter suffering, strength when you are beaten down, and courageous resignation in sacrifices God ask of you. When you are afflicted, do not go looking to men for comfort; their compassion is barren and soon wearies. After giving you their sympathy, they finally become bored by the narrative of your sufferings and, in the end, by your very presence.

Then you will be left to yourself and your thoughts, and you will find the burden of grief ever heavier to carry. The effort you will make to pull out the arrow that wounds you will often serve only to push it deeper into your flesh.

 In the hour of battle, my children, arm yourself with the image of Jesus on His cross. Let the crucifix be your first source of help on the days of darkness and misfortune. However, slack your courage may be, you will find strength there. However strong the bitter taste in your heart, you will find consolation there. Do you suffer because of what men do to you? Behold on the cross the most outraged of fathers, the most scorned of masters, the most abandoned of friends, the most persecuted of just men. Do you suffer from hell’s attack? Contemplate Jesus on the cross as He is buffeted by hell’s wrath. Will you dare complain that heaven treats you too severely when you see the sternest of the Heavenly Father toward His beloved Son? To punish you for your sins God sends you some temporal trials; but what are these when compared to what Jesus suffered in order to rescue you from eternal punishment? As you gaze at your crucifix, say; “I was redeemed by the extreme suffering of God. It is only right that the redeemed soul should attain some likeness to is redeemer through suffering. 

My children, if you cannot have the consolation of resembling Jesus in virtue, at least have the consolation (your crucifix will say to you) of resembling Him somewhat in suffering. Have recourse to Him in every evil, anguish, and temptation.

Kiss your crucifix affectionally, bathe it in your tears, slap it lovingly to your breast. Imagine that you are on Calvary and are allowed to embrace the feet of your God who is suffering and dying for you. Tell Him of you’re afflictions, unite them to His, and ask Him to help you find them easier to bear. Ask this merciful Savior to let you hear from His cross some strengthening words that will help you endure your anguish of soul. Tell Him you will not let Him go until He has restored your peace and tranquility and strengthened you with His grace. If you are faithful to this holy exercise, your tears will be dried up, you will have peace again, courage will replace weakness, the cross will no longer be so heavy for you and bitterness will be changed into joy.

If you still have much to suffer, try to stir up in yourself the patience, resignation and love which made the Apostle say; “I rejoice when I endure weakness, insults, hardships, persecutions, and distress for the sake of Christ (2 Corinthians 12:10)”

That was the end of Blessed Mother message to us.

So, my fellow brides will you console your Jesus tonight?

Mercy Chino- “Oh Jesus”

When The Lord Allows A Fall…..A Hard One

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Wheew, I cant describe how these past few week have been….very painful for starters. I found myself with my peace completely gone, anxious, fearful, hopeless, pride, confusion and in continuous doubt and unbelief. None of these are the fruits of the spirit by the way  which is Galatians 5:23 “But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.”. I knew that I was under attack, I knew that I was being sifted by the enemy but I didn’t know I was under correction until after a few days of humbling myself in Gods presence he gave me:

Proverbs 3:11 -12 My son, do not despise the Lord’s discipline,
    and do not resent his rebuke, because the Lord disciplines those he loves,
    as a father the son he delights in.[a]

 

Ouch! I had fallen and fallen hard. The Lord reveled to me it was because of me speaking against his servants, other Christians and even ministers. At first I objected (do you see how much pride I have slap to the face) As if God is not all knowing but I really had to examine my heart. I truly try to make a conscious decision not to entertain gossip or speaking against people. However, the Lord showed me these past few weeks many instances happened which looked a certain way and because it looked so clear to me I then began to cast judgment on others, become accusatory, critical, and suspicious of motives. We all know only the Lord can judge the motives and because I was repeating these things to others I made it even worse by spreading this poison which seemed so valid to me. I also had judged people in my heart and reacted out of my flesh many times getting defensive, combative thinking they were in the wrong.

Now many Christians today don’t believe that God being so good can allow bad things to happen to us. However, this scripture above explains it all when we walk in sin the Lord protection is removed and he will allow the enemy to sift us which in turns brings us back running to his feet. Its a chastening alright a painful one, but a lesson I promise you will never forget. Not only that but,  you will learn from so that you may be able to help others.

So I didn’t realize it but my soul, my heart was in a mess. I no longer stood in purity before the Lord even if others couldn’t notice it. I had no idea how far I had wandered off from the Lord and recognizing how suttle Satan had been in his snares he had set up for me. He used old memories to replay in my mind that looked just like the circumstance I was in so I automatically judged people assuming  the motives where the same as my old memories. They had to be right, the old memories and my situation looked so parallel and familiar. However I discerned out of my fear rather than seeking the Lord to see his perspective and found out the real motives.

Pslam 139:23-24
Search me, God, and know my heart;

    test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
    and lead me in the way everlasting.

Man that is exactly what Jesus did and I  failed and fell hard but in the kingdom every failure is an amazing lesson. If you humble yourself and yield to be made willing to the Lord will. He will restore you , heal you and strengthen you. So I am now undergoing a healing and deliverance process. Where the Lord is uprooting many things in my heart like bitterness, self righteous spirit, fear, insecurity, jealousy, root of rejection, and anxiety. So that I may be whole again walking in true freedom and purity of heart before him an others. I am not ashamed to say I have sinned against God and my brethren but I love that where sin abounds Gods grace abounds even more. In his wonderful mercy he saved me by allowing a fall to bring me to my face at his feet. Where he has been there to comfort, correct and teach me his ways again like a child I am.
So if you find yourself in the same feelings ask youself have you offended God in anyway. Search your heart and quietly examine it then come before the Lord in repentance. He is there to bind and heal your wounds too. Be encouraged!

-From Jesus With Love

 

But all of you My Children must learn to fall gracefully and get up graciously restored by My forgiveness and by the way My antidote for your error. Do not be afraid to look at a situation and say, “I made a mistake.” Because when you get up you will be that much more informed and skillful in the ways of discernment. There can be no growth without error. A soul must have the freedom to make a mistake and be fully reinstated. A soul cannot grow if they avoid the possibility of making an error. I want you all to grow in discernment, that’s why I make it so easy for Clare to recover herself after an error. I want you to be free to blow it without loosing anything in My eyes. If your eyes are on men, you will not want to admit a failure…because you know what men do to people who aren’t perfect. They expose and tare them down.

-Jesus
(from Still Small Voice Youtube Channel message: A Bruised Reed He Will Not Break)

Learning To Babysit With Jesus

 

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      “Each Of Them Is Jesus In Disguise”- Mother Teresa

I love that quote from above because in fact that what the Lord has been teaching me as  I am babysitting my three nieces and nephews for the past few months. I found myself feeding my beautiful nieces Elly who is 8 months, and in my heart frustrated at my circumstances and honestly resenting the fact that I seem to have no time to “work on MY stuff”.  Which is alot of ministry work I do online and as this fleeting thought crossed my mind as I was feeding her the bottle as the Lord gently interrupted my thoughts to say, “Look at her, every time you feed her your feeding me. Your holding baby Jesus”. I began to recognizes how foolish I had been these past few months. I thought about how our savior came as a baby himself and I don’t know if Mary ever had someone watch Jesus who knows. lol Maybe her cousin Rachel and imagine her being frustrated because she had better things to do thank watch Jesus. Sounds so silly but all of these thoughts came to my mind at that moment and I found myself repenting before the Lord.

These few months he indeed has been revealing how impatience I am and can be easily angered by children nonetheless. What is so sad is that I loooove children…honestly I really do lol I know that is part of my ministry. I would love to help and love on orphaned kids. However, how can I show unconditional love, patience and grace to broken, abused orphaned kids and not to my own nieces (slap to the face) Lord help me lol. So when the Lord called me back to my moms house a few months ago I just didn’t understand. Then having me work a full time job to being released from that job to now babysitting full time 3 beautiful, firecracker girls everyday has been quite of an adjustment for sure. The Lord gave me this rhema when I asked why he called me back home.

                                                  “Charity begins at home
                                                                     Love
                                                Love until it hurts that is how Jesus loved”

Which has been becoming a reality ever day as the days pass on. I can get so anxious about my situation at times thinking Lord when, again, when again seems like I am always waiting. Now recognizing  I am still waiting because it seems I still have A LOT to learn and dying to self. You see a couple months ago I got a job marketing an online ministry which I was so excited about. Besides that I have this blog to write weekly, Thinking that watching my nieces is not “ministry work” so I would hurriedly get one ready for school, feed the others and anxiously rush to get to work online. I found myself being easily irritated or impatience when I would be interrupted ( now I am like Nana they are kids for goodness sakes that’s what they do best smh).

I found the Lord chastising me in my alone time with my lack of patience and my frustration concerning my circumstance rather than thanking him. He began to remind me once again, that He is right here with me and I am doing none of this alone unless I wanted too. So I should see him on the couch with me when I watch them play, changing the diapers with me, fixing their bottles with me in the kitchen, just so ever present with me through it all. Not only that but to see him in each of my nieces. That in Elly (10 month) I get to witness baby Jesus growing up before my eyes, that in my (3 year old) niece I get too see Toddler Jesus growing up and my (4 yearold) niece Zay Zay I get to take care of a paralysis Jesus. He indeed is in each of them, so as I serve by nieces I am serving Jesus! One day sometime last week he told me to leave my work and enter into child like grace by playing with the kids for an hour. Oh how refreshing it was! So I am learning even in the waiting the most important thing is not the destination, or even what you do but that you recognize that HE is with you. Furthermore he loves to be invited in your day in the most minimalist task to not only be with you but DO it all with you.  So will you invite Jesus to DO “it” with you you? Whatever that “it” maybe , why not let “it’ be EVERYTHING you do….do it with JESUS!

 

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(Firecracker #1 Zay Zay)

 

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(Firecracer #2 Naomi )

 

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(Firecracker #3 Elly Noel 10 months)

Matthew 25:45
“He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’

-From Jesus with Love

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Trials That Lead Us To Trust

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These past few weeks had been some rough trials mostly just in my heart. For a moment I found myself taking my eyes off of Jesus yet again and looking at the waves and storms. Which caused me to anguish, fear and then just doubt in all that God had spoken to me. Before me I saw many deadlines, but I am reminded before Him , He sees a timeline where his purpose supersedes my deadlines and becomes a testimony!

I fund myself having my unemployment end in 2 weeks, my mission trip funding having to be paid in full at the end of this month, and my lease being up next month. I began to seek God about direction and what he wanted me to do. After many days of no clear answer I began to get anxious again as I began to entertain other peoples opinions as to what they think I should do because I took my eyes off of Jesus and all that he promised me. However, finally the Lord spoke to me about a job he wants me to apply for and I did Monday but now just waiting again lol  You know just this morning I was thanking the Lord that he answered a prayer of mine. I remember the day I was released from my job I spent about 3 hours of the most sweetest time with him. I said in my heart “That I wish I waste working so I could spend all day with Jesus” and he gave me exactly what I asked for lol However, now with only 2 weeks left of income I am savoring each day  thanking him for giving me such an amazing opportunity to get to know him more. That’s what He spoke to me “the reason he had me lose my job so I could know him more”

Then furthermore to my mission trip I am now at 66% percent  with funding 100 percent from donors since I am not working right now. I am just amazed at Gods faithfulness thus far that I had no plan or no intention of going because once again I was looking at my circumstances that the God of the impossible that I serve. I found out about the trip the day of the deadline for submission with no funds to put the deposit however, he had a friend of mine call me and pay it all. He truly is faithful so I believe it is his will he will provide. One think I told him is that He has to come through because if not it will make him look bad lol So I am now sitting back and expecting to be in awe of Him!

Psalm 25: 3
No one who trust in you will ever be put to shame, but shame will come on those who are treacherous without cause.

Lastly with my lease being up for renewal not sure whether he wants me to stay here or not just waiting on Him to get clarity on that. In the meantime I realize how everyone one of these trials and the many in between have drawn me closer to Jesus. He did mention the word for this year would be ‘child-like Trust” oh how that has been so true. He has been reminding me a child who is buckled in their booster seat in their parents car doesn’t question where their going, how long it takes to get there, doesn’t even really prepare for the trip because the parents have that all covered. They just sit back and enjoy the ride as the parents take care of ever direction maneuver, detour, filling up gas, travel expenses, clothing and food for this trip. So that’s what Jesus does when we to surrender our wills to him completely as little children trusting our Heavenly Father will and has already taken car of every need in this adventure called Life as we just have to sit back and enjoy the ride with its road bumps, curves, detours and all. Trials will always lead to trust if you allow God to have his way and believe in his promises despite what you see or experience. As I know anxiously wait with great expectation for His timeline to supersede my deadlines and turn into an amazing testimony!

“With great suffering comes great intimacy. Closeness, Tenderness and Understanding”- Jesus

-From Jesus with Love <3