Overconfidence and The Power of The Sign of the Cross

journal entry from april 10, 2020

Hey Family,

We here in the community are tucking in with the Lord this holy week in preparation for Easter.

Well we had an interesting incident occur 2 days ago would you believe we had a fire. So here in the community many times we are unable to take the trash down into town so we have an open space in the meadow where we burn our trash. Two of my brothers are the ones who take care of them and it happens about every other day. However, on this particular day it was very windy not only that he threw quite of bit of styrofoam installation in the trash pile. That was a no go, because we were unaware how flammable and how the degree from the installation carries over but oh boy now do we know. 

It was in the morning and I usually go up on the mountain ridge to pray and do the Lords supper. However,  for some reason I felt led to stay close to the house and pray right behind the sheep pen in the meadow. I now realize that was the Lord, because as I was praying I began to see a lot of smoke and that was a bit unusual to me. As we have burned trash before but never was the smoke so black and so much. However, I continued to pray as the smoke died down I thought everything was okay then I caught with the glimpse of my eye the fire had reached the grass by the sheep pen which I was behind and it was just a few feet away from the forest trees. I immeaditley got up and tried to radio for my brother Adam  who started the fire to no avail. However, another brother Freddy was in the house and I called to him that there was a fire and I wasn’t sure what to do. He said “Get water” lol. So I rushed and pulled the gallons of water we had next to the house near the sheep pen. He grabbed the water huge water jug and began to pour it on the areas of the grass where there was fire still going. On the remainder he just stepped on it with his shoes and we poured the water on the corner of the sheep pen where it was smoking. Wheew it was a close call thinking the fire was dead but we were wrong. As he went away and I sat down again I saw no flames inside the sheep pen roaring. I immediately jumped up this time and thought of St. Francis, how he would always do the sign of the cross in any situation. One time was about to have a surgical procedure where they had to use a flame to sterile the area. He commanded “brother flame” as he called all of Gods creation his brothers or sisters because they too were created by God, to not burn him and sure enough. He felt no pain when the flame touched his body. The fire had yielded to his command. So I then did the sign of the cross over the flames that were now roaring out of the roof of the sheep pan and commanding the flames to cease. I then asked the Holy Angels to please assist us in killing this fire. Then I ran to get my brothers again and just then two more of my brothers showed up as we raced against time to now kill this roaring fire before it spread. It took about 10 minutes, 2 more huge jugs of water to kill the fire completely in the shed.  

Once we were all done I went to go sit back down with the Lord in adoration as all these thoughts came to my mind. As I said to him 

Oh my goodness Lord, just witnessed a possible forest fire could’ve turned really bad but I thank you so much for your mercy and great compassion towards us that you allowed me to see that to call for help. I couldn’t help but think Lord this indeed a prophetic sign that you are speaking to us here in the community and also to affirm the word you gave about the Forest fires coming

Jesus is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,

My beloved ones yes, I am here and this was a stark reminder and warning for over confidence. As I mentioned in the Lords supper yesterday

(as an aside here he was referring to the second reading he gave us during the Lords Supper we did together as a group the night before it was  1 Corinthians 10:1-12

“ For I do not want you to be ignorant of the fact, brothers and sisters that our ancestors were all under the club and that they all passed through the sea. They were all baptized into Moses in the cloud and in the sea. They all ate the same spiritual food and drank the same spiritual drink; for they drank from the spiritual rock that accompanied them, and that rock was Christ. Nevertheless, God was not pleased with most of them; their bodies were scattered in the wildness. Now these things occurred as examples to keep us from seeing our hearts on evil t things as they did. and do not grumble as some of them did and were killed by the destroying angle. These things happened to  them as examples and were written down as warning for us on whole the culmination of the ages has come. So if you think you are standing firm, be careful lest you fall.” 

I remember telling them all. Oh uh guys the Lord is telling us to watch out for pride there is a test of pride coming so we need to be careful not to grumble or complain or be overconfident in anything and sure enough the next day he allowed this.)

Jesus continued,

“I am calling you all to be more mindful not just of your thoughts, and attitude of heart but your as actions as well. Mother Clare was right to say that overconfidence causes you to do thing more in haste which causes error and can be detrimental for the community. I know you know a thing or two about, that why I want you to really adhere to Mother and Father wisdom and council. You will be sent out soon but, you too must be mindful of the small details little one. Truly some of the smallest decision can be life or death for those who I have called you to be care taker over beloved do you understand?” 

Me: Yes Lord I do please help me I can definitely be absent minded

Jesus continued

“Absent minded means to have your mind absent in the moment and yes beloved I love how you are always thinking of me but I am with you and with your mind truly on me I will keep it in the moment. So that you continue to stay diligent alert in the moment and doing all your actions even the smallest detail with love.”

Me: Okay Lord thank you so much please help us all here in the community to me more mindful 

Jesus responded,

“I am doing that even now and this was indeed to affirm the message I have given you beloved. Please when I give you a word and you confirm its from me get to work beloved. I desire my people to hear the word now beloved this calamity is knocking at their door and my desire is that they would prepared and ready. You were right to first pray and make the sign of the cross indeed even fire which I created bows down to me beloved. My people, prayer and the sign of the cross with all sincerity and intention is powerful. You are provoking the God head, the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit all that we are to your circumstance or situation. That is why many saints used the sign of the cross to cause creatures, people, circumstances, demons and element to submit to my will. So as you see these forest fires come about and they are very near to you my people began to pray. Use the sign of the cross to bless your house, to bless your community, to bless your forest area Iands and I promise you I will leave you unharmed or untouched. Use the sign of the cross where the forest is blazing and I will send my angels to come and assist too tame the fires down . So now I am given you insight to the authority, grace and anointing I have given you my people to use in order to bring my glory forth and to show case my mercy. Please adhere to these words my little ones, my beloved one I am with you all.”

Thank you Lord!

-From Jesus with Love

Intimacy with Jesus: “When You Are In Love With God”

The Lord desires that I do a series on Intimacy with God: When you are in love because there is all the difference when you love God and when you are in Love with him. For the times that are coming upon the earth it’s you have to be in love with him to withstand the onslaught. 

 

Not only that but it is Holy week and Jesus is desiring and longing for the very real presence of his bride. He wants are hearts and mind off of the world and preparing ourselves for our wedding with him!! Eek He desires that you too would see and hear him this grace is available for everyone..” he isn’t an easy catch” as he says lol. You must desire him above all things and persons of this world..just as when you are on love with some one you pursue them. You don’t give up so easily. So will will be breaking down some pointers and seeking the Lord as to what he has to say about how to fall in love with him

When You Are In Love With Some One You:

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*Want to Spend All Your Time With Them

*They Are Always On Your Mind (Purity)

*You  Share Everything with them (Togetherness & Sorrows and joys)

*You Are Faithful and Loyal To Them

-From Jesus with Love

Forest Fires Are Coming

Hello Family this message was given to me April 4, 2020 in my journal entry and prophetically has come to passed with all the fires raging in our nation.

I came before Jesus in prayer saying,

Lord here I come before you in faith again, you played two songs about wanting to speak to me. So I know your heart is burdened. Then I felt led to use the bible to get some scripture readings from you and the word 

“Baruch” came in my heart and sure enough the first reading I got was from the Book of Baruch extended letter from Jeremiah 

(side note these scriptures the Lord gave me two were from the Apocryphal book of the Old Testament. The reason they are not included in our Protestant bibles because they were removed because the Jewish scribes didn’t believe the books were inspired. The original 1611 KJV contained the Apocrypha, it was removed in later editions.  The book of Ben Sirach or Ecclesiastic is in the Orthodox bible and is considered a book of wisdom. The Book of Baruch is extension of the prophets the theme is that the salvation of Israel is found on wisdom so just a background first for those that may protest how the Lord gave me this word )

So as I opened the bible my fingers fell on verse 62..of the Book Baruch wouldn’t you know. concerning fire falling from the skies on forest

Baruch 6:62 “and fire, sent from on high to burn up the mountains and the forest, carries out its command. But these false gods are not their equal, whether in appearance or in power.” then the second reading was from

Ezekiel 3:14-17

And the spirit lifted me up, and took me away, and I went off my spirit any and bitter for the hand of the Lord pressed hard on me. Thus I came to the  exiles who lived at Telabib by the river Chebar and there where they dwelt, I stayed among them distraught for seven days at the end of the seven days the world of the Lord came to me:

Son of man I have appointed you a sentinel for the house of Israel When you hear a word from my mouth you shall warn them for me

Third reading I got was Ben Sira 17:24-29

But to the penitent he provides a way back and encourages those who are losing hope!

Turn back to the Lord and give up your sins. pray before him and make your offenses few. Turn again to the Most high and away from iniquity, and hate intensely what he loathes. Who in Sheol can glorify the Most High in place of the living who offer there praise? The dead can no more give praise than those who have never lived; they who are alive and well glorify the Lord. How great is the mercy of the Lord, and his forgiveness for those who return to him!

Lord I can’t help but think there are  more calamities coming and you want me to warn yet again

Jesus began,

“Yes beloved why do you continue to cowar in fear?”

Well to be honest Lord, I tremble at your word and more importantly I don’t want to lead anyone astray with these words. Thinking they are from you when they are from me. As you can see I am still struggling with unbelief. Oh help me Lord

Jesus responded,

“Oh my little one, truly I need you to trust me more and more beloved. Trust what I have called you to be and trust the words I speak to you. In later times you will go back and see how clearly you have heard from me” 

Lord and what about discernment? I struggle with that too when I get rhemas that really don’t clearly confirm its you speaking to me, but then I also get readings to not delete the messages. In fear it makes me want to stop altogether and just let it sit there for a while until i get some clarity

Jesus responded,

Well that is wisdom beloved. When it doesn’t seem clear always go to others. I have made Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel your third legs of discernment. So go before them and even then when you are unsure re-read what I have spoken. Even if they may be strong words if it leaves you with a profound peace, understanding, and direction dear one then many times it is from me. I will use your writings and your journals to teach others discernment. I desire to speak to all my brides but, many are so afraid and walk in unbelief. So I do want you to teach them about intimacy. For out of intimacy will flow greater trust and confidence in my words to them little one”

 okay Lord thank you for the understanding. So those scriptures Lord are they heralding warnings for things to come again?

(at this time guys I was getting tense again and still doubting whiles typing this)

Jesus continued,

“Relax my little one, relax and just continue to write. Yes, beloved the things that are coming are so devastating dear one. Many will not be able to comprehend why or what is going on. It will be one after the other dear one. How I am truly calling my sleeping ones to wake up from their slumber as this pandemic and plague dies off so another will rise right on its heels.  Forest fires are coming this summer all over your nation none like ever before destroying crops, fields, homes and lively hood its going to be an immense challenge for your nation and forest fire workers beloved many of my animals will also be caught in the fire in the thick of it and perish. Many will then began to cry out where is God in all of this? And I respond to you my people that I am here. I have always been here waiting for you to respond. Will you now to see that the earth is passing away and there is nothing good in it. Will you now began to see that your life is, but a vapor and give it to me? Will you now began to see that your fortresses, your hopes, your wealth and even your health cannot save you, but only I can. 

Call out to me my people I am waiting to hear my beloved ones cry out to me in great humility and contrition turning from there sinful ways that I may heal their land. But many will say how have I sinned? I am a god person, I have gone to church, I pay tithe? Oh my beloved ones, working out your salvation is much more than that. It is a total desire to live free from sin. I have called you to be holy as I am holy.  It is a renunciation of comprises. Small foxes that continue to spoil the vine, it is a deep examination of your conscious as to how you have lived your lives. Are you truly following me, are you loving your neighbor as yourself, are you helping the sick, the poor, the hungry? Not just with a donation here and there, but truly is your heart to live for others, for my kingdom or for yourselves and your family. 

Please wake up me dear ones, rise from your slumber and sleep no more . I am doing a great shaking before the great awakening comes upon the whole world. Indeed the harvest is plenty, but the labors are few. Now to my faithful ones, there are those all around seeking me in their hearts, seeking answers to their questions and you have the answers. This is a great time to share my love, my hope and faith with all those around you. Please don’t shy from this opportunities I bring before you. The opportunities will be countless, so please my beloved brides stand with me.  I know many of you are weary, but stand with me. A time of great harvest is coming and it is even here now.”

 Oh Lord help us, help me because I am truly one of your weary ones. Give us all the strength to stand and believe with great hope not only for ourselves but for those around us.

Jesus responded,

“My beloved one, yes indeed I am releasing graces even now for those to rise in great strength and faith in this hour and I hear the worries of your heart and anxieties beloved. Everything I promised you will come to past even in the midst of chaos. Remember I do make beauty from ashes and make a beautiful masterpiece out of ruins. So my faithfulness will be a testimony to all who witness what I do even in the midst of this trial “

Okay Lord your words are truly comforting, living waters which I love to drink. Love you Jesus thank you so much

“love you too my little one, and all the little ones that take heed and listen with great faith I am with you all stay encouraged”

-From Jesus with Love

Jesus says, “Use Your Gifts”

a vision of the City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge

Hello Family,

I had a wonderful time in worship on the mountains with the Lord he played songs of revival and just worship and his love over me! Then during the Lords supper he gave me the same readings that he had given me the day before which is focuses on me trusting God and obeying his direction that me and my children my prosper in the land he has given me, the second reading was about not having a spirit of fear and the last reading the Gospel was about him sending me out as his disciple to baptize in the name of the father son and holy spirit to the nations teachings others what he has taught me. The second reading really stuck out to me this time around  it was Romans 8, 14-17

All who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. You did not receive a spirit of slavery leading you back into fear, but a spirit of adoption through which we cry out, Abba (that is Father). The spirit himself gives witness with our spirit that we are children of God. But if we are children, we are heirs as well:hers of God, heirs with Christ, if only we suffer with him so as to be glorified with him.

Then I immediately envisioned in my heart an orphanage and I was teaching the children that they were family. That they had a father and where not orphans at all. This scripture was a staple for them in order to teach the children not to fear but that this wasn’t an orphanage but they had been adopted in a family. The kingdom of God Family. I saw all the children reciting this and as they got to the part saying “which we cry out” they would all yell out Abba, Papa whiles clapping and laughing !! lol Then I saw when we received a new child we would introduce them to the other children as their new sibling. We then put the child in the center. All the children would recite that passage of scripture to them as they yelled we cry out Abba Papa Welcome to your family! I saw the children running to hug their new sibling and introducing themselves saying I am your brother Luke, I am your sister Ama and so and so. Then this new child would be given a paper heart which they would decorate and on the wall was a mural that says “My Family” and they would go and stick their name on there. Truly the children were our family! 

I saw the children running to this young man calling him Papa and he loved to play with the children and anywhere I went, I would pick up things not only for my biological children, but for the other children as well and referenced them as my own. I saw (these two young siblings who are my little cousins back home.  Whom the Lord has put on my heart, they were there helping at the orphanage. Telling them they were called to be examples to their other siblings that they now have. We were really teaching the children about Family, the kingdom of God that it matters not the skin color, but we are all created from his heart and have one Father. Then I saw another scene with two young girls were fighting and one had yelled to the other you’re not my real sister anyway. The other young girl was really hurt by that. So I pulled the naughty girl to the side explaining to her how she was made from the breath and heart of God and he breathed her into being. I breathed on her stomach as if she was a balloon and she began to laugh and I said and pop then you came about. Then I did the same with the other girl and she laughed and I put there hands together telling them they were indeed sisters and came from the same Father to always remember that. The kids were always excited to get another sibling! lol Oh Lord are these thoughts from you or my own mind you know how I can go on and on

Jesus began,

“My beloved these thoughts and images are indeed from me speaking to your heart about the glorious future I have in store for you beloved. It should draw you to hope. I need and want you to began dreaming with me concerning this community City of God that I have established in to your care to bring to fruition. I have had this work planned for you before the foundation of the earth and you have been perfectly suited for this job. Yes, in all of your weakness you are the best for it because of those things. There will be many challenges as they always will be dealing with children. Especially many wounded souls but, you know a thing or two about that don’t you (he said that smiling)

(I smiled saying), Yes Lord I do

All that I have allowed my little one has been in preparation for this community. For you too truly meet the the children where they are at. For you to shower your love and compassion upon them and for you to grow in much more patience.”

Oh now I cant imagine (I said laughing)

Jesus continued,

“Yes, but it will bring you much joy. Much joy to all who are apart of this community and you will bring the children much joy. Many wounds will be healed in that place beloved. There are special handpicked children I am preparing now. They will be such a consolation to you and this young man.  I told you I have great plans for you both. So don’t be discouraged about what things look like now but, trust in my promises for you beloved one. Continue to pray for him break through is indeed soon. In the mean time keep your heart and mind on me and the promises I have spoken. Pray for him continuously as you do now and those I have called to help put this community together. 

You were right to think that I have entrusted you to Mother Teresa,  St Therese little flower and St Francis. They have been with you since childhood beloved. Watching over you and praying for you fervently because this is there work too. Heaven is only the beginning beloved and they too are excited to embark on this project with you but, of course my Mother will be and has been the overseer over all this. This is indeed is her gift to me as you are my gift to her.

My dear ones I want to share with you how important it is in this hour to use your time wisely. There are so many graces that have been released in this hour of suffering. That is indeed apart of the blood covenant given to you all suffering and pain in exchange for graces. There are so many gifts I have given you all my people don’t marvel at the things I have spoken to this little one. For she indeed has been faithful with the little so now she will be entrusted with much more and that is in store for all my beloved ones who will be diligent with the gifts given to them now. You have so much ample time my people. No more excuses that you are too busy, you are unsure what to do. 

This lockdown I have allowed is not just for you to self examine your sins but to also work, get going, being busy about my business. Work like there is no  tomorrow because there may not be my beloved ones. There is so much that can be done now for the kingdom. In you I have put gifts of writing, gifts of speaking, gifts of song and worship, gifts of paintings. Now is the time, don’t put it back any longer. All of these gifts will be used to bring so many souls to me at a later time, You have been appointed to draw specifically souls this little one can’t so please get busy. Many are doubting even now. Fearing that they may not be good enough or comparing themselves with others. Please don’t look to others my beloved one. You are unique, your voice is unique, what I tell you is unique. How you do things is unique to you and to the souls I have assigned to you . So now I am releasing graces  for you to get busy about my fathers business. Let’s create together beloved one and see what anointing I pour out when you step out in faith and obedience to the inspirations I have given you. Go forth now my beloved one in diligence and in faith using your gifts.” 

-From Jesus with Love

Be The Light

This morning I was getting down from my bed and my computer fell from the top bunk and cracked. Furthermore, I had been chided by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel of not taking care of things well. Which is so true because I had just got this computer fixed a week before so I was devastated and disappointment in myself. Since the Lord was telling me to began writing again. Also I do all my work on the channel using this laptop so I was frustrated thinking this had to be the enemy. 

I came before the Lord during prayer as I felt he began speaking to me. 

Jesus began,

“My beloved don’t be too hard on yourself. It would’ve been wise to leave it at a safer place, but who do you think knocked it over?”

The devils Lord

 Jesus responded,

“Yes, Beloved I want you from now on to anoint and bless any equipment or ministry materials you receive. The devils hate the assignment I have given you and  will do all they can to frustrate my plans, but I wont allow it. I do however allow these things to not only cause you to be aware, but to pray more and to grow in patience. An offering a gift you can give to me for the salvation of souls.”

Okay Lord forgive me I renounce frustration, impatience and bitterness.

Jesus continued,

“Now the readings I gave you and the songs I played were all about faith beloved. Did you  not ask me to make you a great women of faith?”

Yes Lord I just didn’t know the cost lol

Jesus responded,

“Well, my little one with great faith comes great test, great breaking and great patience endurance. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not yet seen. To hope in the impossible takes great faith and great faith starts with a  small mustard seed of faith. So I’m not asking for your faith to be big more like I am asking you to hope greatly that I am who I say I am and that I can do all things. This generation will be known for the great exploits and showmanship of my power than any other generation. I am calling my people to have great hope in me, to believe as the times get darker so will great faith arise. It must arise to shader the darkness and cause the enemy to retreat. For so long my people have been held captive by fear, fear of the me, fear of delusion, fear of man and fear of the enemy, but I am calling my people to believe again, hope again in great faith the things that I will do in and through them. For those who are desiring to move in the supernatural gifts, it is available for you. The treasure of heaven is available for all my people all they must do is ask. I have a storehouse where the angels wait to hear the command of my people to release gifts,but my people don’t ask rather they fear it and walk in so much unbelief. Come to me my people come to the Father who owns a cattle on a thousand hills and gives to all generously who ask. Give yourself entirely to me in consecration and holiness and greater works will you do and see all for my glory.”

 Lord if I may I remember you told me that in order to have faith “take more risk”

Jesus continued,

Yes beloved one, my people fear being rejected or doubt the results of things,but step out in faith and obedience and allow me to do the rest. Rarely is there a time a sincere prayer is prayed for a soul and returned void. Sometimes the fruit you don’t see but there is always fruit when you step out in faith. So my people I’m calling faith to rise even in you now. Do you have the lame, sick around you step out in my love to touch them. I am their hope and believe I can and will do the impossible and I might just surprise you. (smiling) Im calling my people to count the cost and began to live out the life of what they say they believe

Do you believe I can raise the dead?

Do you believe I can heal the sick?

Do you believe I can open blind eyes?

Do you believe I can transform a hardened heart?

Do you believe I can do all these things through you?

If you say you believe then what are you doing about it?

My beloved ones take risk hope against hope believe I tell you believe ask for the this gift began to walk in them now. When you see someone in need ask for me to stretch out my hands through your heart and touch them and leave the results to me. Great works will I do in and through you

Lord Can I share the vision you gave me a while back is that okay?

Yes, beloved it will greatly inspire others and to what I have in store for this generation for those who believe . Remember deep faith comes from Intimacy with me.”

So I had a vision family, of a family member who was away from home. I received a letter from them and I was cleaning up my room. When I touched his envelope I immediately went into an open vision. I saw this family member being met by the youth leader of my church at the time and his friends in the parking lot of my church for prayer. The all laid hands on him and began to pray I was just watching. No street lights were on so it was dark however as they began to pray I saw little bulbs of light over my family members head. Then as I looked closely they were getting bigger and I realized they were angels. They began to descend and ascend up and down as they were praying for this family member. The light then overshadowed them all as they were all glowing. Then my family member changed into a man who I knew was on drugs and after they prayed he was completely transformed and restored. He was so in shock seeing the physical transformation of himself he asked to join us. We said sure, then there was a group of us as we went into the streets simply touching the homeless, prositutes, drug addicts and they were immeadielty healed by a touch. They too where in shock and all asked to follow us. Then I saw a dark hill, then one light, then two lights, then three and four then so forth until the whole hill was lite up then I cam out of the vision. The scripture that came to mind was “ a city on a hill”. Mt 5:14 

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.

 That is what this last generation will be like!

We Are In The Days Of Noah

March 13, 2020 Journal Entry

I had someone very close to me call yesterday. I was really glad to hear from that because I wanted to thank them for a book and a card they had sent me. Boy was I in for a surprise because I hadn’t talked to this person for a while and it seemed they had much on their heart.

I have mentioned to you guys in the previous post that I was just getting my confidence in hearing From Jesus again and sharing the messages he was giving me. 

I had posted a message about President Donald Trump on my Facebook page just a few days earlier before receiving this call. The Lord was affirming his re-election and presidency. So this person wasn’t too happy about that. They were very angry and disappointed about things the Lord had told me to share on social media. I knew it was the enemy speaking through them to discourage me from writing or having faith that I was hearing from the Lord because that is exactly where he hit.

As this person went on to say that I wasn’t hearing From Jesus and not only that I would get more likes and gain popularity if I would stay away from prophecies, end times message and politics because in every generation they always say “Jesus is coming” and no one knows the day or the hours. That I should just focus on preaching the gospel like other ministers do. At first I was a bit shocked then all I could do was laugh inside because I knew it was sooo the enemy really trying to discourage me from writing. As the person continued to rant on the phone I thought to myself “really Satan that all you got”.  He is good at doing that for all those who desire to follow Jesus whole heartedly. The Lord releases a grace on you and the enemy can see the areas you are struggling with. As his demons taunt you with doubt, unbelief, and fear concerning what the Lord is calling you to do. You struggle interiorly and even in prayer you cry out to the Lord about it. Then satan sends someone to tempt you or scorn you concerning that very thing. To cause you to question, second guess yourself or feed into that doubt. However, if you recognize him immediately that he loses every time. We all can be used by the devil, he uses weak Christians to attack others. I have been there myself.

This is the second time the, the devil, has pulled this one on me. I remember in my second year walking with Jesus I would press in fervently in the Lord presence in prayer at my apartment. It seemed my life had become just work and prayer. I wasn’t seeing any real fruit then nor any real consolations so I found myself being discontent, frustrated and thinking about being more laxed. The thought kept rising in my head “just live a little”, go out have some fun”..Remember the old days, see you gave your life to the Lord and look at it now, its not fun at all”. As all these thoughts assailed me I did tell the Lord in prayer that I just wanted to live a little because my life was just all about prayer, but soon realized how foolish it was and repented.  I even did a blog about it, you can read here.

Then the very next day my brother in law comes over and says the exact same words to me. That I am not called to be a pastor and I am trying to be “holy ,holy” I should just live a little.  I thought to myself waaaa, was he here in my apartment yesterday when I was crying?? Of course not, but the demons were and they knew very well how to tempt me. All I could do was laugh thinking “uh uh not today Satan, not today”. Imagine if I would’ve listened to those senseless thoughts and suggestions from the devils and others. I wouldn’t be where I am with Jesus today, 4 years later.

So after this person got done giving me their opinion, I kindly told them I respected their stance, I loved them, but I had to listen to the Lord and wasn’t at all interested in likes or popularity only Gods will. After I got off the phone I wasn’t even offended, but I did repent for impatience and frustration in my heart towards them.  It actually made me want to pray more because I realize how so many, even Christians are blinded and hardened to the reality of the times that we are living. So I stayed up and prayed for them and souls who are just like him.  They just don’t know, Father forgive them because I too was one as I came before Jesus saying,

Lord, do you have anything on your heart you would like to share?


Jesus began,

I’m here little one, continue to write my beloved thank you for stopping to discernment.

(I had to stop because the voice I was hearing was very condescending on others and I knew it wasn’t the Lords heart So the first two readings got “laziness”, and “long life” in the BP to walk in the way of the Lord. So I bound any lying spirits and continued to write)

Jesus continued,

yes by faith beloved continue writing by faith. We are one and I do dwell within you as I mentioned I am a breath away.  It truly is easy as breathing just write what is flowing from your heart little one. I am indeed  astounded at the profound unbelief in my body and in my brides little one. So many have made me a “thing”, a “religion”, or even “a religious idea”, but they truly have no faith to believe in me or in my words little one. How it grieves me, so many have taken my words, my promises and my warnings for granted. This soul was right to say that many ministers preach the gospel, but it’s just their own gospel it is not my gospel dear one. You are called to do My will and not the will of man. How many chosen shepherds have strayed away because of the fear of man. Strayed way because of the scorn and contempt they would face if they spoke truth and lived by the truth, but I am upsetting the apple cart. I am doing a new thing. I am raising the lowly, the over looked, the rejected, the unwise, and unlearned. 

Those who will follow me and worship me alone in spirit and truth. Those who will lay down their lives for my service and that of their brothers. Those who care not of the accolades, the respect or honor of men, but live for what heaven says alone. We are indeed in the days of Noah. Oh how my faithful servant tarried for so many years, 120 years to be exact. What do you think the people said, the same thing they say now. “Your foolish, your calling bluff, your crying wolf, your inciting fear, preach something we want to hear, what rain..it has never rained.”

As my people say, “what coming?”. “Yes, you have been saying the Lord is coming for a while now, for years, even centuries”, but my people have fallen asleep. Oh how my apostles faced the same scrutiny and contempt in preaching the coming kingdom. So do not be dismayed or discouraged my little one, you may be small in stature, but in me you stand tall and will continue to do so. Tell them my beloved one of their offenses towards me. Tell them I am indeed coming and I am looking for pure hearts and clean hands. Those who have ears to hear will hear. Those who continue to rely on their own opinion, own agendas and own desires will fall at the waste side. Pray for them dear ones, pray for them fervently. For your King is coming and has his reward in hand!

 This is all for now my little one, my very precious little one .I love you dearly my beloved child. Go now in the peace and courage of your God.”

-From Jesus With Love