Intimacy with God: “Your Always On My Mind”

“Your Always on My Mind, Am I On Yours?”

Hey family,

The Lord really wanted to have me continue to teach on intimacy with him  being in love with God. So in this series will be speaking on “Purity” because when you are in love with someone they are always on your mind right? In the morning you wake up your thinking of them, even dreaming of them, when you go to sleep they are on your mind lol. So is the same with God, when you are in love with him he is always on your mind. You see him in everything and everyone and that began with purity. A Pure bride is irroestiable to God, a  pure souls draws for the Holy Trinity to itself and becomes a temple for the Holy Spirit to dwell, For Jesus to rest and live and for the Father to make is throne.

For scripture says “The Pure in heart shall see God” so guys it very possible to see God with the eyes of your heart for that is where he dwells. That is where the kingdom of God is, it is within you but you must come before him in purity.  So how does one become pure you may ask? It is a work of God the more you spend time with him in his presence the more you become like him, the more you love him, the more you want what he wants because you know he is good and anything he ask of you or takes from you is for your good. So one step builds on another. The demons hate purity guys and have defiled it since the beginning so they will give  you thoughts and images that are not from the Lord you must discern. If they can’t get you to fear Gods presence then they will get you to have impure motives in all you do. You will began to seek Jesus for what you can get, seek him for your own desires and plans and do things out of self will rather than in the will of God.

So practically coming before the Lord when you spend time with you may have a lot of things on your mind and the devils are clever to bring up distractions. So get a peace of paper and write down your to do list, or all the things that are on our heart. Write them down and leave them there on that paper. That literally will clear your mind so you can enter into the Lords presence empty so that he can fill your mind. Then also lay all your concerns at his feet very literally you can then tell him your desires, your opinions about certain things that concern you than simply tell him you want what he wants. Whatever his plan is for those things you are willing to be made willing/ That is a powerful prayer because one thing the Lord gave himself no control over is your will. It is your will that the devils want and the Lord also desires. So when you surrender your will to the Lord than you can come before him in purity because he knows he can do whatever he desires because you want his will.

So simply say everyday “Lord make me willing to be made willing” in that he releases graces with the areas of self will your struggling with than turn your heart towards him so that you are willing for whatever answer he gives you.

As I have referenced before listen to the songs he plays over you …not just in your time alone but all day guys. He speaking all day to you. Listen carefully for the lyrics many times there is direction he is giving you and even in love songs he plays in stores or even at the bank its him singing over you. One time before I took my vows as a Franciscan when I was back home. I walked into the bank and the song was playing “Will you marry me” by ..I was flushed because I knew it was Jesus speaking to me lol I couldn’t help but laugh and smile as I told him “yes” but had no idea what that would entail. So when your mind is on him you see him in everything, in a butterfly the flutters by, in a warm smile from someone passing you buy, in the compliment someone gave you, in the heart shaped piece of toast or milk spill, or in a wet floor “caution sign” at Chipotle when your suppose to be fasting lol He does give warnings too and all of these things have happened to me. Indeed his is so very present all day  lol 

It’s important to “Seek Jesus for Who He is” as he has told me before “Seek me for me”. Ouch that let’s me know my motives are coming impure as I am coming before him to either get a word or direction from him rather than just being with him, My bridegroom that I love. Trust also must come with Purity as he has told me before as well “ You seek me but you don’t trust me so that is why you go off on your own”. So you can seek him but if we don’t trust his direction, his council then what is the point because you will continue on in self will and impure motives. Wanting to work out things, situations, circumstances and people on your own rather than doing it Gods way. That what he calls attachments and far too many of us are so attached to sooooo many things. As he has given me the rhema before “Detach detach your emotions are getting in the way” Oh boy I know a thing or two about that lol. He wants us completely detached from the things of the earth, outcomes and from creatures as well. To be only attached to him, his way and his will when we seek him.

You see Jesus not only wants your life, your heart but he wants your will. If you would trust him and surrender completely to all that he wants, all that he gives, all that he takes away because he has your best interest at heart and it is always the best outcome even thought many times we won’t understand. So you must trust him.

Remember, this is your bridegroom, he loves you, desires you, needs you and want to do life with you. So think of him when you wake up ask him what he wants to do with your day together. So you don’t get caught up in fruitless activities of the world that lead no where.  Think of him as you both are  working together, Think of him even when you have others around you, that he is right there in your midst what are you thinking? What are you saying or doing is it pleasing to your beloved bridegroom?, Think of him when you are going to sleep? What did you guys do to day? What consolations did he give you to show he was there with you? How did he speak through others today to show you his love? Think of him, leave him always on your mind.

My Beloved spouse do you have anything to add Lord

Jesus began,

“Oh my dear ones how I long for you with a longing you cannot comprehend only in eternity will you realize how I have labored for your love and the anguish of my soul to continue to wait when we can finally be together not as through a thin veil but face to face. I tell you that you can experience that even now in the secret garden of your heart I am invit

ing all my brides to join me there this week. Yes right now it may be the garden of gethsemane where I toiled in anguish over the cross set before me but how I was rejoiced over you because you  were worth it. Every bit of it, How I would do it all over again a million times over just to have you right next to my side beloved one. you are always on my mind do you know there is not once second that goes by that I am not thinking of you

I am known as the constant one and you are constantly on the mind of your God. As you sleep, when you awake as you go about your day I gush over you and oh but when you give me a grace or better even when you give me your time I am so excited, elated with joy that my beloved has chosen me from the other options that have pervaded her. she would rather spend time with me. You have no idea how that satisfies my thirst and longing for love. Yes I desire to be loved, I longed to be loved I need to be loved by you my beloved one. Oh please do come, come and allow to wash you clean allow me to heal the wounds of your heart and restore your peace and joy. Please come I am waiting even now. Allow me to cleans your mind and heart from all unrighteousness. Put my cloak of righteousness upon you and call you my pure irresistible bride who wants me and me alone. Come You are always on my mind.

 I think of what I created, I think of what I have birthed, I think of what I have in store for you beloved and I am in awe when you say yes , when you respond to my advances. how so few  respond or even tarry. please don’t disappoint me come. How I think of what you like, I set your day up not only with lessons but with great love notes all around you. Yes I too get excited in planned these thing, you know I have all eternity to do so.  (smiling) Yes ,I know you love birds the yellows specially so I planned at that very moment when you sat on the bench the yellow bird to be there to tell you I love you. I think of how you love those gourmet cookies so I make sure even when the store my be running low on stock I ensure that one package is left just for you because those are your favorite. I think of you as I set the moon at just the right angle to hit your window casting off the shadow filling your room with moonlight just to make you smile. Yes, I think of you. 

I know your favorite color is red so I make sure that the dress you love so much, the red one sits waiting for you to pick up. Just to see your joy as you put it on. Yes, I think of you, as I have butterflies flutter all around and about you even on the highways to let you know I am very present with you. Yes I think of you, I have your child come and run giving you a kiss and a hug for no apparent reason because that sweet hug and kiss was from me beloved to tell you how much I love you. Yes I think of you, as I leave a rose at the end of your steps on valentines day just to show you my love. Yes, I think of you, when I know you are seeking me for answers and unsure about what I have told you and when you get on the computer the answer in in the message you read, the book you pick up or a sign on a billboard. Yes, I planned all of these things before eternities time. My footprints, my love letters to my bride through out the day. You are indeed always on my mind beloved am I on yours? 

That was the end of Jesus message

Intimacy with Jesus: “When You Are In Love With God”

The Lord desires that I do a series on Intimacy with God: When you are in love because there is all the difference when you love God and when you are in Love with him. For the times that are coming upon the earth it’s you have to be in love with him to withstand the onslaught. 

 

Not only that but it is Holy week and Jesus is desiring and longing for the very real presence of his bride. He wants are hearts and mind off of the world and preparing ourselves for our wedding with him!! Eek He desires that you too would see and hear him this grace is available for everyone..” he isn’t an easy catch” as he says lol. You must desire him above all things and persons of this world..just as when you are on love with some one you pursue them. You don’t give up so easily. So will will be breaking down some pointers and seeking the Lord as to what he has to say about how to fall in love with him

When You Are In Love With Some One You:

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*Want to Spend All Your Time With Them

*They Are Always On Your Mind (Purity)

*You  Share Everything with them (Togetherness & Sorrows and joys)

*You Are Faithful and Loyal To Them

-From Jesus with Love

A Curse of A Hardened Heart

Matthew 13: 14 So they show that what Isaiah said about them is true: ‘You people will listen and listen, but you will not understand. You will look and look, but you will not really see. Yes, the minds of these people are now closed. They have ears, but they don’t listen. They have eyes, but they refuse to see.

I came back from doing a message outside and he had given me “ Gods correction”. I was a bit concerned asking the Lord to show me the error of my ways and felt prompted to get 3 rhemas to get direction and I pulled  

Acts 28:26-27 Hardened Hearts

“Go to these people and say you will indeed hear but never understand and you will indeed see but never perceive. For these peoples hearts have grown dull and with their ears they can barely hear and their eyes they have closes lest they should see with there eyes and hear with their eyes”

So I was perplexed and sat with the Lord on my  bed in adoration and a flood of emotions came over me. Such grief and sadness because I understood that even in this pandemic and trial the Lord has allowed, many have not gotten it. Many still don’t understand or have a desire to repent, to draw nearer to the Lord and live for him.  The word “ curse of hardened heart” kept ringing in my mind.

Lord is there anything you want to say? My heart is breaking

Jesus began,

Yes my little one, how my heart and that of the Fathers is breaking for the people of the world. There has been a curse of hardened hearts released upon my people. How their love for me have grown cold even in this trial I have allowed to cover the whole world. You would think many would began to wake up to realize that not only am I real, that not only am I God, but that I am calling my people to a change of heart. I am calling my people back to their first love, but how very few have responded. Many are seeing this lock down as a time of relaxation, a time to get off work, a time to relax be with their families and binge watch shows. 

Many are taking opportunities to scoff and mock at my servants, at my prophets, who are speaking the truth. Calling the people to wake up from their slumber that I am indeed coming. How so many scoff at my wisdom and continue to incline themselves to their human reasoning. Many continue to draw to the earth climate change as the cause of these calamities. They are lies, lies, lies, formed by satan and the evil ones to take the minds and hearts of  my people away from the truth. Away from examining their conscience and continue to ignore that gnawing feeling that something is coming, that something is happening, that change needs to happen in their lives. No, instead they continue to feed their vanities, feed their flesh in this time with the latest news, new purchases as consolation and comforts from the void they feel in their hearts. 

Oh how my heart is breaking dear one it is because of you little ones who have indeed laid yourself down, humbled yourself and prayed that is why my mercy has been relentless, but how much longer what will it take my people. You obstinate minds and stiff necked natures you continue on about as it will be business as usual when these quarantines are lifted. Do you not see my hand in this? Do not ignore my calling any longer. The day of salvation is at hand and it is now. The door of Mercy will not be opened for ever my hardened heart ones. Indeed you have eyes, but you do not see me crying out all around you. To turn your heart back to me away from the word and your selfishness. You indeed have ears, but you do not hear the warning from my shepherds, prophets, and pastors. You do not hear the voice crying out in the wilderness make straight the way for the Lord. Rather you scoff and say I have heard it before, oh yea He his coming, but no one knows the day or hour. I tell you the fig tree is blooming and this is the season 

(here is quoting Matthew 24:32 “Now learn this lesson from the fig trees; As soon as its twigs het tender and its leaves come out, you know that summer is near. 33 Even so, when you see all these things you know that it is near right at the door.34 Truly I tell you this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened”

You say there is no God and I need not to be held accountable for my life. For I only have one life to live, so I will live it to the fullest. Oh, but I tell you, you have eternity awaiting you. Eternity where everything will be put into account. My dearly loved ones I paid that price on cavalry to have you right next to me. 

Please heed my call. Please hear the cry of my heart and harden your heart no longer. Do not be like that thief on the cross who scoffed at his time of salvation. He did not know that that very cross, that very trial, that very moment was the moment of his salvation. Yet he rejected it and treated me with scorn and contempt, however the other thief recognized me in the midst of his pain, in the midst of his trial, in the midst of his cross. He heard the voice of his shepherd, he reached out and received his salvation. For he knew he deserved everything I had allowed and he knew my infinite goodness and mercy. So my mercy is yet again extended to you.  My mercy time and time again will not fail. It is fathomless and and abounding, but it will not be available forever my dear ones. Run to the arms of our merciful savior or when we meet you will be face to face with the just judge. My beloved ones, my brides please pray for these hardened hearted ones. Pray for this nation and the world. Pray against this curse of hardened heart that have caused many to continue on the road to destruction and have seared conscious, but nothing is impossible for me and my mercy will triumph over judgment pray for them.’

That was the end of Jesus message

You Are My Treasure

March 12, 2020


 I woke up this morning with my body feeling so sore and very uneasy. I wasn’t sure if I had offended the Lord in anyway or it was a suffering because it was really hard to connect  with Jesus in worship. However, all the songs he was playing over me were about His peace and not to fear so I felt in my heart this was an attack of some sort. 

I ended up talking to Mother Clare and Father  Ezekiel last night for a while. iI was a rough day when I felt so discouraged thinking I had been deceived in discernment with one of the messages I got from Jesus.  It took me into self pity real fast. 

However, they both helped me discern that message in question was from the Lord. Help me Lord, truly to combat this fear, doubt and unbelief in hearing your voice.

Then the community gathered together in the morning and Blessed Mother began to speak to Mother Clare.  She was crying because she had missed their intimate relationship they once had, It was so sweet and encouraged me to go much more deeper with Blessed Mother when praying the rosary as well. We prayed for those affected with the virus. After receiving the Lord I feel so at peace thank you Jesus!

I came to him saying, My beloved Lord is there anything on your heart?

Jesus began,

“’I am right here beloved indeed the graces are flowing on this mountain, in this community in a beautiful way. You all are my faithful ones.  The ones who answered the invitation to my banquet when my Father called. You are the lame, the crippled and blind ones in the eyes of the world, but to me you are my beautiful treasures. For it is the sick that are in need of God not the righteous. Many have turned aside and walked in their own way, but you all have been faithful to endure and preserver with every test that has come against this community and because of your love for me you have withstood every attempt to get you off this mountain. So you all will be richly rewarded indeed encourage, your brother.

(Here Jesus speaking of a soul in the community, one of my brothers. Who has been desiring to hear the Lords voice, but feel hopeless in his efforts)

Many have the same sentiments. Your brothers, tell them in time as they press in the very same grace to hear and see me will given to them. They must just excercise their faith and cast away doubt, fear, pride and comparison. Which stops many from entering into conversations with me . You know a thing or two about that beloved.

(At this point I was writing, but still doubting and of course as usual Jesus reads my thoughts)

 Please stop your worrying, how that hurts me so much. Your lack of trust and confidence in me after all I have done and all we have been through Mary Elisha. 

(My heart just melted when he said that)

 I desire to talk with you. I desire to fellowship and communion with you. If I could have my way we would talk for hours, but it would be too much for your mind to comprehend little one. My words are of eternal importance so I must give you a little at a time. There is only so much you can take in, meditate on, and apply to your life circumstances. Even now I see the intensity you are feeling. These will go with time, remember the enemy hates this more than anything beloved. He will do whatever he can in order to take this grace and gift from you. He will do this with all of you so share with them some of the obstacles you have had to overcome in hearing me.”


Lord sorry I guess I didn’t want to inflate myself or stir anyone up in jealously because I have been there,. You know like “Ooh I am hearing from the Lord”.


Jesus responded,

“Well my beloved one it’s not about you dear. It’s for other so please share. It will strengthen your brethren and those who desire this intimacy with me”


Okay Lord

That is all for now little one continue to come before me every day and allow me to express my heart to you dear. Continue to pray for this community, and Mother Clare especially she will need much wisdom and discernment in the coming days for precise direction. I love you so much words could not be enough to say. You are my beloved in whom I am well pleased.

– From Jesus With Love

“Many Have Taken My Mercy For Granted, Pray!”

I had just come from a ministry trip down in the valley and from talking to Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel about how it went. I was headed back to my place when I  saw my brothers outside conversing so I joined them for a bit although it was pretty late. I got home around 11:30 pm and I  was so tired. However, I desired to seek the Lord to see what was on his heart for me to do with the rest of my evening I got “Laziness”  in the Bible Promises. 

I knew it was about me journaling because I told him when I got back today I would journal tonight to hear his heart, but anxiety was overtaking me again….goodness. So I asked the Lord again and got “Hospitality” which always means to me for me He is wanting me to use my gifts. I knew it, so I asked the Lord again if he wanted me to journal got “Holy Spirit”.


Per my previous blog the Lord has impressed on my heart to begin journaling daily again.  Oh boy how I was still struggle with that…easy as breathing huh ,Lord lol. That morning I had to rush through prayer because we had to go down to the valley to visit our neighbors and what fun that was.  Since being up here on the mountain the Lord had put it on Mother Clare heart to start a food ministry. Where we go door to door giving families in the valley at the base of the mountain food but also ministering to them the love of Jesus.  We started with 8 families just simply knocking on doors asking if they wanted food. It has since grown to 16 people and 13 families in total we now do bible study with and some even receive communion!

I hold their names, their prayers and family situation deep in my heart. Most that day were welcoming, but I just felt in my heart that many had dead faith you know. I’m not sure if I’m being presumptuous, but maybe I am. Everyone seemed to say they knew the Lord but seemed so formal in their conversation about him. I was sensing that I needed to pray “the dead bones would rise in the valley and dead faith be set a flame for the Lord. Here I am praying for dead faith to come to life upon my neighbors when I am struggling with the same thing. Faith to believe that Jesus will speak to me and that he wants to speak to me.

So I came before Jesus with all these thoughts in my heart from what had taken place that day. Lord  you wanted me to come before you believing you would speak to me by faith. I am coming to you to hear your heart.

Lord is there anything you want to say?


Jesus began,

“My heart is breaking for this nation my beloved one. They have no idea what things are in store for them. Terrible, terrible, plans that man and the evil one have concocted to cause this nation upheaval and distress. I want you to pray, pray, pray, little one. Pray for your nation, pray for your president, and pray for your loved ones that they may see the truth. Past the media lies, see the truth past the walls in their conscience they have created in order to not go any deeper with me. Many are so blind by the numerous offenses and sins that are done against me every day. Many have taken my mercy for granted dear one, but I will no longer keep relenting if the hearts of the people in this nation continue on in their stiff neck ways. Then I must allow what is planned to wake many up, my little one. How my heart grieves for my children. So many that continue to reject my love and spit on my mercy. Many who call themselves my own feel they have no need of my mercy because in their eyes they are good. They are in right standing with me, but that is just it..it’s in their Own Eyes and not in my mirror. Pray that hardened hearts would be soften and they would be willing to take a good look in my mirror and be humbled. Remember in the Rick Joyner book how he too shuddered at the door of judgment but, once entering through the door found it to be the greatest treasure and door in heaven. He then asked that he may come to know my judgments more clearly on earth that he may serve me more perfectly. 

(As an aside here Jesus is referencing to the Rick Joyner book called “Final Quest” which I encourage every believer to read!)

Jesus continued,

I have given you that grace daughter and have answered that prayer, you prayed so long ago. Now pray for your brethren to do the same. To seek my judgments here on earth that they may indeed serve me more perfectly and that they wouldn’t then be judged when they see me at the throne.”

I said,

 Lord I hope this is you. 

( I was hesitating, doubting thinking these were my own thoughts. Furthermore, I was struggling because the words didn’t seem as regal and wise as Mother Clare’s “Jesus”,  or St. Faustina’s “Jesus” etc. You see, here I was comparing myself with others. I’m such a hotmess, Lord forgive me. 

Jesus sensed these thoughts in my heart and said,
“Keep writing my little one I speak to you in a way that you will understand and others will understand as well. As simple as a child because that what you are to me, my child. That is all for now my dear one, continue to come before me every day writing because it’s not for your sole benefit. As I mentioned before, but for others my dear one. This fast is very serious and I take your prayers and those of the community very serious. It’s a sweet aroma to me and all of heaven, so continue to pray for your nation and your prayers will be honored. Now rest in me tonight beloved”

-From Jesus With Love

New Year, New Habit

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October 4th, 2019 I took vows for my vocation as sister of the Fransican Oblate of Mount Carmel which so happened to be St. Francis of Assisi “ feast day”. It was the most exiciting, emotional, nerve racking day of my life lol. That is, the day I officilay said goodbye to the world and took on my new name and earthly garments… my habit

As a protestant growing up I was unaware of who St. Francis of Assisi was or the saints at large. I didn’t know very much about the “religious life” only what I had seen on TV, with nuns and monks. My dad however, is Catholic and upon me giving my life to Jesus he had mentioned to me that maybe I should join a catholic convent because I was so zealous for the Lord. Immeaditely I retored in my pride that the Lord was not into denominations and I didn’t need to join a covent to walk out my faith.” Oh my, how I reaked with pride and still do but the Lord is truly bringing me lower and lower in humility as he shows me the nothing I truly am. So now 2 years later, I have taken my religious vows and joined the order of one of the greatest saints, who would’ve thought… I know Jesus did lol. He is the only one who could’ve taken a fashion designer pursuing the world, success, honor, fame and put her in the most beautiful garment in all the world…a habit.

1 John 2:15 Love not the world, neither the things that are in the world. If any man love the world, the love of the Father is not in him.

You see St. Francis took those words quite literally, and all of God’s word. His heart burned to live out the gospel just as Jesus did and by the Lords grace he did just that. He was a son of a wealthy merchant who was also into the high life. He embarked on a military career where he wanted to become a knight. However, through a serious of illness which stopped this pursuit and 2 visions from God. The Divine intervened and he began to pursue the Lord and in a church looking upon a cross he heard Jesus say “Go, Francis and repair my church, which as you see is falling into ruin”. Francis immeaditely thought the Lord was speaking about the church he was in, St. Damaian which was run down. So he went to his Fathers shop and sold all the fine linens to get money to rebuild the church. The Father was irate, renounced him, beat Francis, took him to trial before the Bishop of his time demanding all the money back. The Bishop at the time told him to give his Fathers money back and that the Lord would provide for him to rebuild the church. At that point Francis, had a divine enlightened as the scripture from Matthew came to his mine “ Our Father who are in Heaven”. He renounced his entire family, father, fortune and realized now had a Father in heaven who would provide for him. He needed no connection with the world, he stripped off all his clothes gave them to his Father as the Bishop covered him and as he turned his back literally on the world. He then placed upon himself “ a brown potatoe sackcloth” as his garment of choice. To love our lady Poverty as our Lord Jesus did

St. Francis, heart burned to live the gospel out literally by these scriptures revealed to him by the Lord.

Matthew 10:8 Freely have you received freely give.

Luke 9:3 “Take nothing for your journey,” he instructed them. Don’t take a walking stick, a traverlers bag, good, money or even a change of clothes”

Matthew 19:21 Jesus answered, “if you want to be perfect, go, sell your possesions and give to the poor, and you will have treasures in heaven. Then come, follow me”

Francis took these words literally and lived out these scriptures unto his death which have impacted the church still centuries later. These same scriptures the Lord burned in my heart to take very seriously and literally. After losing my job, I began to give all my things away, giving to the poor and he desires for me not too charge any fee in anything that I do or give becaue I have freely reiceved. So coming to New Mexico I had no idea what the Lord had in store and didn’t know what to expect. However, it was after a month of being here that I learned Father and Mother Clare where Fransiscan and as we watched the movie “ Brother sun, sister Moon” about the life of St. Francis of Assisi my heart burned yet again. This is always wanted I wanted, or better yet what the Lord wanted for me! I just didn’t see any example in front of me to follow.

Now putting on the habit was a different story, when I found out that I would have too, or let me rephrase that. That I would get to wear the habit for the rest of my life as a wedding garment unto the Lord I was repulsed at first. I could live the life of a Franscican with the Lords help but, to really let go of the world in that way, I wasn’t sure I was ready for it. It took about 2 more months after watching that film then one day the Lord impressed it on Father Ezekiels heart that he wanted his bride in a habit NOW. No more waiting, not only that but, he wanted to give me a new name I was perplexed to say the least. After hearing these things which I couldn’t object too my heart was racing. I came face to face with the reality that maybe my heart was still in the world, I was so attached to my looks, my persona, and my name. My, my, my sheesh, does someone need to die to self or what lol. Immeaditly I told them I would adhere to the Lords request but, if they would give me a moment too to talk with him. So I ran to Blessed Mothers prayer tree and just bared my heart too her. I told her about my fears, anxieties, and once again what people would think. However, I told her if Jesus wanted this I wanted it too but please give me the peace and fill my heart to love the Lords will. She did just that as she always does!! Blessed Mother is the best, I found myself within an hour flooded with such peace , joy and even a new name. I heard in my spirit “ your name is Mary Elisha, Mary Elisha” so I sought the Lord on discernment and he confirmed that was him.

So on Oct 4th, which we didn’t plan for but Jesus did, I took my religious vows and made a professed my vocation as a third order Franscain oblate. Nana, died that day for the world and all of heaven too see as my witnessess that I indeed had renounced the world and had taken up my wedding garment from the Lord, my habit. An oblate is simply the noun tense of an Oblation which means: a thing presented or offered to God. So one who has made an offering of their life to God as a living sacrifice, picking up their cross daily and following Jesus. The grey habit is to signify “sackcloth” and the brown portion of my garment is called a scapular. It represents Our Blessed Mother who came to one of the Carmelite saints “Simon Stock” wearing the same habit in an apparition. She was wearing the brown scapular and holding a scapular that goes around your neck. Also holding infant Jesus who was wearing the same thing. The scapular represents our servanthood putting the apron on, washing the feet of all those we meet and a brown cord with 5 knots for our 5 vows. A vow of chasity (which is faithfulness to the Lord), a vow of obedience, a vow of holy poverty, a vow of substantial prayer and a vow of substantial solitude. Carmelites dedicated their lives very much like Prophet Elijah and Elisha in prayer and solitude.

I took off the old life, the old nature, the old creation which belongs to my former manner of life which was corrupt with deceitful desires and now have put on my new self, increated after the likeness of God in true righteousness and holiness. I have been made new! My habit is a sign to my family, friends and the world that I no longer belong to the world nor love the world but have been sent as the Lords’s bride and disciple to serve, love, honor all in humility, simplicy and poverty.

I hope you get a “New Habit” this year too!

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-From Jesus With Love