Brother David’s Testimony- How the Lord made A Priest Out Of Me

Testimony – How the Lord made a Priest out of  me? by Brother David of the Annunciation Franciscan Oblates of Mt. Carmel ; Sacred Heart Refuge Sangre de Cristo Mountains, New Mexico March 17, 2021 I dedicate this testimony to Mother Mary and Father Joseph, who have walked with me the whole way. 

Hi Heartdwellers, so I am not a cradle Catholic. I never knew what a priest was growing up ; I barely knew who Jesus was. I had heard of the Name. I did go to a Christian camp for two summers near Yosemite Valley and during one stay I had lost my inhaler; yet somehow never needed it for those two weeks. Several events in my life didn’t make sense until I could understand that God was operating miracles to awaken me to Truth.  For the couple of years that our family did attend services at a Presbyterian church in Los Angeles, I only understood church as the place where my Sunday School class made lunch for the elderly, and the role of Joseph in ‘Joseph and the Technicolor Dreamcoat’ was given to a girl.  I went on a mission trip to Tijuana my senior year only because I had a crush on a girl who had signed up to go. I ate a burrito on the way back to Los Angeles and had violent food poisoning. 

The poison of lust was already in me. God was not present in our family; we were our own clan, very sheltered, and I was an extremely naive 18-year old when my parents sent me off to college on the east coast, very confident their firstborn son was on his way. An impressive job, magazine home, solid retirement portfolio, gourmet food and nice vacations were to be the measure of success for my life. Little did my parents know they were letting me loose in a playground of heathen foolishness. I had already displayed some unruly behavior as a kid growing up – petty theft, pathological lying, risk taking to impress friends and girls, ditching school. Minor offenses, you might say. But nothing was able to check my conscience enough to override an insatiable need for attention, peer approval and getting the girl. My parents are hard-working, faithfully married Americans who did everything to provide for their kids. But once I was given adult freedom, I pursued reckless and aimless ambitions in my 20s and 30s with such stupendous consequences ; sin was my compass. 

Does God look at that and say to Himself, well, I told them My foolishness is wiser, so, this guy would make a great priest ! If you had the patience to hear more details of my life before meeting Jesus, you would decide that I was the worst candidate for priesthood. I can say that the only thing that made me change my ways – was the constant pain and sickness that the poison of sin had injected into me. And I had a high tolerance for pain and suffering, growing up with severe and debilitating asthma and allergies. When life became too difficult I never reasoned that it was sin, but simply because I was just messed up, and that life was painful, and there was nothing you could do about it. I would simply pursue some other avenue of sin in the hopes that this new remedy would work.It never once occurred to me growing up what I wanted to do, and I suffered as a wandering spirit my whole life until knowing the Lord. My parents, very driven to provide their children with the best education, suggested what they knew each time I came back home, lost and confused, and this always involved more school. 

My young adult life spinned around in a cycle of academics, quitting jobs, and moving back home. By the time I was 30 I already had two masters degrees. TWO. In the last effort to find that career path so necessary to launch me into success, I put myself through night school to earn a Masters in Accountancy, then studied like a mad man to pass the very difficult CPA exams, and then spent a year with an audit firm to validate the license. 3 – years – of – torture. When I began the night classes at San Diego State University to earn the Masters in Accounting, the anxiety in me began to take on demonic proportions. I started to have horrific nightmares and began to see a dark shadow in my room at night. I would throw my pillow at it. I didn’t realize until much later that someone was astral projecting into my room and throwing curses at me. I wonder how many doors I had opened to give the enemy permission to torment me. I already regretted this new career choice but told myself there was no turning back. 

There was a point in all that mess where I ended up crying out to God, crumpled down on the floor in the middle of the night, asking, God if you’re there, if You’re real, please…help. I lifted my hands up to Heaven, this was my last attempt, the only hope left I found at rock bottom. I cried out everything left in me, I turned numb. And then, I heard His Voice. Not a still small voice, but a strong voice, audible, yet somehow that made no noise and that only I could hear. That moment convinced me of God, and after a year of looking for that accounting job in the 2009 economic crash, I finally received a job offer in France, with the #1 audit firmÉ.the same in which my Dad had become an invested partner, where he spent his whole career and became extremely successful. So I moved back abroad to France for the 3rd time in my life, in June of 2010. And the misery continued.

 In many ways the deception of the enemy grew even thicker, in that span of time between finding God and finding Jesus. But signs along the way and divine coincidences also began to occur that were a beacon of light compelling me forward. Predictable as it was, I got fired from that audit job after a year, and went to work in a Japanese restaurant in Paris. I would end up trying to start my own business a couple of years later in the food industry. These years were the most difficult – I saw everything come to the surface ; it was like all the darkness, lies, new age deception, godlessness and selfish, sinful pride manifested in a very real way, and I was fighting for dear life to wake up. A living nightmare if you will. It was horrific. Ironically, my business partner would be the first person to hand me the Gospel – the mystic Gospel of Jesus according to Maria Valtorta. I had also begun to watch accounts of near death experiences on the internet. The summer of 2015 was decisive – one morning while at the farmer’s market selling our product, began rounds of vomiting. I returned home later and couldn’t move ; I was on the floor in a fetal position, and sadness and grief welled up in me. 

This time, I cried out to Jesus – please Jesus, please come be with me, I need You, I need to be in Your Presence, I can’t do this alone. And the next day, He showed up as I discovered the Heart Dwellers channel, where I learned you could have an intimate relationship, conversation, and fellowship with Jesus, see Him, hear Him, and talk with Him. Jesus didn’t show up in my room that day in a physical manner, but Holy Spirit arrived with the tools I would need to learn how to always see the Lord, instead of hoping for a rare visitation or open vision. Oh my.. for months on end I cried. And thus began the process of deliverance, which is ongoing to this day, from all worldliness, sinful habits, unhealthy attachments, and misleading ways. At that time in life, I was about to sign an irrevocable 9-year lease for a storefront in France, and was to be soon engaged. The Lord appeared in a dream in which I was in the jewelry shop with my fiance picking out a ring. I turn to look out through the large display window to the street, and see Jesus standing outside. His puts His hands up around His eyes to peer in – He sees me there, and, crestfallen, walks away in sadness. I woke up right away to the grief and realization of His feelings. I felt like I was punched in the heart. It wasn’t easy, and it certainly wasn’t pretty, but I quit both relationships with my good friend / business partner, and girlfriend / fiancé. God had other plans for my life. 

One upside to living in the valley of death for so long is that once Jesus is Your Savior, you know it’s not the ‘new and improved me’ that you are living, but HIS life that has been given to you for free, totally undeserved, to live in for all eternity. I hear the Father talk to me sometimes, and I realize, He’s not talking about me but to His Son living in me. There’s just no room for smug pretense. God and I both know, life is not something I’m very good at. And He’s going to save my whole family of 2 parents, 2 brothers and 2 sisters because the black sheep of them all who was hand-picked by God – would never boast of being a Christian. ÒI peeled him off the floor and put a ring on his finger, and he will never forget that for the rest of his life, God would explain to you. But God didn’t just welcome me Home as the prodigal son that I am. When Jesus entered into life, or I entered into His, or we entered into Our Life, He gave me far-out promises, like becoming a priest. I didn’t know what that meant when He told me, but 5 years later, here I am, offering the Holy Sacrifice of Mass and going, how did I get here? It was a specific moment of sitting with the Lord, (thank you Heart Dwellers for teaching me), when He unveiled the calling on my life. 

The next five years were a maze of discernment weekends with religious orders, conversations with priests, monks, nuns and missionaries, and year-long service programs where I volunteered at Catholic churches. The first of such was under the auspices of the OFM Franciscans at St. Camillus parish, outside of DC. The second, with Our Lady of Hope in Philadelphia, through Catholic Social Services. At the end of 5 years of searching, I knew a great deal more about the differences between Benedictines, Franciscans, Dominicans, and diocesan priests, but I was more lost than when I had started. So much that I even gave up becoming a priest. I started packing my bags for Japan to be a missionary there. I had even bought my plane ticket. Funny thing along the way of getting lost – it’s where you and God meet. And this is where the story of my heavenly parents must be told to explain how I got here, to priesthood, in a religious order, doing the artwork I had also been called to do. It all fell into my lap, but let’s go back a few years. 

As I already mention, after I had given my life to Jesus, or rather, begged Him to come to earth to visit me, I was immediately led to the Heart Dwellers ministry, the next day. Clare’s messages at that time taught the Divine Mercy chaplet. I tell you what, when you’re at rock bottom and you’ve just cried out to Jesus to be saved, hearing about the Divine Mercy revelation was like seeing the Coast Guard pull up next to my shipwreck as I’m in the freezing, shark-infested waters, about to sink down. I started praying those chaplets like they were the ladder into the ship. I remember, literally, I would race to say as many as I could in the Divine Mercy hour. I was soon airlifted out of France where I was living at the time, in quite miraculous fashion, and brought back to America in a state of shell-shock. A providential friendship at a soup kitchen led me to attend worship services at a Presbyterian church. But the Divine Mercy devotion still kept shouting in my ear, “YOU NEED AN ABSOLUTION, YOU MISERABLE WRETCH, and so when the next Divine Mercy Sunday rolled around I went to a priest at St. Gabriel’s down the street. It took me several gut-wrenching days to prepare my confession and then, to my great dismay, was told I needed to become Roman Catholic to enter the confessional. Which I did. 

I was confirmed the following year in the Roman Catholic church at St. Patrick’s in Charlotte, NC. On Divine Mercy Sunday. Funny, today as I write this testimony we are celebrating the feast day of St. Patrick. Maybe he interceded to kick my rear hard enough to finally sit down and write this. The wonderful parish secretary there handed me a book, 33 Days to Morning Glory. Written by Fr. Gaitley of the Marian Priests of the Immaculate Conception, it summarizes the various consecration programs of 4 great saints, to prepare for total surrender of oneself to Jesus through Mary. I did, and from that point on I saw Mary grab hold of my hand and begin walking home with me. I consecrated myself to Mary on the feast of Her Immaculate Heart. She determined that of the 3 cities where I could have served with the OFM Franciscans, it would be in DC, because the Basilica of the Immaculate Conception is there, the national Shrine of the Catholic Church in America. Many Masses, confessions and hours of prayer spent there. 

After a year of service She then guided me to serve at Our Lady of Hope in Philadelphia. And when a car parked in front of the parish one day with the license plate, ‘Exodus’, I realized I was in the wrong place and knew I was supposed to be somewhere else. After a few last ditch, half-hearted attempts to become a priest, I had given up on that calling and figured, as aforementioned, that I would be a missionary to Japan. Little did I know God was literally going to allow a plague to descend upon my Egypt and guide me through the waters to the Promised Land of priesthood and religious life. While I was at Our Lady of Hope, I dedicated my Lent to St. Joseph and decided I would renew my consecration to him. Yes, after consecrating myself to Mary I wasted no time in doing the same with St. Joseph. At the time, I had been following a class by Kevin Zadai, online, in which he suddenly says, you will discover God’s destiny for your life this weekend. And guess what? I did. I heard from Clare that very Sunday. Palm Sunday in fact. Inviting me out to New Mexico to join a prayer community, sold out to Jesus. I said yes. In the midst of a global epidemic…surreal. 

The last vestiges of worldliness and attachments resisted, but I could see through the smoke and mirrors now, and knew I was being extended an incredible invitation to follow Him. And when I arrived, unbeknownst to me, was a community of priests to welcome me. The Franciscan Oblates of Mt. Carmel. That summer I was invited to profess my vows as a 3rd order Franciscan and a priest. It was suggested that I do so on the next Marian feast day – this was agreed to. What was that particular feast day, you might ask? – the Immaculate Heart of Mary. Mary and Joseph turned me into the priest God had decided to make of me, revealing the Divine Orchestration of Holy Spirit that makes me marvel each time I think about it. When I was lost, Jesus found me. When I lost my vocation, I was given it. God works in such mysterious and then surprising ways. And it’s a family affair. And I didn’t have to go to seven years of seminary! Phew. 

If I have this podium to share with you God’s Love and Divine Will, please let me bless with you this : God is bringing His Bride back to the garden, restoring His Church to the beginning. Nothing could be simpler and truer than living one’s vocation under the parental roof of Mary and Joseph. Nazareth is Heaven on earth. And the Holy Family is the safe refuge for all walks of life, not just priests. Recently, God reminded me of the promises He had given to me 5 years earlier, and that they had all come true. Now, He said, it’s time to graduate, to kindergarten.I understood – our vocations are not who we are, but what He does, and what He loves most about us is that we are simply His little, very needy children. One thing hasn’t changed since receiving the vocation of priesthood. My insatiable need for love and approval. It has only grown bigger, a huge chasm, that at times is agonizing. I used to be sin-sick. Now, I’m homesick. I long, I cry, for the Fatherland. I must confess, the first years as a Christian were not easy for me.

 I never could fully trust in God’s Mercy, even though He says, via St. Faustina, that the greatest sinner has the greatest right to My Mercy. I know that’s true – because I see what God did to restore me. Intellectually I understood what was happening.  Scripturally, it was all lining up.  This is God Who loves me. But my heart couldn’t come to peace with His terms of contract. This is free, and forever? But then, the companion I had always been hoping for showed up. Her name is Mary. 

It is through Her motherly love and heavenly intercession, both of which are very real, and very available to everyone, that I found the relief in my heart and the ability to trust in Jesus  through Her. I don’t have the guts to go to Him directly. I’m no saint.  I’m a momma’s boy. Always have been, and always will be. I will not expound upon theological tenets or provide further miracles to convince you. All I will say to you is that God took a dead man, put him in the arms of Mary, and turned that pig-pen sinner into a priest. That should be enough to pique your interest, and from there, if you want to learn more about Her, Mary will reveal how much She loves you. And yes, I capitalize She, because She is My Queen. My Mother is the Queen of Heaven. I boast in that. I hope you will too. May the Holy Family of Nazareth keep you, watch over you, guide you, and bless you. And praise! the Lord God, Our Father, Our Savior, bless Him! for His immeasurable Love and Mercy. Amen 

Forest Fires Are Coming

Hello Family this message was given to me April 4, 2020 in my journal entry and prophetically has come to passed with all the fires raging in our nation.

I came before Jesus in prayer saying,

Lord here I come before you in faith again, you played two songs about wanting to speak to me. So I know your heart is burdened. Then I felt led to use the bible to get some scripture readings from you and the word 

“Baruch” came in my heart and sure enough the first reading I got was from the Book of Baruch extended letter from Jeremiah 

(side note these scriptures the Lord gave me two were from the Apocryphal book of the Old Testament. The reason they are not included in our Protestant bibles because they were removed because the Jewish scribes didn’t believe the books were inspired. The original 1611 KJV contained the Apocrypha, it was removed in later editions.  The book of Ben Sirach or Ecclesiastic is in the Orthodox bible and is considered a book of wisdom. The Book of Baruch is extension of the prophets the theme is that the salvation of Israel is found on wisdom so just a background first for those that may protest how the Lord gave me this word )

So as I opened the bible my fingers fell on verse 62..of the Book Baruch wouldn’t you know. concerning fire falling from the skies on forest

Baruch 6:62 “and fire, sent from on high to burn up the mountains and the forest, carries out its command. But these false gods are not their equal, whether in appearance or in power.” then the second reading was from

Ezekiel 3:14-17

And the spirit lifted me up, and took me away, and I went off my spirit any and bitter for the hand of the Lord pressed hard on me. Thus I came to the  exiles who lived at Telabib by the river Chebar and there where they dwelt, I stayed among them distraught for seven days at the end of the seven days the world of the Lord came to me:

Son of man I have appointed you a sentinel for the house of Israel When you hear a word from my mouth you shall warn them for me

Third reading I got was Ben Sira 17:24-29

But to the penitent he provides a way back and encourages those who are losing hope!

Turn back to the Lord and give up your sins. pray before him and make your offenses few. Turn again to the Most high and away from iniquity, and hate intensely what he loathes. Who in Sheol can glorify the Most High in place of the living who offer there praise? The dead can no more give praise than those who have never lived; they who are alive and well glorify the Lord. How great is the mercy of the Lord, and his forgiveness for those who return to him!

Lord I can’t help but think there are  more calamities coming and you want me to warn yet again

Jesus began,

“Yes beloved why do you continue to cowar in fear?”

Well to be honest Lord, I tremble at your word and more importantly I don’t want to lead anyone astray with these words. Thinking they are from you when they are from me. As you can see I am still struggling with unbelief. Oh help me Lord

Jesus responded,

“Oh my little one, truly I need you to trust me more and more beloved. Trust what I have called you to be and trust the words I speak to you. In later times you will go back and see how clearly you have heard from me” 

Lord and what about discernment? I struggle with that too when I get rhemas that really don’t clearly confirm its you speaking to me, but then I also get readings to not delete the messages. In fear it makes me want to stop altogether and just let it sit there for a while until i get some clarity

Jesus responded,

Well that is wisdom beloved. When it doesn’t seem clear always go to others. I have made Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel your third legs of discernment. So go before them and even then when you are unsure re-read what I have spoken. Even if they may be strong words if it leaves you with a profound peace, understanding, and direction dear one then many times it is from me. I will use your writings and your journals to teach others discernment. I desire to speak to all my brides but, many are so afraid and walk in unbelief. So I do want you to teach them about intimacy. For out of intimacy will flow greater trust and confidence in my words to them little one”

 okay Lord thank you for the understanding. So those scriptures Lord are they heralding warnings for things to come again?

(at this time guys I was getting tense again and still doubting whiles typing this)

Jesus continued,

“Relax my little one, relax and just continue to write. Yes, beloved the things that are coming are so devastating dear one. Many will not be able to comprehend why or what is going on. It will be one after the other dear one. How I am truly calling my sleeping ones to wake up from their slumber as this pandemic and plague dies off so another will rise right on its heels.  Forest fires are coming this summer all over your nation none like ever before destroying crops, fields, homes and lively hood its going to be an immense challenge for your nation and forest fire workers beloved many of my animals will also be caught in the fire in the thick of it and perish. Many will then began to cry out where is God in all of this? And I respond to you my people that I am here. I have always been here waiting for you to respond. Will you now to see that the earth is passing away and there is nothing good in it. Will you now began to see that your life is, but a vapor and give it to me? Will you now began to see that your fortresses, your hopes, your wealth and even your health cannot save you, but only I can. 

Call out to me my people I am waiting to hear my beloved ones cry out to me in great humility and contrition turning from there sinful ways that I may heal their land. But many will say how have I sinned? I am a god person, I have gone to church, I pay tithe? Oh my beloved ones, working out your salvation is much more than that. It is a total desire to live free from sin. I have called you to be holy as I am holy.  It is a renunciation of comprises. Small foxes that continue to spoil the vine, it is a deep examination of your conscious as to how you have lived your lives. Are you truly following me, are you loving your neighbor as yourself, are you helping the sick, the poor, the hungry? Not just with a donation here and there, but truly is your heart to live for others, for my kingdom or for yourselves and your family. 

Please wake up me dear ones, rise from your slumber and sleep no more . I am doing a great shaking before the great awakening comes upon the whole world. Indeed the harvest is plenty, but the labors are few. Now to my faithful ones, there are those all around seeking me in their hearts, seeking answers to their questions and you have the answers. This is a great time to share my love, my hope and faith with all those around you. Please don’t shy from this opportunities I bring before you. The opportunities will be countless, so please my beloved brides stand with me.  I know many of you are weary, but stand with me. A time of great harvest is coming and it is even here now.”

 Oh Lord help us, help me because I am truly one of your weary ones. Give us all the strength to stand and believe with great hope not only for ourselves but for those around us.

Jesus responded,

“My beloved one, yes indeed I am releasing graces even now for those to rise in great strength and faith in this hour and I hear the worries of your heart and anxieties beloved. Everything I promised you will come to past even in the midst of chaos. Remember I do make beauty from ashes and make a beautiful masterpiece out of ruins. So my faithfulness will be a testimony to all who witness what I do even in the midst of this trial “

Okay Lord your words are truly comforting, living waters which I love to drink. Love you Jesus thank you so much

“love you too my little one, and all the little ones that take heed and listen with great faith I am with you all stay encouraged”

-From Jesus with Love

Jesus says, “Use Your Gifts”

a vision of the City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge

Hello Family,

I had a wonderful time in worship on the mountains with the Lord he played songs of revival and just worship and his love over me! Then during the Lords supper he gave me the same readings that he had given me the day before which is focuses on me trusting God and obeying his direction that me and my children my prosper in the land he has given me, the second reading was about not having a spirit of fear and the last reading the Gospel was about him sending me out as his disciple to baptize in the name of the father son and holy spirit to the nations teachings others what he has taught me. The second reading really stuck out to me this time around  it was Romans 8, 14-17

All who are led by the Spirit of God are sons of God. You did not receive a spirit of slavery leading you back into fear, but a spirit of adoption through which we cry out, Abba (that is Father). The spirit himself gives witness with our spirit that we are children of God. But if we are children, we are heirs as well:hers of God, heirs with Christ, if only we suffer with him so as to be glorified with him.

Then I immediately envisioned in my heart an orphanage and I was teaching the children that they were family. That they had a father and where not orphans at all. This scripture was a staple for them in order to teach the children not to fear but that this wasn’t an orphanage but they had been adopted in a family. The kingdom of God Family. I saw all the children reciting this and as they got to the part saying “which we cry out” they would all yell out Abba, Papa whiles clapping and laughing !! lol Then I saw when we received a new child we would introduce them to the other children as their new sibling. We then put the child in the center. All the children would recite that passage of scripture to them as they yelled we cry out Abba Papa Welcome to your family! I saw the children running to hug their new sibling and introducing themselves saying I am your brother Luke, I am your sister Ama and so and so. Then this new child would be given a paper heart which they would decorate and on the wall was a mural that says “My Family” and they would go and stick their name on there. Truly the children were our family! 

I saw the children running to this young man calling him Papa and he loved to play with the children and anywhere I went, I would pick up things not only for my biological children, but for the other children as well and referenced them as my own. I saw (these two young siblings who are my little cousins back home.  Whom the Lord has put on my heart, they were there helping at the orphanage. Telling them they were called to be examples to their other siblings that they now have. We were really teaching the children about Family, the kingdom of God that it matters not the skin color, but we are all created from his heart and have one Father. Then I saw another scene with two young girls were fighting and one had yelled to the other you’re not my real sister anyway. The other young girl was really hurt by that. So I pulled the naughty girl to the side explaining to her how she was made from the breath and heart of God and he breathed her into being. I breathed on her stomach as if she was a balloon and she began to laugh and I said and pop then you came about. Then I did the same with the other girl and she laughed and I put there hands together telling them they were indeed sisters and came from the same Father to always remember that. The kids were always excited to get another sibling! lol Oh Lord are these thoughts from you or my own mind you know how I can go on and on

Jesus began,

“My beloved these thoughts and images are indeed from me speaking to your heart about the glorious future I have in store for you beloved. It should draw you to hope. I need and want you to began dreaming with me concerning this community City of God that I have established in to your care to bring to fruition. I have had this work planned for you before the foundation of the earth and you have been perfectly suited for this job. Yes, in all of your weakness you are the best for it because of those things. There will be many challenges as they always will be dealing with children. Especially many wounded souls but, you know a thing or two about that don’t you (he said that smiling)

(I smiled saying), Yes Lord I do

All that I have allowed my little one has been in preparation for this community. For you too truly meet the the children where they are at. For you to shower your love and compassion upon them and for you to grow in much more patience.”

Oh now I cant imagine (I said laughing)

Jesus continued,

“Yes, but it will bring you much joy. Much joy to all who are apart of this community and you will bring the children much joy. Many wounds will be healed in that place beloved. There are special handpicked children I am preparing now. They will be such a consolation to you and this young man.  I told you I have great plans for you both. So don’t be discouraged about what things look like now but, trust in my promises for you beloved one. Continue to pray for him break through is indeed soon. In the mean time keep your heart and mind on me and the promises I have spoken. Pray for him continuously as you do now and those I have called to help put this community together. 

You were right to think that I have entrusted you to Mother Teresa,  St Therese little flower and St Francis. They have been with you since childhood beloved. Watching over you and praying for you fervently because this is there work too. Heaven is only the beginning beloved and they too are excited to embark on this project with you but, of course my Mother will be and has been the overseer over all this. This is indeed is her gift to me as you are my gift to her.

My dear ones I want to share with you how important it is in this hour to use your time wisely. There are so many graces that have been released in this hour of suffering. That is indeed apart of the blood covenant given to you all suffering and pain in exchange for graces. There are so many gifts I have given you all my people don’t marvel at the things I have spoken to this little one. For she indeed has been faithful with the little so now she will be entrusted with much more and that is in store for all my beloved ones who will be diligent with the gifts given to them now. You have so much ample time my people. No more excuses that you are too busy, you are unsure what to do. 

This lockdown I have allowed is not just for you to self examine your sins but to also work, get going, being busy about my business. Work like there is no  tomorrow because there may not be my beloved ones. There is so much that can be done now for the kingdom. In you I have put gifts of writing, gifts of speaking, gifts of song and worship, gifts of paintings. Now is the time, don’t put it back any longer. All of these gifts will be used to bring so many souls to me at a later time, You have been appointed to draw specifically souls this little one can’t so please get busy. Many are doubting even now. Fearing that they may not be good enough or comparing themselves with others. Please don’t look to others my beloved one. You are unique, your voice is unique, what I tell you is unique. How you do things is unique to you and to the souls I have assigned to you . So now I am releasing graces  for you to get busy about my fathers business. Let’s create together beloved one and see what anointing I pour out when you step out in faith and obedience to the inspirations I have given you. Go forth now my beloved one in diligence and in faith using your gifts.” 

-From Jesus with Love

Be The Light

This morning I was getting down from my bed and my computer fell from the top bunk and cracked. Furthermore, I had been chided by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel of not taking care of things well. Which is so true because I had just got this computer fixed a week before so I was devastated and disappointment in myself. Since the Lord was telling me to began writing again. Also I do all my work on the channel using this laptop so I was frustrated thinking this had to be the enemy. 

I came before the Lord during prayer as I felt he began speaking to me. 

Jesus began,

“My beloved don’t be too hard on yourself. It would’ve been wise to leave it at a safer place, but who do you think knocked it over?”

The devils Lord

 Jesus responded,

“Yes, Beloved I want you from now on to anoint and bless any equipment or ministry materials you receive. The devils hate the assignment I have given you and  will do all they can to frustrate my plans, but I wont allow it. I do however allow these things to not only cause you to be aware, but to pray more and to grow in patience. An offering a gift you can give to me for the salvation of souls.”

Okay Lord forgive me I renounce frustration, impatience and bitterness.

Jesus continued,

“Now the readings I gave you and the songs I played were all about faith beloved. Did you  not ask me to make you a great women of faith?”

Yes Lord I just didn’t know the cost lol

Jesus responded,

“Well, my little one with great faith comes great test, great breaking and great patience endurance. Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not yet seen. To hope in the impossible takes great faith and great faith starts with a  small mustard seed of faith. So I’m not asking for your faith to be big more like I am asking you to hope greatly that I am who I say I am and that I can do all things. This generation will be known for the great exploits and showmanship of my power than any other generation. I am calling my people to have great hope in me, to believe as the times get darker so will great faith arise. It must arise to shader the darkness and cause the enemy to retreat. For so long my people have been held captive by fear, fear of the me, fear of delusion, fear of man and fear of the enemy, but I am calling my people to believe again, hope again in great faith the things that I will do in and through them. For those who are desiring to move in the supernatural gifts, it is available for you. The treasure of heaven is available for all my people all they must do is ask. I have a storehouse where the angels wait to hear the command of my people to release gifts,but my people don’t ask rather they fear it and walk in so much unbelief. Come to me my people come to the Father who owns a cattle on a thousand hills and gives to all generously who ask. Give yourself entirely to me in consecration and holiness and greater works will you do and see all for my glory.”

 Lord if I may I remember you told me that in order to have faith “take more risk”

Jesus continued,

Yes beloved one, my people fear being rejected or doubt the results of things,but step out in faith and obedience and allow me to do the rest. Rarely is there a time a sincere prayer is prayed for a soul and returned void. Sometimes the fruit you don’t see but there is always fruit when you step out in faith. So my people I’m calling faith to rise even in you now. Do you have the lame, sick around you step out in my love to touch them. I am their hope and believe I can and will do the impossible and I might just surprise you. (smiling) Im calling my people to count the cost and began to live out the life of what they say they believe

Do you believe I can raise the dead?

Do you believe I can heal the sick?

Do you believe I can open blind eyes?

Do you believe I can transform a hardened heart?

Do you believe I can do all these things through you?

If you say you believe then what are you doing about it?

My beloved ones take risk hope against hope believe I tell you believe ask for the this gift began to walk in them now. When you see someone in need ask for me to stretch out my hands through your heart and touch them and leave the results to me. Great works will I do in and through you

Lord Can I share the vision you gave me a while back is that okay?

Yes, beloved it will greatly inspire others and to what I have in store for this generation for those who believe . Remember deep faith comes from Intimacy with me.”

So I had a vision family, of a family member who was away from home. I received a letter from them and I was cleaning up my room. When I touched his envelope I immediately went into an open vision. I saw this family member being met by the youth leader of my church at the time and his friends in the parking lot of my church for prayer. The all laid hands on him and began to pray I was just watching. No street lights were on so it was dark however as they began to pray I saw little bulbs of light over my family members head. Then as I looked closely they were getting bigger and I realized they were angels. They began to descend and ascend up and down as they were praying for this family member. The light then overshadowed them all as they were all glowing. Then my family member changed into a man who I knew was on drugs and after they prayed he was completely transformed and restored. He was so in shock seeing the physical transformation of himself he asked to join us. We said sure, then there was a group of us as we went into the streets simply touching the homeless, prositutes, drug addicts and they were immeadielty healed by a touch. They too where in shock and all asked to follow us. Then I saw a dark hill, then one light, then two lights, then three and four then so forth until the whole hill was lite up then I cam out of the vision. The scripture that came to mind was “ a city on a hill”. Mt 5:14 

“You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden.

 That is what this last generation will be like!