Feeling grumpy that I seemingly had no longer time with the Lord in my mornings as I have been used to, seemingly out of the plate in my personal time with the Lord, as now the days are different and community prayers have taken precedence in the morning, as decided by the House and the Lord’s confirmations.
So I hit my limits many times, where I looked back and wished ample time with the Lord alone, doing whatever we would together. I found myself grumpy and complaining inside to the Lord, realizing also what a self-seeking mess I am. Thinking He must be displeased with me for continually falling into these traps of complaining and hard to yield about this..
The Lord took over and said to me then,
“I am not mad at you, dear of Mine. I understand your feelings and longing. Give them to Me, and you come and rest near My shoulders and wings. It won’t take long now when I swift you back to Myself entirely and devoutly. You too have a share in this, to be more diligent with the time spent and find many such opportunities to come back to Me, even if it’s not properly in the mornings. As long as you have time throughout the daytime, come to Me, sit with Me, speak and share your trouble deeper before Me.
“Don’t you know that I’m desirous to have you open up entirely to Me and not feel ashamed or constrained to say something due to it being faulty or sinful? I am not the One who listens to your heart? I know it, Darling; don’t restrain sharing your cries with Me openly. I won’t be offended, nor [will it] cause Me to turn a shoulder away. I will listen, I am willing to listen. And once you have shared all your burdens and heart troubles, leave them with Me, as you confided them to Me. Let Me now sort them out and do the best for you according to My will. You can trust Me in this.
“For the rest, keep your eyes on Me. Always switch eyes back to Me. Cultivate this, practice more and more, and when it seems unbearable – ask Me, and I will move as fitting. Try your best with Me of the changes that occur. Submit to My will and yield to My advices.”
He had continued to share with me,
“I will heal you. I am healing you. It just takes time…you know? I chose to heal you in this way because it is more profitable for you to undergo the process, than to have instant miraculous Healing. (He is speaking about the healing of the soul, the heart.) My miracles happen not only in ‘instant moves’, but within a soul, hidden healing processes, and the miracle of the soul’s patience and endurance. The miracle is the subtle growth of the soul, evolving, developing, refining shaping into My virtues and facets.
“My miracles happen daily in souls, when they held to My will for them, despite all trouble around, despite their own wants and desires. The true miracles are My children in the shaping. Do you know how pleasing it is to Me to see them following Me still and gluing themselves to Me despite trials and wants? I am indeed the One fuelling them up with strength and needed perseverance; but the fact that the soul by it’s own free will, moves after Me always, keeps on to faith and desires Me more and more – that is My miracle! Their love and devotion. That is My greatest of miracles: They love Me.
The Lord continued,
“And you too love Me, more than you seem to think of yourself. You love Me. You do not realize it yet, but your love truly brings peace and joy to those sent to you. The reason, among the other reasons, that I wish to heal you, is so you can further in-depth become more possessed and moved by Me. Areas in you that need purification, shaping, and mending anew – that is My card for you now, this time here. It does not involve any marriage cards, it’s you getting healed by Me.”
And when He mentioned ‘marriage cards’ – He was mentioning the struggles that I have been having at the start. But we’re past over that.
“So in turn you too will be used to heal many others who likewise have this deficit going on within their soul and mind. I need you to be here with Me, in this time, and have a mindset of goodness before you and around you. I understand the weakness and failure, but you are trying, moving, and responding as able. So do not be downcast or discouraged. All things of great value take time to shape and refine, but the final result is gorgeously stunning to behold!
“Many times I will take you out to fronts you have never dreamed of, standing before people you’ve never wished to step up to. But My Spirit is upon you, and wherever you are being led to go, you can be sure that My Spirit will act and interact through you, for the glory of My Father in Heaven and the souls benefit. My ways with you are slightly different than you seem to imagine, and that is good, for they are made for your shoes and footsteps. Fear not the terrors of night or day. Fear not the eyes of people, their mind, their words, and actions – you are My little lovable and great small intelligent warrior. Not a warrior like the world’s, but My warrior, My version of a lover. And in all this, My Spirit is upon you, breathing and living within you.
“You are yet to do much more for Me here on Earth before I take you Home. You are yet to meet many more and observe Me moving through your life, My life in you. Great things will you do, despite not realizing it totally. And in all this, you will remain My lover and small little one, truly intuned and tethered totally to My heart and soul. You will have this wish come true.”
His voice was ever caring with affection,
”But it all starts small, one day at a time. Each day I wake you up, thank Me for that, for the joy of being alive one more day, and do battle, My loved one. Do battle. Fight for your own good of soul and have dominion over yourself.
Practice and go forward in My authority. You have dominion over yourself due to My Spirit empowering you all to make the right choice over your mind, thoughts, and heart actions. Remember, A spirit of fear and dismay I have not given you, but My Spirit I have given you, empowering you in love, self-control, and power from on high to take control over the flesh and its desires and subdue them to My Spirit. (Here He made reference to 2 Timothy, Chapter 1 verse 7.)
“When falls happen, take domain over your thoughts and emotions, and come to Me humbly, yielding to the fall that happened to refine humility in you. Be encouraged and start anew after I washed and cleansed you. You have Me by your side. You have My Angels by your side. You have My Mother, My Father, My brothers and sisters praying over you, aiding and assisting (Making reference to Matthew 12 verse 50.) You have Me beside you.
“Fear not shortcomings and falls. As long as I am here, I will always pick you up to continue with Me, on the run. And you know – I will never leave you. That is My promise to you, and I most surely will keep it.” He was very intent on keeping His word, absolute. Take courage, (He continued), My blood washes over you and makes you new. At each fall, you have a new breath from Me to keep on! Be encouraged in Me, I am here for you.”
Thank you, my God.. for Your mercy and goodness despite my wretchedness.
“I know the struggle, but it won’t surpass My love and affection for you, My child. It won’t surpass it…”
He assures, with a calm gentle fatherly tone.
“Take courage and have confidence. More confidence. Your beauty is marvelous!” He finished.
And as I understood, He meant that – ‘your beauty is marvelous’ as the whole concept of a soul being beautiful.
God bless you all.