Hello brothers and sisters.
The Lord mentioned a fiery trial coming and I found myself fully immersed in the midst of it this morning feeling so hurt and misunderstood and wounded by rejection
We have been doing the Novenas and I know this is Novena weather. The rhemas I pulled confirmed that as I got one from Saint Francis – which we are doing his novena, and he said:
We are coming for you soon Suffer well, make us proud”
second said Job 13:15
“Though He slay me, yet I will praise him”
(a prisoner of Gods wounded love) the pain in my heart intensified
Nature does not hurry and yet everything is accomplished.
I sure was asking the Lord to please take this cup from me or furthermore, I was trying to hurry up the process of healing, trying to fix things right away so that I wouldn’t hurt anymore and it just wasn’t working, but getting worse.
I came before Jesus just broken,
“Trust me beloved; trust me, it may get more difficult until it gets better. I wound to heal remember? Know that your suffering is baring much fruit and bringing in the salvation of many souls.”
But Lord, why would You do this, bring me so far in healing just to wound me again I don’t get it.
I was being honest with the Lord, me and this soul had come so far and have enjoyed the most amazing friendship that I had been praying for. I felt like I was on the top of the mountain, healed and free and with this one situation that had just occured a couple days ago, I found myself now at the bottom of the mountain broken, wounded beyond repair and fearful again of the climb.
“It’s like a broken bone beloved when it breaks in the healing process it becomes stronger but let’s say that broken bone begins to come together slightly misplaced it will cause much pain in the long run and not heal properly or restore the bone function perfectly as it was before. That is why when you fracture a bone it’s good to put it in a cast so that it grows back and fuses together properly, but even then there can be some slight mishaps. Yes, you were in the process of being healed beloved even as you are now, but you don’t recognize it because it’s painful. But in the healing, there were still some infection that was being scared over and would’ve rather hurt you later on.
“I do healing in degrees, so now that there has been a depth of healing I must wound again to go much deeper in the same place to take care of deep infections within the wound and I will continue to do this over and over again until the wound is completely clean so that when scaring takes place its will be over an area with no further infection and no cause for pain.
“I know you understand my allegory. The wounds I am referring too is wounds of the soul, pain and trauma, the infections are sins and wrong attitudes that may linger there from past afflictions that caused the wound. When I began to heal the soul its in layers and degrees, I take my time one layer at a time and there I find many soul infections. The deeper you go ,the more infections I find so I cannot wound you all at once or would be debilitating but I wound a little then heal, wound a little then heal until all the layers are taking care of and full healing takes place.
“You are in the healing process beloved, and I had to do just a minor surgery on you to take care of infections of anger, quick temperedness, selfishness, self pity and pride. Your flight or fight nature has also began to kick in, so you storm out throwing tantrums with silence, a cut of the eyes or bad attitude because of something you don’t like or prefer and majority of the time offense taken and rather I gave this soul the grace to respond as they should to build you up in security and to help me to heal your wounds.
“However, you began to use that as means of justifying these bad behaviors and tendencies because they were met rather with compassion, patience, and nurturing. I did not want that nurtured, oh believe me you would have gotten worse because you have felt justified in your pain because of all the wrong that had been done to you.”
I simply said: I am hurting tremendously, please have mercy upon me can this truly get better?
“I work all things out for your good beloved all things you know I am faithful to do that.”
It’s just that it took so long to get to this place, I’m scared Lord.
“Don’t be scared I will restore things so good and much faster than you think, but do not be in a hurry and trust the process and what I am doing. I would like for you to work on the channel messages and the work on the video you intended to present for your special day tomorrow.
Lord, will it be special?
“Yes, I will ensure it will be, just be obedient beloved, don’t trust how you feel but have faith and walk in love, I will do the rest.”
This message is just an honest and insightful conversation Jesus and I had. I pray it would bring healing and understanding for those who are dealing with emotional suffering of any kind, or trauma and pain from the past.
Lord, give us the grace to trust You and not rush the process of healing or despise when You have to break us to bind us again.7