Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family.
I have been really busy of late with worldly activities in preparation for farming. Father Derrick and I had to travel for as well to pick up our ministry vehicle.
Thank you again for your generosity in donating toward the Phase 1 building of the City of God. However, with all the excitement of things happening; I neglected Jesus. I could feel the distance between us was no longer a cross but it was me being too engulfed in everything else, but deep prayer and time spent with him. Today we were supposed to go to a 4 day prayer conference and I had told myself that when I get back after this conference, I would buckle down to make more time, quiet time, because after all; we paid for it already (the conference I mean) and their type of prayer is a bit different from the silence and solitude I was longing for.
The Lord intervening in our lives as He does, had me wake up with ‘apollo’. This is an eye infection in Ghana, very well known and very common. It’s like pink eye, but on steroids. Immediately [when] Father Derrick saw it, he said: “Nope. You’re not going, but staying home” because it’s very contagious. There was part relief because I knew I wanted this time alone with the Lord, and another part that really wanted to go, but I knew Jesus was behind the scenes. Sure enough, I pulled Rhema cards and they were.. ouch..
The two that stuck out said:
Adulterous Bride “How weak is your heart? says the Lord God, seeing you do all these things, the works of an imperious harlot” Ezekiel 16:30
You would do well to examine your conscience. Have you been unfaithful to the Lord entertaining lovers of money, world or own appetites?
Ooh this card hit me right between the eyes and I knew I had been unfaithful in so many ways that I couldn’t count.
The second was:
Do not give into sadness or brooding. Distract yourself-renew courage and do not worry. Be happy- God has a good things for you. Sirach 30
Jesus is so kind and sweet that even in our correction He always finds a way to encourage us. Thank you Lord for Your goodness and mercy. So after receiving Him in the Lords supper, I began:
Good morning Jesus,
I’m here, your harlot bride. I ask for the grace of contrition. I have been steeped in the world lately very steeped and neglected you in various ways please forgive me. Forgive me for despising staying behind for the conference when it’s an opportunity for you to have me all to Yourself. What I have been praying for to pray and work without distractions. Help this next few days be fruitful for us.
Jesus what’s on your heart?
“Seek and you will find. Have you sought Me my Brides? Or just rushed through prayers so that you a could get into work? Have you desired the pleasantries of this world with these indulgences and enticements? Or you have rather desired spiritual food which comes from My mouth and denied yourself more and more?”
I haven’t done any of these things Lord but I’ve have rather done the latter. Forgive me Lord, it’s been hard trying to find a balance with all My responsibilities.
“Well that is why I have given you these few days. You need a reset beloved you and all My Brides. A reset in thinking, in doing and in being. I want you to take these next few days to find your rest in Me. Much will happen when you come before Me. In My presence I have healing available for you, energy restored and vitality and passion again for My will , all will be given to you but you must come and just rest.
“Allow My presence and My love be enough for you beloved. I have needed you by My side, I have needed the consolation of My Bride, her consoling words, her loving gaze and glance, and her loving kisses and embrace, to carry Me through these dark days and hours as eternity comes to a head with each passing moment. There is so much going on beloved, so much evil in the world”. (and I could Him then just sigh.)
Lord, I’m sorry I haven’t been there for You as I should. What would you like Me to do today for You?
“Think of Me, in all things beloved. Be faithful to the hour of Divine Mercy and rosary. Be faithful to adoration, contemplating John 13-17 in preparation for My passion. Console Me for those who won’t console Me, or even think of Me and all the work we do. Let’s do it together. This is the time of great awakening for many. All these small, but faithful actions of yours will prepare the way for souls to be ready to be touched by My spirit in the coming days. Oh trust Me, My little one, there is a great outpouring coming, but I need My Brides ready and in place for that. That is why there is great sanctification going on .
“My Brides, many of you have gotten lazy in your pursuit of holiness. You have given into comfortability and indulgences especially in dryness, that is a real test for My Brides for many of you wonder astray with daydreams, aimless thoughts, several distractions and temptations of the world to lure you away, to lure you to sleep. Awake My beloved ones, awake. I am bringing the kiss of a new life, renewed mind and fresh fire to stir your hearts again in flame with love for Me and for My will. I know you are battle weary, but much fruit is coming from all that you have endured and sown My little ones, much fruit. You can trust in My words.”
Lord, I had that dream where I woke up and the song ‘Be thou my vision’ was ringing in my head over and over again.
“It is good for you to contemplate those words, you and all My Brides. Sing it often if necessary, that your eyes would continue to stay on Me, seeking Me, and pursuing me. I am calling My wayward wife back to Me. My beloved Brides, I will heal your souls and fill your heart with sweet contentment, that nothing else will be able to match up you. When you go wayward you start feeling insecure, then confusion comes and then condemnation. Ultimately wanting to separate you and I forever, but I will not not allow it I am always chasing after you, for what God has put together, may nothing put asunder and that goes for you and Me. My beloved Brides, the only thing that can keep us apart is if your lack of pursuit and co-operation. I promise, if you seek Me with your whole heart, you will find Me.”
Be Thou my vision, O Lord of my heart
Naught be all else to Me, save that Thou art
Thou my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Thy presence my light
Be Thou my wisdom, and Thou my true word,
I ever with Thee and Thou with me, Lord.
Thou my great Father, and I Thy true son
Thou in me dwelling and I with Thee one
Riches I heed not, nor vain, empty praise
Thou mine inheritance, now and always
Thou and Thou only first in my heart
High King of Heaven, my treasure Thou art.
High King of Heaven, my victory won
May I reach Heaven’s joys, O bright Heaven’s sun
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, O ruler of all
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
Still be my vision, O ruler of all.