Sparse Love

When I was a young girl, my family would feed the homeless once a week with my church at a center in a high-crime, high-drug project community. I looked forward to this day every week, not only because of the tasty food I knew I would also partake in, but because I knew there was a good chance I would see my daddy.

I love my daddy, though I saw him very, very few times in my young life. I would eagerly watch the door at every face that entered with my heart pounding to see his sweet face.

My dad, my father’s name is King Daniel, and though he was not in my life much, I couldn’t help but love him, even when my thoughts would tell me, if he loved you, he would be around more. As a child, you don’t understand the intricacies of an adult relationship and their problems. When my dad passed away, to my surprise, I came to understand how intricate and chaotic his life really was.

My father was already a married man with three children. My mother was just one of his mistresses. Me and my brother were the seeds of his unfaithfulness. I imagine it can be difficult to juggle multiple women, much less the children that comes with them. I don’t know much of my father, but he was always kind and gentle to me. So though his presence was sparse in my life, his love was not.

~ Sister Ruth.

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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  1. I know this feeling so well. My mother was loving but her life was complicated. I was born out of wedlock to teenagers. A mother that soon lived a wild life working as an exotic dancer and the stuff that comes with it.
    Its the feeling of incompleteness but once we realize theres more then meets the eye and how this will later bring blessings forth, which also benefits our lost loved ones. I have so much faith that this void we feel will be one day filled. But for now i can only dream of that day. Thank you for sharing this i feel humbled but greatful to not feel alone in this. God bless you

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