Hello brothers and sisters.
It’s been the hardest time connecting with Jesus and hearing His heart. I have never had such struggle and dryness like this before in my walk. I just hear silence when I desperately need to hear from Him.
I have been busy with the things of the world because of the duties as a wife and it has left me so empty and longing so desperately for my Jesus. I began to battle with unbelief concerning hearing His voice.
After prayer and receiving the Lord, I decided that I was going to sit and wait however long it would take to just get one word from Him. I waited and waited and there was so much confusion. I wanted to give up but I decided to break through the silence and swarming thoughts and began the conversation instead.
Lord, please in Your mercy, speak to me. I don’t think I can bare it anymore, give me the faith to believe Your words and Your direction. Have pity on me Lord, please. Forgive me for failures, my luke-warmness and my grievous sins. Help me Lord.
“My beloved one, hearing from Me will continue to be like this, it is a cross given to you, so carry it just for a little while longer. Many graces are being given to various souls to know me more intimately – don’t you desire that?”
Yes Lord, I do (as I could see Jesus holding me tenderly to His chest, then kiss my forehead.)
Oh Lord, just not at my expense. Sorry, I know that is very selfish of me, but that came to my mind. Forgive me Lord.
“I know how hard it’s been for you and this is for you or any one of My Brides put in this position, but I can trust you with this cross. I know you won’t go too far from Me, and I have a firm grip on your heart. I have been here, never once left your side. What you’re feeling is the absence of My known presence, but it takes great faith to believe when you cannot see or feel Me. Your faith is growing and being strengthened beloved, thank Me for that. I use everything to transform you more and more into My likeness. Steady as she goes, I am leading you, and you are in My will. Do what is set before you again and what has not been completed beloved. Try to be more diligent and more focused in your prayer time with Me beloved, using your time wisely.”
Lord, I feel like I am juggling too much.
“It’s not anything My grace cannot handle. My grace is sufficient for you beloved little one. So much grace has been given to you, but much has been wasted because of laziness and fear”
“Sorry, but it’s the truth beloved. I need you to be more on it. Set your day with the task that I inspire you to do, and make room for My spirit to change direction sometimes and continuously abandon yourself to the sacrament of the moment. That pleases Me very much. When an interruption takes place or you are called, continue to serve and be available for others and at the same time, faithful to the holy exercises you have been taught and the tasks that need to get done.”
Oh Lord, please help me with this.
“I want to talk to you concerning the readings you got today. My spirit brought that phrase to your attention of how I sent the 72 disciples ahead of Me to the towns I wanted to visit. Sending them out two-by-two, you see the importance of obedience and of missions.”
And as an aside, Jesus was referring to Luke 10:1-12:
After this the Lord appointed seventy-two[a] others and sent them two by two ahead of him to every town and place where he was about to go. 2 He told them, “The harvest is plentiful, but the workers are few. Ask the Lord of the harvest, therefore, to send out workers into his harvest field. 3 Go! I am sending you out like lambs among wolves. 4 Do not take a purse or bag or sandals; and do not greet anyone on the road. 5 “When you enter a house, first say, ‘Peace to this house.’ 6 If someone who promotes peace is there, your peace will rest on them; if not, it will return to you. 7 Stay there, eating and drinking whatever they give you, for the worker deserves his wages. Do not move around from house to house. 8 “When you enter a town and are welcomed, eat what is offered to you. 9 Heal the sick who are there and tell them, ‘The kingdom of God has come near to you.’ 10 But when you enter a town and are not welcomed, go into its streets and say, 11 ‘Even the dust of your town we wipe from our feet as a warning to you. Yet be sure of this: The kingdom of God has come near.’ 12 I tell you, it will be more bearable on that day for Sodom than for that town.
“When I send souls out, it is to prepare the way, prepare the ground and prepare the hearts of those places for My spirit to visit, to move. Many times, you may feel like you haven’t made a great impact but you have. I have also said in these scriptures, that everywhere your feet tread, I have already given you all authority to trample on snakes, scorpions, and overcome all the powers of the enemy.”
The seventy-two returned with joy and said, “Lord, even the demons submit to us in your name.” He replied, “I saw Satan fall like lightning from Heaven. I have given you authority to trample on snakes and scorpions and to overcome all the power of the enemy; nothing will harm you. However, do not rejoice that the spirits submit to you, but rejoice that your names are written in Heaven.”
“My spirit residing in you is enough to dispel darkness. When I send you out to a foreign land, I also send you out with My authority. Snakes, signify lying beguiling spirits that abound in that area to paralyze the people with fears, twisted views of Me and more so – twisted views of themselves and of one another. Scorpions are also demonic spirits, and this spirit brings calumny, rancor, anger, and offense. Just as a live scorpion stings with it’s tail, this spirit stings with it’s tongue and causes others to do so.
“Then there are principalities and wicked spirits in high places, stationed to each region, each community, each city and even each country, to cause havoc and a deterioration of everything good and moral, leaving the nation, the people, destitute and empty of My presence and empty of the desire of Godliness and righteousness. This is warfare, and when I send My Brides out anywhere, I have given you power to overcome all of these devices, schemes and tactics of the devil. I have given you authority over these demonic spirits and principalities just by My name alone, as I use you to prepare the way for an outpouring of My spirit.
“You did that in India, and I will continue to use you and all My Brides to prepare the way for My Spirit to move. There is an great outpouring coming to prepare hearts and souls for My return. So do not take it lightly My beloved Brides where I have placed you, where you live, where you go to school, where I have you travel to. Do not take it all for granted My dear ones. I want you walking in My power everywhere you go, and everywhere your feet tread is given to you for the Kingdom of God.
“Even as you walk down the street My beloved Brides, take My words to you very seriously and begin to take authority simply saying by trampling on these detestable spirits that cause such trouble in your communities. I want all My Brides with great confidence and faith in Me, that I live in you, that all My power dwells in you and by just one word out of your mouth proceeding from My mouth, will not return void.
“Declare: Lord, You have given me all authority over this area, so I trample on every scorpion, snake and demonic spirit causing darkness over your people here. I bind every lying spirit, spirits of calumny, rage, anger and offense. I pull down strongholds, principalities and wickedness in high places and I give room for the Holy Spirit to move here. Holy Spirit, pour Yourself out on every heart and soul in this area. Jesus, I declare they are Yours. Say this simple prayer daily, even as you step out, and you will come to see the change. For those I have called into mission, every work begins by prayer. Begin praying this now into the places you are located and the places you know you will soon go.
“For those Brides who are stationed at home, that neighborhood is your mission field and I have given you authority. You too are a missionary, a sojourner, a pilgrim here on this Earth. No longer look to those whom you see in different countries as being out there on the field, but you are a missionary right where you are at. It pleases Me very much when My Brides, when believers, believe in who I am, and who they are.
“I meant for each Christian to imitate Me, to die that I may live fully through them. That there would be no difference between those called to the office of a pastor and those in the congregation. There was never meant to be a separation when it comes to the gifts of the Spirit and the believers authority. This should be normal for all Christians but it hasn’t been taught. Rather, those who feel they are not called to ministry yet call themselves Christians, take a spectator view and become lukewarm. If you believe in Me, then you are called. You are called to follow Me in the capacity and state that I have given you to. To be a Christian, is to be a soul who has Christ in. Hence – ‘Christian’. You are My little Christs on Earth. It is Christ in you that is the hope of My glory on this Earth and the hope of cities, communities, neighborhoods and nations being saved and the way being prepared for Me… I am coming.”
And that was the end of Jesus message.
The Lord is definitely preparing us to travel soon to different countries. Please pray for us. And please continue to pray for me and my faith family.
God bless you, until the next message.