Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family.
For those who are wives – may we be given the grace to trust our spouse’s discernment in gentle submission.
I kept feeling promptings that Queen Esther wanted to speak with me this morning. I have been battling discernment and wanting to make the right decision in all things after reaching our goal for the phase 1 building of the City of God GoFundMe campaign.
Thank you so much for all who donated, God is so faithful. And thank you for continuing to believe in this mission and ministry. I will have updates and videos for you soon about all of that.
So, because of that, I wanted to ensure that all our decisions were what I discerned was the will of God using the Bible Promises. I was struggling a bit, because I found myself not fully trusting Father Derricks leading when it seemed contrary to my discernment. I got the readings during my Lords’ Supper about Jeremiah being duped again by the word of the Lord given to him. Which for me, always means the Lord has allowed a contradiction.
I couldn’t think what it could be because it’s been a while since I heard from Jesus, or received counsel directly from Him, which wasn’t through Rhema’s or readings. When I sat for a while, I thought of some directions Father Derrick made known to me that He wanted to take and I had discerned a ‘No’ and kept reminding him of not going in that direction. But now, after these readings, when I discerned again, the Lord confirmed that his leading and direction was actually right.. hence the contradiction I now see. (I got ‘Holy Spirit’). I thought: aw man, Lord.. I was just following what I thought was Your will, but I realize there was a deeper lesson; He really wanted me to trust Father Derricks discernment, even when he tells me something contrary [that] Jesus has told me. But not to insist or demand he does what I discerned the Lord is asking us to do.
I have seen this play out with married couples, even when I was on the mountain. Many times it would be the ladies that get discernment from the Lord and it seemed to be contrary to their spouses. And sometimes the Lord would make it clear to their husbands. Other times, the Lord would allow the ladies to be humbled and rather submit to their husbands discernment despite what the Lord told them to do.
Queen Esther then came to my mind all of a sudden – I see now, by the Holy Spirit because she was a woman of prayer and discernment, but also great submission to her husband then, King Xeries. So I came before the Lord and His presence. And rather, I knew it was Queen Esther who wanted to speak to me.
Queen Esther, I am humbled and honored that you desire to speak with me?
Queen Esther began,
“Oh my beloved daughter, thank the good and sweet Lord for such a grace and favor. There are many that desire to speak with you always, but you must avail yourself and most importantly, trust the Holy Spirit. Here in Heaven, we are all one, truly it’s one body working for the glory of the Father. We work in union and in unity with one another to accomplish God’s will upon the Earth and that His kingdom may come and His will may be done.”
She sat in a chair before me, with ebony black hair, almond eyes and full lips. I could see her features rather clearly and she was beautiful. She had a beautiful gold veil on, with jewels and a green beaded gown on.
“We here in Heaven are not far from your world. Rather, we are closer than you think, through the heart of our beloved Savior. We can communicate with you and each other simultaneously. Knowing what to pray and how to pray it for you dear souls on Earth. I came to encourage you and teach you lessons of humility, submission and obedience, Queen you already are, you and all the brides of Christ. Great will be your glory and your crowns, because great will be your suffering and pain here on this Earth. But being able to touch in with Heaven, is a great consolation, as experiences like this will continue to increase among His brides, for those who avail themselves.
“In my time beloved daughter, it was a time of great uncertainty and darkness, when I found out what Haman had planned for my people. Though I found great favor with King Xeries through the grace of God, I also knew I was there for a greater purpose. Although there was love between us, he was a man of great power, authority, and could be quite intimidating. Through prayer his heart became more and more yielded to me, and our love blossomed. Although pagan, he knew that God was with me, as he would tell me often, but was not yet ready to leave his idols behind. It was only after the Jews were liberated with the fasting and praying for three days and Hammans wicked plot found out, that he began to have greater confidence in my counsel and wisdom, because he knew now that indeed God was with me, and if God was with me, He was also with him.
“As Queen, I continually encouraged him in his leadings and the decisions he made for the nation and our people. If I saw anything contrary to what the Lord wanted, I would simply pray; then the Lord would give me the right moment to drop my suggestion to him and then leave it, trusting the Lord fulfill His will in him and through him, as King. So, you too must do the same. As wife, queen and mother, I faced many contradictions, especially after that great victory, to ensure that I would be kept humble and my pride wouldn’t rise to usurp my husband and King in anyway. You see, as a wife you are the garland of grace upon your husband’s neck as it is written in scripture –
Cherish her, and she will exalt you; embrace her, and she will honor you. She will give you a garland to grace your head and present you with a glorious crown.”
(and here in scripture, it’s talking about wisdom.)
Queen Esther continued,
“As the Lord holds his heart, it is also given to you to hold and nourish by your words, actions and love. You must not be controlling in any way. It is pride that wants to control the outcome of everything, not giving room to God to make sudden and abrupt changes to His plans. Remember, the outcome will always lead you to the expectant end, but many times not in the way you perceive it. I too struggled with this; fervently wanting to ensure my peoples protection as Queen, but I had to relinquish them to the Lord, trusting that He would protect, despite what I did or tried to do. And I had to trust my husbands leading in all things, knowing that God was with us and for us, so he was leading him too, even through mistakes.”
“You have just been given a crown, a crown of sacrifice – (it was tall, beautifully jeweled with red rubies all over. Queen Esther laid it on my head) – You will be a living sacrifice for our God, for His purpose and for His glory. You have been given a spouse who is also a King and needs your support, your prayers, and your trust in his leading, for God is leading you both. Many of the brides of Christ may find themselves in this predicament; being a wife that is a bride, but having a husband who may not quite be there just yet. Trust the Lord in His decisions, and trust your husbands to lead you. As you pray, they will follow in Gods time, for your prayers will navigate their hearts into the will of God.
“In the meantime, relinquish all control to make them go in a direction that you deem to be the will of God, even if it’s made clear to you. Trust that if it has been made clear to you, the Lord will make it clear to them in His timing. That is all for now my sweet sister and daughter, rise to be the queen the Lord created you to be and win your husband over with a gentle and quiet spirit. With your prayers of submission to his leading, and complete trust that the Lord is with him, because He stands with you.”
And that was the end of Queen Esthers message.