Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family. May we all be given the grace to let go and trust the Lord.
This has been an interesting two weeks, with so many changes coming our way. Sister Ruth will be sharing her testimony soon on the channel and you guys will hear some exciting news which changes many things for us. Also, the Lord keeps pressing on my heart to continue to give lavishly to the poor. I came to Him this morning with my heart anxious about many things.
With the new changes coming, how His promise about the City of God will come about. Provision is getting a bit tighter here as our needs are growing, and we seem to not have enough to start anything concerning the work of the City of God and the Lord keeps telling us to give more away as I think: Lord.. how we are going to be able to save for anything?
I should know better but these thoughts cloud my mind and began to bring anxiety this morning, as more needs continue to arise and donations are low. I found myself wound up when thinking of the future and what is ahead. I know I shouldn’t but I am, and I just talked to God frankly about all my worries and uncertainty because things look very uncertain right now.
He gave me a Rhema a week ago that said: “No matter how obscure it gets always obey me” and I can see that is happening now and just couldn’t shake off the anxiety of everything.
Then I took a reading from ‘Imitation of Mary’ and sure enough – it was about love of the poor, giving to them lavishly, as I thought: ok Lord, I get it. You’re not at all concerned with us trying to save to get things started for the city of God, you want us to give it away. Ok.. I said in my heart begrudgingly.
Then I got a rhema form Mother Angelica’s book and it said: ‘Pride’. I thought: Ouch Lord.. ok uncle.
“Doubt comes from pride. The proud believe they are supreme, and they have decided that things should be such in their lives. And when they are not such and such, there is no God..”
I just knew the first half was for me. I said, I am sorry Lord.
I decided to get another reading from the book and got ‘Patience’.
It said: “Patience is adjusting your time to God’s time”.
I knew at that moment, the Lord answered and admonished me for all my questions, doubts and reasoning. My Lords’ Supper readings were about the Israelites and how they murmured in the desert and were struck down. I began to really repent and came before the Lord after receiving Him saying,
Good morning Lord. Forgive me of my pride Lord, I didn’t realize it. Maybe I am so used to reasoning out everything that you do that doesn’t make sense, I didn’t realize I had creeped into pride with my questioning and doubting and grumbling in my heart. I’m sorry Lord Jesus, I trust in you Jesus, I trust in you. Thank you for all that You’re doing that I don’t see and understand, because I know you will work everything out like you usually do. Please help me to know what to do now?
Jesus what’s on Your heart?
“Preach and teach beloved, I have made you into a well spring of wisdom with your many failures many weaknesses and many testimonies I have given you can be lessons for so many. Rather than always waiting to hear from Me beloved, I want you to begin teaching. We are doing this together, in the midst of teaching I will always add My input as to give you Heavenly wisdom from on high. There is one thing I inspired you to teach on that hasn’t happened yet.”
You mean the teaching on how Satan can steal your joy of salvation?
“Yes beloved, so many will benefit from that. I know you have been overwhelmed and exasperated by many thoughts, suggestions, and ideas from the enemy and many coming from your pride. Thank you for humbling yourself before Me this morning. You are right where I need you to be, doing exactly what I have asked you to do. Continue to move forward with the inspirations I have given you and I will do the rest.
“If things don’t come together the way you intended or perceive, know that I am in the delays as well. I am continuing to grow you in the virtue of patience, so trust Me rather than murmuring. Indeed, you will have what you need when you need it. In the meantime, don’t shy away from giving to the poor or to those who ask of you, you will be surprised when provision comes, it will be more than you need and then some. You just continue to be faithful to My daily instructions and My leadings beloved.”
“I am leading and guiding you, you have not been deceived in this area. This is also a test for your beloved, as he will come to truly trust Me to provide and See My way of blessing others in the giving. Thank Me for all that I am doing now that you have seen, and more for things you don’t see that is working out for your good.”
Yes, Lord forgive me. Thank you for these past few weeks, it’s been a beautiful time of peace and joy for sure. Of course, anxiety and doubt have tried to creep up and some days succeeded but thank You for holding me together.
Jesus responded,“You’re welcome My little one. Do not worry, this soul will be just fine in the new season of her life she is coming into. (and here Jesus is speaking about Sister Ruth) There is much she will learn and grow from in this new season. Don’t worry she will not be gone from you but rather this union will enrich your relationship and the work I have called you both to do here. She must be more diligent in prayer and faithful to Me. Tell her to begin now, so it won’t be so difficult when things change for her.”
Ok Lord. Lord, is there a word for your flock?
“My beloved brides, I write straight with crooked lines. All I ask for is your detachment from every outcome in your life and your trust in Me. If you are bewildered and uncertain in obscurity in what I am doing right now in your life, that is the more reason you should cling to and lean on Me. When you are more unsure of yourself, that is when faith says all will go well. What I need from you, is faith in that time, not murmuring, grumbling or doubt which wounds My merciful heart when you have seen My faithfulness thus far. I will bring all My promises to you to pass My beloved brides, but in the way I intend it.
“When you think you know what I am doing or what will happen that is when I surprise you with a different turn. Sometimes it may look like a contradiction, but it’s Me leading and guiding you to trust Me more, growing your faith and detachment to creatures and situations. It’s in these moments you grow in grace and in virtue and your obedience to Me is tested. I have great things in store for you My brides. Patiently wait on My timing and you will see the fruition of many things. Follow My steps and allow Me to lead the way in the road that I have chosen for you, not in the journey that you desire.
“My ways are not your ways and My thoughts are higher than your thoughts. Trust Me when things do not seem to go the way you have perceived it. Let go what is in your heart and watch Me do the rest, leave the rest up to Me. That is your role as My bride and as a child entrusting your small incapable hands into mine, trusting in My merciful love to do what you by yourself and in your own ability cannot accomplish. That pleases Me the most, to see a soul wholly trusting in My Merciful love for them and in My providence that I will supply all their needs according to the riches and glory which is all yours, inherited by being a child of God. Trust Me My brides, let go and trust.”
And that was the end of Jesus’ message.
Thank you so much family for your graciousness, your faithfulness, support and encouragement. Please continue to give to our phase 1 building of the City of God community. And just donating to us as well. Our needs truly have increased, with Sister Ruth being here, and also doing an outreach as well every week on Fridays. The Lord is wanting us to feed more.
So last time we fed about 50 people, and that was about $60 every week. And with our small salary, it’s really difficult to come by. Our donations are really low right now, so whatever amount you can give towards the work and this ministry, will be greatly appreciated, and such a blessing. We will continue to have updates on what we do every week, so you guys know what’s going on.
Alright, God bless you family until the next message.