Lord, please forgive me. I have had so much fear and anxiety this morning, thinking another storm or trial is on the horizon. Lord, You mentioned it would get worse to get better, so it gripped my heart this morning.
And as an aside guys – I was in worship, and after the first bout of the trial, as I mentioned I got a second Rhema about “This third will be tried in the fire”. And another trial came, and a week later, as I was in worship today – he played a song where the lyrics said: “A storm is coming.. a storm is coming”. And then I pulled a Rhema and the Rhema said: “This third will be tried in the fire”. And I thought to myself: Lord no.. I don’t think I can take anymore! It just gripped my heart, I was just so unsure and just fearful all over again.
Oh Jesus, would You please bring clarity? Forgive me for my continuous struggles with doubt and unbelief. Guys, I promise you, I’m so weak in this area.
But I heard Papa God –
“Be confident beloved, be confident in Me and stand your ground. My words to you have not been deceptive or a lying spirit. If you go back beloved, you see how faithful I have led you and counseled you through each step. So no longer go back and forth with these demons of doubt, confusion and manipulation any longer, but trust and rest in My words to you. I am more concerned with your heart. Indeed, through all of this, I am increasing more of My love through you.
When I wound you with My love, I also increase a greater measure of love in you. In My wounding you, I clear out the dross and roots of bitterness and brambles that have choked out the seed of love in your heart. It was getting choked beloved, and I so desperately want you to be free to love. As you once said before – loving all to Jesus. No longer see them that way, but souls who are simply lost. Hearts darkened and manipulated by deception and power. Love them, you have been called to be an image barer of My Son Jesus. For He loved greatly. All of Himself He gave until the last drop, for mankind, for his own disciples, who betrayed and left him, and for His bride who rejected Him spat on Him and crucified Him and continues to do so with her actions and love of the world at times. Yet He never leaves her nor forsakes her, but continues to love her back to health. He nurses her with her love, as he nurses the Church – and we want you to do the same. The readings were very fitting today beloved.”
And the Lord was true. My readings were:
I got the first reading: 1 Samuel chapter 26, verses 2 – 23.
And it’s about David being given the opportunity to kill Saul, but refused, stating he was not called to touch the Lords’ anointed. And immediately it made me think of this soul that they too are Gods child and appointed in their own right.
The Responsorial Psalm, was Psalm103, about the Lord being kind and merciful towards us. So I know the Lord was calling me to be kind and merciful.
And the gospel reading, was about loving our enemies
Jesus continued, “You have not been given a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power Love, Love, Love, and a sound mind. No-one, nor anything can harm you without My consent beloved. Doesn’t matter how much you pray, hide, cover yourself in protection prayers, or strategically keep away from others because I have revealed to you what they do. If a cross is intended for you, it will come. Do you see how it is so futile to act in this way?
“Rather, I want you to be an expression of love and kindness to all those around you, especially those I reveal to you, who want to do you harm. Love them beloved, so well that they would see Me in you. You see, dynamics of these souls are filled with competition, unsaid words of judgment, accusation, slander and seeing who can be on top. They say they love one another, but it’s all about power and control. But they have never tasted the sweetness of true love that wants nothing, is low-key, willing to be trampled, and rise again and still love. Fear has ruled you for too long and in this area beloved, and now causing your light to be hidden. We want you to shine My beloved daughter shine with Christ love, mercy, kindness and forgiveness.”
Wow Lord.. thank You. Please give me the grace. I have been so nervous Papa, because you have been prompting me to pray, pray, pray. With every Rhema, every song.
“Yes, beloved. Be on guard now more than ever, but the prayer is more so for this situation. I have heard the desires of your heart, that although you were shamed, you wouldn’t even want that for this soul, and that shows your true nature and heart of your spouse. So I am asking you to show mercy, and forgive beloved, for all that has been said and caused others to judge you. Pray for the hearts of those towards this soul when all comes to the light beloved. This soul will need great mercy and that will come from you through your prayers beloved, and your actions. Have great pity on this soul and compassion, and bring that in prayer before Me.
“ So although the enemy intends to bring shame all around and upon this these souls, although rightly deserved, because of the many things said and done in darkness; I have decided to show mercy instead, even towards this soul because this soul is My beloved child too. I want to make you My instrument of mercy and peace. I desire all to be there, so all can be touched by My spirit of love, beloved. Really take the words given to you today in the Lord’s supper to heart. I want you to continuously live from Luke 6; and all My brides.
“This is your constant lot, this is a blue print and instructions to your life’s work and attitude towards all. You will constantly be challenged and tested in the areas of love over and over again. And I want you to bless those who curse you, do good to those who mean you harm, be a gift to all those around you. Especially those who do not deserve it. And give of yourself in all things at a greater measure; always forgiving, always loving, always showing mercy, always being kind. That you would look just like your Father in Heaven, returning good for evil continuously. For in the measure you love beloved, it will be the measure which will be returned back to you through Christ My son. The More love you give, the more love you receive from Him to love more, as to increase. That you and all My brides, would be filled with love, which is the fullness of God living in and through you, becoming love itself.
“So go now My beloved little one, full of peace and praise, as you wait for your salvation to draw nigh. Fervently turning your prayers to pray for them, that mercy will be shown and given at a greater measure, once the truth is exposed. And enduring all for the sake of love until then. Not retreating, but being bold with kindness, love and service to all those around you.
And at that point, I became ‘static-ey’ – I felt the Lord had more to say but it was hard for me to hear Him. So I felt He wanted me to pray the binding prayer, so I did.
And I heard Papa God say,
“Beloved, begin now to always say the binding prayer first thing in the morning. You are in a sea full of alligators beloved, wanting to cause trouble and dissuade your discernment and cause a wall between us in our communication. That will clear things up so you can hear Me.”
And now Jesus responded “Beloved, get others to discern and you will know that you are hearing Me. You are being buffeted now and you will continue to. Whether you’re wrong or right, remember it’s not so much about that, but more so about loving others, being kind to others, forgiving others, and giving of yourself to others. That is the virtue I am continuously growing in you and transforming you into beloved, despite the true motives of people; I just want you to love.
“Today beloved, I want you to work on getting others set up to help with the pamphlets, catch up on correspondence and begin to work on the site. You only have a week and that is very important beloved. And if any interruptions comes from anyone, please put your desires down and be available to what is asked of you. Beloved, be of service to others, to do another’s will and not your own.
“And do not worry, I will be with you in all of these projects, dealing and praying for this soul. And their mind would continue to stay on Me, that they may have great clarity and direction I am leading you both into, and for peace of mind. There are many fiery darts headed your way, but none shall prosper. And attacks against the faith in trusting Me for provision. That’s also being tested in patience, waiting, and trustful hope that I am this souls provider above all else”.
And that was the end of Jesus’ message.