So it had been a couple of days since I sat with the Lord to hear from him. He told me to come every day but for the past couple of days, Derrick and I haven’t been feeling well. To be honest with all the new changes and being in Ghana I began to feel insecure hearing the Lord’s voice and just resorted to getting a Rhema for a few days. I was also very busy in the morning, and I was needed, so I wasn’t able to sit for long after the Lord’s Supper to get a message.
Derrick’s illness began to get worse, and he was admitted to the hospital. He was diagnosed with malaria and typhoid. I had typhoid as well. I had done the Lord’s Supper and gotten the Lord’s Passion readings about suffering. I then saw the intercessory group on Skype and realized so many were going through various trials in the group. I had talked to Derrick about suffering for a soul and now being a father for the flock in Heartdwellers Ghana. He didn’t fully understand or agree with the way we see suffering and I had been really wanting him to step into the role now that we were married but there was a lot of hesitation. I understood but I really desired it.
When he got sick I just knew it had to be a cross he was carrying for the group. So I came before the Lord with these thoughts on my mind. I felt as though the Lord wanted to speak to me but was feeling insecure and hesitant. Then the thought came to my mind that it was unbelief that was causing me not to come before Him to hear His voice.
Good morning, Lord, please forgive me for my unbelief. Is that what is stopping me from coming to hear your voice?
“Yes, Beloved, I am here and have been waiting. Come always to hear from me. You need My words just as much as I need your friendship. It’s a true consolation for Me, Beloved. Put your doubts aside and just write, Beloved, write.
“What Derrick is suffering now is a cross and there is much more to come.”
Boy was the Lord right. After the first day, we thought for sure the malaria would just pass, but now it’s been about four days in the hospital and the headaches still haven’t let up. So, guys, please pray for him.
“He will come to understand the crosses I allow are for the salvation of souls. He is now a father and what you were told today during the intercessory meeting is true. Many of your children are suffering in various ways and trials — some known and others unknown and his carrying this cross for them will bring tremendous relief. Be patient with him, Beloved. Soon enough he will step into that role and fully grasp and take hold of the responsibility of being a father of souls. As for now, see him as your Beloved husband Love him, be patient with him, and be there for him.
So much takes place when a soul suffers for Me — graces overflow to all those around them. They give life to everything although many times they don’t see it nor does it feel like it but it’s very true. Nothing is wasted and he is backing up all that you have to do as well, for the ministry. Do not be discouraged by his state, this illness has to run its course. So you be there, avail and tend to his every need, for what you do unto him you are doing unto me as well, Beloved.”
Thank you, Lord, for your words of comfort. So much is on my mind.
And here family I finally went to see my aunt and my cousin, the two who have done witchcraft. I was fearful at first, not of them, but of providing them any information and even visiting them about our marriage — so that they can fight us more? But the Lord made it clear to love them and not to be fearful, to proclaim His mercy. Both seemed genuinely happy for us and very surprised at the turn of events. My love for them came back into my heart but a part of me knew I couldn’t entrust my heart to them. It’s so funny because everyone in Ghana keeps praising Derrick for waiting and enduring and putting up with me leaving the mountain, having no idea the full story that I waited. My pride wanted to put the record straight so many times, but Derrick and I would look at each other and rather laugh.
Then the pressure began for a wedding, to make plans, set up dates, and get things in line and I began to get anxious. In Ghana we have to do a traditional ceremony called the knocking where Derrick’s family comes to my family with a dowry and both of us could feel the pressure just from my aunt and cousin alone. But the rest of my family was at ease. We didn’t like that as it seemed, again, they wanted more control so that was on my mind — wondering if I should begin planning things now or waiting on the Lord.
Jesus, knowing my thoughts, answered,
“Leave all things at My feet. I am the one who has put you two together and the wedding will be the same. Don’t stress yourself now with any details just yet. Something miraculous will take place at this event. Just as it was at the Wedding of Cana, so shall it be with your and Derrick’s wedding here. Do not worry and continue to pray.
“My beloved brides, continue to tarry in your suffering. Your enemies are weakened every time you offer me a sacrifice — not only a sacrifice of praise but a sacrifice of sickness or pain. They are weakened because you submit yourself to your loving God and graces are released tremendously on them, on the souls you’re praying for and souls who have no one to pray for them — so nothing is wasted.
“I know many of you have been in hard trials and circumstances and want to give up. Do not lose hope, My beloved brides. Your sacrifice is holding back so much and is bringing in a torrent of fruit, truly it is. Your consolation and prize will be found in heaven.
“So no longer look to be happy in this life but rather look to be filled with joy — My joy which is your strength in the most difficult of situations and circumstances that are allowed. You all are growing in your faith beautifully and stretching beyond recognition, in perseverance — do not give up… I have plans to give you hope and a bright and prosperous future amidst the darkest hour that will veil this world. You will stand as bright lights to bring hope, joy, and peace to so many.”
And that was the end of Jesus’ message.