Hello, brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family.
Thank you, guys, for coming alongside Jesus and I as this wonderful promise is fulfilled! God is so amazing and faithful, and what a blessing the Cloud of Witnesses [is]! Blessed Mother is the one who carried me through the five years of — waiting, enduring, praying, failing, and persevering in this promise. And my sweet-sweet sister, St. Therese sealed it all with her powerful intercession!
Now I have a few letters from Jesus that were very pivotal in getting both Derrick and [me] to the altar. I wouldn’t be right not to share these with you because you all have been such a part of our journey with your prayers, your words of encouragement, and your support. This is also to testify of God’s goodness because He truly works out the worst situations for our good. When we don’t understand, just trust Him. I pray that me and Derrick’s journey can be an encouragement and testimony to someone that God is indeed the God of the impossible!
He can change a heart, a situation, and a day, in an instant in your favour—and that is what He did for me.
You all are aware that Derrick came to Sierra Leone— for a visa interview and I was in shock when we were denied. I thought for sure, just as Jesus and Blessed Mother alluded to pray before and after his interview because I know the Lord wants him on the mountain and nothing can oppose His will. So I was mystified as to why He allowed this.
When Derrick walked out of the Embassy, he seemed not moved at all, but rather relieved. He hasn’t been keen on coming to the US and one of his biggest fears was that he was to be rejected getting a visa. On our walk home, he mentioned to me that he needed more time anyway. I felt so disappointed, frustrated, angry, and sad all at the same time. He had an ex-girlfriend here that he was struggling to let go and I felt he just wanted to go back to his old habits.
Brother Juniper, however, blurted out, “you two should just get married!’’ I didn’t think anything of it because I was so mad, as I was hit with thoughts of, “What was the point of this trip?” “Why all the fasting and prayer?” “The sacrifice?” “What is the point of anything anymore? I am so tired of this battle—I give up!!”
So, when we got home, I let Derrick have it!… [chuckle]—Lord, forgive me. I told him, I was done! that I couldn’t do this anymore. I thought I would have to go back to the US on the mountain and endure another six months of waiting to apply for another visa, while he still plays around and has me there on the shelf. I was done]— over it, and told the Lord I give up!
As I shared these things with Derrick—mind you we are not even in a relationship just building our friendship—to my surprise, he had tears in his eyes and saidhe didn’t want to lose me and that he was really hurt by the rejection, and this happening allowed him to see that he couldn’t lose me. Everyone else wasn’t worth it….
I was stunned, shocked — but still hurting by the Lord’s will which I thought was a disappointment.
Then we had to go on a ministry outreach just an hour later, I wiped my tears getting myself together so I can be there for the children. During the outreach Derrick attended, I saw him so moved by what was going on and he said at that moment, he realized he was crazy if he lost me, and this is what he wanted to do! He was so touched by the poverty and the needs of those in the village (as you guys saw in the previous video), that he wanted to make a difference—and do with me.
All of this happened in one day: his spirit changing—just like Blessed Mother said. His heart changing just like Jesus said. And God getting all the glory—just like He told me.
So that night I woke up to a message from Mother Clare saying, the Lord wants you to get married. My heart jumped with fear for a bit because I knew Derrick would propose, although it seems so far stretched with all the obstacles we faced before our trip—but never thought we would get married, at least not right now, not on this trip.
I then talked to Derrick and to my surprise he asked us to call Mother Clare. He spoke to her and said she confirmed everything he was feeling in his heart, and that he wanted to get married. I was in awe and amazed at the swift changing of events all in one day! So, I want to share with you two messages given to Derrick. One when he changed his heart, and another the on day of our wedding!
Choose This Day Whom You Will Serve, Son.
Letter to Derrick, from Jesus to Mother Clare
“You need to get married,” Mother Clare said, “the Lord has allowed this to bring it all to a head. It is time to call the question.”
Then I heard the Lord say, “You are right.”
Lord, please tell me what is on Your Heart.
Jesus began, “I want to move on with Our (Father, Son & Holy Spirit) plans, I need them to get married. Neither one will ever regret it.
“Derrick, it is way overdue. Please stop living for yourself and get serious about serving Me. I have so many wonderful plans for you. You don’t want to continue to waste time and miss them.
My son, do you realize that your conduct, if you were to die committing these sins, do you realize that you could go to Hell? and take other souls with you, by your example? Souls have thought that by your example, they would go to Heaven because they confessed Me but still fornicated?
You are not saved by being a nice guy, or saying you love Me, or any works you do. You are saved by My grace, when it is received sincerely, it produces the fruit of Obedience to My commandments, the Gospel, and living your life by My commandments, confessing Me, and proving your confession by repentance, and continual amendment of life. When you do this, My Grace abounds to you, but I do not give that same Grace to one who presumes that because he has said the sinner’s prayer, he can continue in his sin.
“By example you have taught those around you that sin is ok, if you love God and say the salvation formula. It isn’t that easy son; you must live as I have commanded you to live and not cause others around you to fall and possibly lose their souls to Hell.”
Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revellers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God.” [I Corinthians 6].
And whoever may cause to stumble one of the little ones believing in Me, better is it for him if a millstone is hanged around his neck, and he has been cast into the sea. And if your hand may cause you to stumble, cut it off; it is better for you to enter into life maimed, than having the two hands, to go away into Gehenna, into the fire—the unquenchable— [where their worm is not dying, and the fire is not being quenched.] And if your foot may cause you to stumble, cut it off; it is better for you to enter into life lame, than having the two feet to be cast into Gehenna, into the fire—the unquenchable— [where their worm is not dying, and the fire is not being quenched.] And if your eye may cause you to stumble, cast it out; it is better for you to enter into the Kingdom of God one-eyed, than having two eyes, to be cast into the Gehenna of fire—where their worm is not dying, and the fire is not being quenched. [Mark 9: 42-48]
“Nowhere in My Book does it say that as long as you confess My Name and believe you may go on sinning and you will be saved. You have known this in your heart but have continued to allow your weakness to rule you. My Word says, that if you cannot control your passion, get married. If you love Me, truly, Derrick, you will obey Me.
Now to the unmarried and the widows I say: It is good for them to stay unmarried, as I am. But if they cannot control themselves, they should marry, for it is better to marry than to burn with passion. [I Corinthians 7]
“You have failed in every undertaking you’ve begun because of your sin. I cannot bless one who goes on sinning and disrespecting My laws. I have withheld from you, success, because you have withheld from Me, your life. Because you are called to serve in My Kingdom, you must be free from sin. Consider that this habit has brought nothing but sadness into your life and the lives of others.
“It is written that if your eyes cause you to sin pluck them out. Whatever member causes you to sin remove it and save your soul. I have forestalled the event planned to stop you from losing your soul, because of the prayers of those who love Me and have given their lives to Me. You owe them a debt of many thanks because you still have your legs and walk. Note that, I did not heal all that were ill because they had not repented of their sins and had no remorse. But I allowed them to be chastised with Leprosy and diverse sicknesses to save their souls. Those whom I love, I chastise.”
My son, do not take lightly the discipline of the Lord, and do not lose heart when He rebukes you. For the Lord disciplines the one He loves, and He chastises every son He receives. Endure suffering as discipline; God is treating you as sons. For what son is not disciplined by his father? [Hebrews 12:6-7]
“I have brought the woman of My choice into your life to save your soul from Hell. I am telling you this because you have been in grave danger of perishing. Also, to give you the opportunity to live an authentic Apostolic Christian life, giving you the opportunity to love souls with your beautiful heart, saving them, bringing comfort to the lost and infirm, leading men and women into eternal life, not by word only but by a spotless example. What I have already done for you is a dream come true for any Christian on this earth, yet you continue to stall and question, bringing sorrow to My heart.
You have no idea the suffering this woman has already endured because I told her that you are My choice. She went to the cross to offer her life for My holy will and save you from damnation. And on that cross, her heart was crucified with Mine.
My son, I must tell you, that so far, you have lived a very shallow, self-centred life, concerned for your freedom to indulge your fleeting passions and attempts at financial abundance, while others gave Me their penance, and tiny offerings of their life and I in return shower abundance into their coffers. I know your heart is to give and do for others, but in continually choosing your own way of doing things you have squandered much time and many resources. In all humility, recognize your bankrupt estate and consider the cause is a stubborn refusal to embrace My will and move forward in trust, doing exactly what I wish for you to do in exactly the manner and time I wish you to do it.
If you continue to resist Me, there are other men, better men, faithful men, committed men, wanting to find a wife such as her, and if you do not repent and commit, I will give her to one of them. I am most serious, son; the time has come to remove sin from your life and make the commitment you already know you should have made years ago.
Contrary to what you think, you do not know everything about the Scriptures. You have been taught error and not the full story. You do not have the full help to reach sanctity because of it. You will recognize you are in error by the sin in your life. I have taught all, that by their fruits you shall know them.”
Ye shall know them by their fruits. Do men gather grapes of thorns, or figs of thistles? Even so every good tree bringeth forth good fruit; but a corrupt tree bringeth forth evil fruit. A good tree cannot bring forth evil fruit, neither can a corrupt tree bring forth good fruit. Every tree that bringeth not forth good fruit is hewn down, and cast into the fire. Wherefore by their fruits ye shall know them.
“Son, a trail of broken-hearted women is evil fruit. A fatherless child is evil fruit. Pride and self-righteousness have kept you from going deeper in the Scriptures to learn what My 1st-century Christians believed, lived and practiced. There are many denominations that teach different portions of the Bible and deliberately avoid others. My Church teaches the whole truth and is not cafeteria-styled Christianity.
That is one reason why you are not able to stop sinning.
You are operating under many curses which I have allowed to land because of your immoral lifestyle. There are many other things you are ignorant of that could help you and I have sent My Emissary into your life for that very reason. I want you, with all My Heart to be My minister, and I have put together a clear path for you to follow, but will you?
So now you have the whole story, where you stand before Me? And you have a choice to make. When I created you, I endowed you with special graces that most other men do not have. So far, you have wasted them on your passions. But now I am calling you to make a choice: serve Me or serve your flesh. It’s up to you. I force no one, but I do reprimand and correct those I love. You, I love dearly and want to give the kingdom, but what are you willing to give up to have it? It comes at a great cost, just as you were redeemed at a great cost — My crucifixion.
“Choose this day whom you will serve, son, and know that I will always love you no matter what.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
And God being so merciful, and Blessed Mother’s prayers is so powerful and Saint Therese interceding…—Derrick said “Yes!” Choose Jesus, choose the better portion, choose to serve Him with his whole life by making me—his wife.
God bless you, family!… Thank you so much for your prayers and support! I could not do this without you!!
Love you guys!