Believe & Hope Against Hope

Hello Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers family.

I received this message right before we found out his [Derrick’s] interview date was changed. When I discerned this message originally I kept getting Jealousy which means disordered thinking. Little by little, I began to take parts of this message out thinking it was my own flesh or wrong — until halfway through, I realized that I could be under a sifting by the devils and put it on the discernment shelf to get some help with this.

We have now discerned this message was from the Lord and I am kicking myself for deleting some things He said. The devils really had a field day with me on that day because of my unbelief. That is why the Lord allowed it. You will see.

I was being attacked with visions in the morning and evening that were bringing great anxiety about the trip and the future again. You see, many things in the past [that] the devils presented to me, happened, although I prayed against [them]. The Lord allowed many contradictions and crosses in this way. So that is why I am so easily prone to anxiety, especially concerning Derrick. I was just so tired of these anxiety attacks. I had never had them before, nor do I ever get these attacks unless it has to do with Derrick, and I was just weary from it all. It was so draining — for the past three days, every morning and night.

I had the Lord’s Supper and my readings were clear, to bring me great encouragement. The first reading was about Abraham. I’ve seen a running theme concerning this trip and Derrick, for the past couple of weeks. I had been getting so many readings about Abraham’s tests, how the Lord blessed his descendants, and his great faith.

Romans 4:18-22

Against all hope, Abraham in hope believed and so became the father of many nations, just as it had been said to him, “So shall your offspring be.”  Without weakening in his faith, he faced the fact that his body was as good as dead — since he was about a hundred years old — and that Sarah’s womb was also dead.

Yet he did not waver through unbelief regarding the promise of God but was strengthened in his faith and gave glory to God, being fully persuaded that God had power to do what he had promised.

This is why “it was credited to him as righteousness.”

I felt the Lord was saying hope against hope don’t give up

Then the Gospel reading was Matthew 9:9-13

As Jesus went on from there, he saw a man named Matthew sitting at the tax collector’s booth. “Follow me,” he told him, and Matthew got up and followed him.

While Jesus was having dinner at Matthew’s house, many tax collectors and sinners came and ate with him and his disciples.  When the Pharisees saw this, they asked his disciples, “Why does your teacher eat with tax collectors and sinners?”

On hearing this, Jesus said, “It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick.  But go and learn what this means: ‘I desire mercy, not sacrifice.’ For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners.”

This reading I felt was about Derrick. Some things were made public, in detail, about his struggles among Heartdwellers. When I saw it, I was grieved about that and felt it would call forth judgment on him by others.

The truth is even I have judged him — realizing that we have all been sick — and some of us still are sick with various sins, yet we may look at him, just like the Pharisees, in our self-righteousness — criticizing him in his weakness, also thinking, Why Lord him? Why would you choose him? And many times I have even said that — “Why him? — out all that you could’ve chosen for me. So I was convicted and grieved by these readings and Leary of sharing anything detailed about his weaknesses because I didn’t want to detract from his character or have anyone judge him because we all have weaknesses.

To add to these thoughts, I had just then received a message from Derrick that his friend, whom we were to stay with, didn’t have enough room for us. We had to get our own place. I began to question all the messages from the Lord — that He was sure we would be staying with his friends and [for us] to pray. We had five more days left and I knew we couldn’t stay in a hotel. So what to do? I was unsure and doubtful again.

So I came before the Lord in the morning saying,

Lord today I feel so defeated. I know you’re wanting me to have the faith of Abraham and hope against hope, but it’s in the torments, the voices, the visions, and the thoughts that bombard my mind that make it so hard. Lord I am so tired, I felt like you were speaking to my heart earlier — now I feel like have drawn a blank

Jesus began,

“I told you, Beloved One, your faith would be tested in various ways tremendously. I need you to keep your eyes fixed on Me, especially the days leading up to your departure.”

And as I mentioned, guys, this message was given right before I found out that his interview date had been changed.

“Do not worry about a thing. I know it’s easier said than done because you have a fierce battle going on all around you, Beloved, very intense. I am here to bring you peace and words you can stand on and cling to when the waves get at a bit more ferocious.

“You do have the faith of Abraham because you are his daughter — one of his descendants, Beloved, and we are making you to showcase — that of My righteousness — built on faith that brings great hope.

“Do not concern yourself with the report of the living arrangements. Just keep praying and hoping. Before you leave I will ensure you all will have somewhere to land, and her home will be opened to you three.

“You are presented with ideas, images, and voices that want you to become hopeless and that are making you feel hopeless. Don’t buy into the lie. Your prayers are not bouncing off the walls —  rather being stored up until [they are]— — poured out at the perfect time — and that time is coming. It will be in Sierra Leone and even in Ghana. Will you see [an] outpouring of all you have prayed for, cried, and sacrificed for.”

Then, as an aside, guys, the  Lord gave me a personal word for Ghana and what would happen after our trip in Sierra Leone. The devils were twisting and magnifying it so much that I began to question the Lord’s word, thinking maybe I was too attached and that I would have to endure through much more than what He said.

Jesus continued,

“Do not believe what is being presented. I mentioned suffering will be continuous, in various ways — by inconveniences, delays, and frustrations. But it is not at all what is being presented to you to cause you to buckle in fear and insecurity. Although Derrick will fall, it will be once, and he will be utterly devastated. That will be the catalyst to bring him to his knees finally crying out for help from Me which will set him up beautifully for the complete transformation and conversion on the mountain.

“You see, I am using everything for your good and for My glory. I want you to put that behind you once and for all — and every burden into My Mother’s hands and heart. Do not worry about sharing these messages on the channel. Yes, some have already judged him, even among your children, but I do not fault them. 

“You see I didn’t come for the righteousness, but I came for the sick and you have a very sick man who will not be sick for long. Just as I was merciful — calling Matthew to be My disciple and Mary Magdalene to follow Me and dine with Me — I am calling you to be an instrument of My mercy, Beloved just as I was.

“Mercy is always perceived as a contradiction among the self-righteous and always calls forth judgments among men’s eyes. Because of pride men always judge wrongly and are so sick, always seeing the plank in their bother’s eyes but not their own.

“This is a difficult situation dealing with a difficult soul who doesn’t see the battle around him yet, but I do, and you know. So stand in the gap between life and death for him. You are a curse breaker, that is who you truly are, and will help many break curses off their own lives, families, and their generation.

“That is why the battle is so intense, Beloved, they are terrified of what I will do through you and Derrick. Many will be set free and delivered — so many you cannot even fathom. For now, dine with him, call him to yourself, and be very patient. You need him, truly. Do let him know that — and don’t be afraid to share your feelings anymore. There is power in you two praying together. Don’t give in to your feelings or lies that he doesn’t care or doesn’t want to.

“Let him know how much you need him and how much you need his prayers for the trials and battles you face. That will change everything. For so long he hasn’t felt needed by you because you have it all together. I have made you spiritually insightful more than him in this season, but it doesn’t change the dynamic of the male and female roles that I made clear in scripture. Although you are endowed with many graces you have responded to you are still weaker than [he], Beloved, and he needs to know that so he can rise up to come to your aid.  Be patient and in time he will.

“Keep hoping against hope, Beloved, something is about to break. Trust me and be strengthened by these words.  As St Arch Angels  Michael and  Raphael made clear today to be steadfast and work without fear. There is much for you to do and get in order before you leave. Be diligent and no longer be swayed by your emotions or distractions. We are with you, praying for you and cheering you on.”

That was the end of Jesus’ message.

Thank you, so much family, for your prayers. Since then there has been some major breakthrough. Your support, your encouragement, and prayers are working!! God bless you, family.  We are all in this journey together!

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with love...to you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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