Fear of Suffering Weakens Your Love for Me

Hello, Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers family.  May we all be given the grace to accept our suffering for the love of Jesus.

There was a soul who came here for a visit, and she was struggling with many things. Her family was going through tremendous suffering with a brother who has a drug addiction, and her father just died a few months ago. She was struggling to understand — being so young — but knowing the fullness of suffering. She was so tired and weary from the battle and really [had] trouble connecting with the Lord or [having] any hope for the future. I took her to Blessed Mother’s tree with me and we were both in worship, prayer, and contemplation. 

Then another soul had been struggling for a while since coming here. He lost his entire family after saying “Yes” to Jesus. The pain of that still lingered deeply in his heart affecting his ability to receive any understanding outside the perspective of his pain because it hurts too much.

These two souls are beautiful, and the Lord has entrusted them to me. So, during prayer, I was contemplating them both, realizing they are both struggling and in the same situation with their attitude towards God because they can’t understand why He continues to allow all this suffering.

I went to St. Faustina to get a reading and was very surprised when the first paragraph I read [was] about them. It said,

“Once I was having a long talk with Jesus about our students. Encouraged by his kindness I asked Him, ‘Do you have, among our students, any who are a comfort to your heart?’ The Lord answered that He has, ’…but their love is weak, and I put them in your special care — pray for them’”.

Then the following paragraph read about how she saw a certain soul about to commit mortal sin. She then asked Jesus to send her the greatest of torment so that the soul could be saved. She suddenly felt pain and a crown of thorns on her head, but that person remained in the Lord’s grace. 

Immediately I knew it was a Rhema for a soul I knew, and I needed to pray for them at that moment and offer myself for their salvation so they could stay in grace. I hesitated because I was fearful of what torments and suffering the Lord was going to allow. So, I said it very softly, slowly, and quietly under my breath still fearful of the suffering — wondering, do I really want to offer myself?”

Then the next paragraph made me laugh as the Lord read my thoughts. It said,

When a soul loves God sincerely, it ought not fear anything in the spiritual life. Let it subject itself to the action of grace and let it not impose any restraints on itself in communing with the Lord.

I thought Lord, you got me, uncle! Sorry, Lord. 

And immediately I heard Him begin to speak to me. 

Fear of suffering weakens your love for Me.You are their Mother — pray for them. These two, and all our children are a comfort to My heart. They have no idea, Beloved One. It is with these souls that I can move freely without restraint and that is where we are headed.” 

I then recognized it was Holy Spirit speaking!

Holy Spirit, my beloved friend. The readings and all the songs You have given me are in anticipation for something wonderful!

As an aside guys, all the worship songs were about the Holy Spirit — coming, moving, consuming — about miracles, signs, and wonders. Then I got a reading from Mother Angelica’s book, “Little Book of Life Lessons”. It read,

The consuming Spirit — “Faith should be like fire to a piece of paper. The fire does not leave the paper untouched. It transforms it into ashes. The Holy Spirit is very much the same. It transforms and it consumes, it should.”

I meditated on that as I envisioned a piece of paper being held by someone over a campfire. Once the fire touched the paper it spread rapidly consuming it. But what hit me was that, if I am to be that piece of paper, I have to go through the fire to be consumed by the Holy Spirit. But many of us tremble at the thought of being burned — about being taken through the fire — about suffering.

Holy Spirit continued,

“Yes, Little One, although unworthy you are — and the others — please respond and receive the Lord’s grace that we wish to bestow on you all for the purpose of the glory of the Father. You will be souls consumed whole heartily, powerfully with the radical love and power of My Spirit. I will use all of you to turn this world upside down as I did with the first apostles. But you must see, it was in the greatest persecution that they were raised up to be bold, courageous, brave, and rejoiced in their sufferings.

Acts 17:2-7

Then Paul, as his custom was, went into them, and for three Sabbaths reasoned with them from the Scriptures, explaining and demonstrating that Christ had to suffer and rise again from the dead, and saying, “This Jesus whom I preach to you is the Christ.” And some of them were persuaded; and a great multitude of the devout Greeks, and of the leading women, not a few, joined Paul and Silas. But the Jews who were not persuaded —  becoming envious, took some of the evil men from the marketplace, and gathering a mob, set all the city in an uproar and attacked the house of Jason, and sought to bring them out to the people.  But when they did not find them, they dragged Jason and some brethren, to the rulers of the city, crying out, “These who have turned the world upside down have come here too. 

“All of you are under heavy persecution. Many enemies do you have, and many assignments have been sent against you. You are being persecuted on all sides — although not so physical — that time is soon approaching — but it is in these moments that you are better strengthened, and your character is formed so that you can withstand all the wiles of the devil, his diabolical instigations, and attacks against your mind. Play the song over them both and pray in the spirit and breakthrough will come for both of them.

As an aside, He is speaking about the Grace Williams song, “Angels of Breakthrough”. It’s a powerful, anointed song that He played over me and brought me great deliverance.

“As I am sending them both back into the world, it will not be easy. I never said it would, but I will be with them in a greater measure to withstand the storms, the strong winds that will come and give them great consolation, a sweetness of My presence, and My peace they have never experienced before.

“My beloved ones, and all the brides, you have nothing to fear. You were called and [were] destined to this high calling before the foundation of the earth and a throne in heaven awaits you both and all the brides of Christ. You will finish well, I will ensure that. I am your Comforter, Consoler, and best friend. You are never alone — do not give in to the lies of the enemy that [have] bombard you both and all the brides of Christ. Do not give in to the pain of your suffering that has consumed your thinking and stopped any forwarding movement of giving Me more. 

You can never outgive Me, I am the God of power, and all that you have is mine already. I have just entrusted it to you, and more will be given to you until overflow. I know your families have been torn apart with suffering. You both can relate to that, and you both can relate to fighting the good fight of faith in prayer, by rejoicing in hope, enduring through tribulation, and persevering in prayer. [Romans 12:12].

“Although you feel your hope is gone, you are dry without love and feeling — because you are still here — because you are still waiting — because you keep coming back to Me despite the trials of this life,  you are a comfort to My heart, truly you are. Although your love is weak, I am coming to strengthen it. You see, you must pass through the fire to be set on fire — the fire of My love, the fire of My power, the fire of My faith, and the fire of My Spirit.

“It’s like a paper to the flame — in order for the paper to be set on fire, it must be consumed. I am going to consume you both, and all the brides of Christ, if you would not resist Me. The fire is the flame of suffering. Every trial, every test, every inconvenience, every pain, every irritation, every sickness — all that is used to cause uncomfortably, pressures, loss, and pain — in a nutshell, is the flame of my suffering — coming to consume every part within you that is hard, rough, impure, and selfish. 

“Of course, it hurts at first — it burns, it stings and many times it feels excruciating. But My beloved ones, if you would but trust Me, I am shaping you oh so beautifully — shining for all to see, a tool of salvation and sanctification you both will be for your families and that is why it’s so difficult right now. But I am coming to strengthen the weary and the weak places of your soul and of your love for Me.”

Holy Spirit now begins to speak to the two souls,

My beloved daughter, I have seen you tarry — confused and wandering in this maze called life — in a world that I have called you out of. That is why nothing satisfies you; nothing makes sense to you because I have been drawing you to Myself little by little. I forgive you for all the murmurs and complaints you have made in your heart against Me. Forget them and no longer walk in condemnation. I have come to lift up your head today and tell you how much I love you — and thank you for giving me your heart and life at such a tender age. With all the gifts and your beauty, you could have been something big in this world, and ended separated from Me. But I have hidden you, I have kept you as a treasurer for Myself and that of your family. 

“There are so many assignments against them, but no weapons formed against them have prospered. Although it looks like you all are sinking deep and going nowhere, do not believe the lies there is hope just around the corner. Hug your mom, kiss her, rest your head on her shoulder daily and tell her how much you appreciate her. She is a treasure in My eyes because she ensured she raised our children the way they should go, and you all have not and will not depart from it. She has been a faithful servant in whom I am well pleased. Let her know her prayers have not been in vain nor wasted. And your beloved father, her beloved husband, is with me because of her faithfulness. So damned was he if he had not united himself with her. 

Let her know she did not make a mistake with him, he was My perfect will for her because he has been a tool of sanctification for her holiness and dotes over the entire family even now in Heaven, praying fervently for you all in anticipation when you will meet again. The chains in your family will be broken but I need you to endure a bit longer and, do not run from the fight [in] this is a season. I am equipping you to know Me, to love Me, and to fight alongside Me in strength, not in weariness or hopelessness. You will do valiantly. Take in all this little one has taught you. Seek Me out every day using the books, and contemplate much of what I show you and what you get in the readings. It all begins in your thinking. When you meditate on My words to you, My voice will begin to get clearer.

“My beloved son, I want you to relinquish your “Why?”. That is the Last thing you must let go [of] and humbly accept the cross set before you. I will help you in this when you lay prostrate at my feet saying, ‘Nevertheless, not my will, but Your will be done’. I am the Father of all fathers and I know very well the pain of loss, very well the pain of accusation, and very well the pain of loneliness. The loss I felt was in My Son, whom I gave to the world for a ransom that all may be saved. Although God, I didn’t allow Myself to be removed from His suffering. How do you think I felt hearing His heart-felt cries, even as a child, adolescent, and as an adult when He would go alone to pray? We were always together in our glory in heaven. And although in Him and He in Me, this world separated us physically.

“His cries for the souls and all creatures on earth never escaped Me and His longing for my presence and My comfort in His suffering tore My heart — because what Father doesn’t want to come to the aid of their child when they cry or are in pain? But we both understood it must be done for the sake of souls. And I want you to understand — all that you are going through must be done for the sake of souls, Beloved One. I also know the pain of accusations, even now. Many shake their fist at Me exclaiming what kind of Father am I to abandon My son on the cross, what kind of God I am to allow suffering? But you see, small minds of this world and confused souls do not understand the mystery — I suffered just as He suffered — we were one and I [have] never forsaken Him, but for a moment, removed the feeling of My presence so that grace can be given to those who experience dryness and desolation just as you are going through now. 

“I did that to obtain grace for you, but I was accused wrongly by men who do not understand the ways of God nor does your family or friends understand the ways of God. So do not take personal what is said. I understood the pain of loneliness, I allowed Myself to be needed by My creatures. That is why you were created, and all mankind — do you believe that? I longed for a family — relationship — and so you were created to fulfill that desire within Me. That is what love does, it makes itself vulnerable. So, My beloved one, let go of all your questions and reasoning and judgments, to My will and what I have allowed.

“I am making you both into a flame — and all the Brides of Christ into radical, bright, hot, and consuming flames shall you be to turn many souls back to Me. The fire is coming, stay close to your little Mother she has suffered very much more than many know and can perceive. But heaven knows and that is why she has been entrusted with so much. She was made in the fire; she is dancing in the fire now and will teach you and all My brides how to do so for that is what you were created for. Fire starters shall you be to set the world on fire for all to see Me and be consumed by the fires of My love.”

That was the end of the message.

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with love...to you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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