Hello Brothers, Sister, and Heartdwellers family. May we all receive the grace of faithful perseverance.
We had our second wedding on the mountain, with Brother James and Sister Hadassah. They are the second couple on the mountain who got sent out for their mission a few weeks ago. They also will have a channel which I will share with you guys, and Hadassah’s beautiful goodbye message she received from the Lord the day of her wedding, as she knew they would be leaving days later.
So, I got kicked out of my former hermitage — okay I didn’t get kicked out, but I had to move into the loft of another hermitage since my roommate got married. The internet had been working slowly for a couple of days and we didn’t know why — but once arriving there, it really wasn’t working at all. I was unable to upload any videos or send any to others to upload. Hence that is why you guys saw such a gap in the Zambia vlog posts and messages. Nothing was going through, and it was so frustrating. Then on top of that — to add to my emotions — Derrick went silent on me. We had been talking faithfully every day, and he seemed to be evading me. It hurt because last summer the same thing happened, and I was trying my best not to come up with suspicion, but it was too late.
I kept telling Jesus I offer this to you, I offer this to you — but I was hurting bad and frustrated with everything else. The time I had — continued to escape with the responsibilities in the community and the ministry. I was just exhausted all around and found it hard to catch up as I began to get overwhelmed again.
Then one of our intercessors came to visit the community for two weeks. This soul and I are very close, and the Lord began to speak to me about really structuring Heartdwellers Ghana properly and professionally. We are a 501c3 Nonprofit organization, by the grace of God, receiving our status just within three months of submission which is unheard of. However, I have no idea how to run a nonprofit organization, the business side of it anyway. In my prayer time, he began to speak to me about raising up those in the group to take officer positions and he also brought up Derrick, that he should be given a major role as well, although he is not fully on board yet. I thought to myself, Lord, he is not going to listen to me or even want this position. Last year he completely rejected being involved at all. He is so fixed right now on trying to get a paid job or start some type of business to make money and [is] even thinking about going back to school which is not the Lord’s will. So far, all of his endeavors have ended in much failure and pain for him. I always warn him ahead of time it’s not in the Lord’s will, but he has disregarded my counsel, so I was very leery and deterred in even telling him. However, the Lord kept bringing up laziness over and over again, that I needed to tell him so he could use his gifts to help us. I knew he would at some point, but I just thought this was the wrong time — shouldn’t we wait until he really comes on board? I should know by now Jesus always does things his way. So I was contemplating all of these things, my anxieties frustrations with all the error messages in the morning on my computer when I tried to download again and hurting over Derrick’s attitude towards me, I was a mess.
I came in to worship and this time I didn’t wait to hear from Lord. I needed to hear from him to bring peace to the storm in my heart. So I began;
Good morning Lord, forgive me, the past couple of days have been so frustrating and I haven’t received these sufferings with the right heart or the right spirit. Please forgive me and help me through these muddy waters.
Jesus, what’s on your heart?
“My beloved, I have missed you too. I am with you, and I am for you. Rest in my promise, and in My love. I am working a miracle before your eyes, you have nothing to fear. Derrick’s heart is turning, but there is an intense struggle going on interiorly now. It’s always the most difficult right before the breakthrough, right before the finish line, and right before the battle is won. I do need you to take this fast more seriously. My mercy covered you yesterday, but you are in a war, Beloved and the enemy is very intent on doing what he can to cause frustrations, irritation, and simply discouragement so you slack off.”
As an aside, the Lord told me to do a 21-day fast for Derrick in preparation for his coming to the mountain. And if I can be honest, I haven’t really been fasting well. Yesterday I saw a bag of peanut M&M’s which I told the Lord I would be giving up sweets also in this fast, but I couldn’t control myself. I was feeling frustrated, discouraged and so over it. I took a huge handful, then another handful, then another handful — then took a Ziplock bag and poured some in there and took it with me to eat in Adoration. Guys, I am a hot mess and have no shame.
I kept telling the Lord I was sorry and kept eating as I thought, really, is this fast and prayers doing anything? I sure was sorry when an hour or so later my stomach began to hurt something fierce. In the wee hours of the morning, I was feeling nauseous and had to use the bathroom outside in the dark wet cold night. Yup, learned my lesson — as I gave the whole bag of M&M’s and all the candy we had quickly away the next day to one of the sisters doing the food ministry in the valley.
Jesus continued, “Do not slack off and it would be good to get this soul in on this as well.
And here he is talking about having the soul who came to visit join me on the fast.
“Do not discount this fast or your sacrifice. I will do what I just said. Derrick continues to go off on his own in what he thinks is best and what will make him the most happy and provide him money. But it will end yet again in disappointment, betrayal, and disfunction if he continues on. Let him know these things, continue to pray behind him, and offer the position to him. Do not worry about what you think he will say, or do you just be obedient, and I will do the rest and work out the details in My timing.
Be patience with yourself beloved and be very patient with him, oh so patient. You are called to wear a glorious crown of patience so give all things time. Do not concern yourself with the worries of provision for all that I have asked you to do and even the bills you have racked up during your hospital stay. Do what you can, Beloved, to get assistance and I will do the rest. Take each day one step at a time and be very diligent and wise with your time beloved. You have been too lax lately because you are caught up in emotions of discouragement, hopelessness, and discontentment. You are being barraged by the devils. Rise up from your mourning and weariness don’t you see the battle is already won, praise me for it and move ahead, Beloved.
This soul will continue to be such a consolation to you, and I am so glad that he responded and said, “Yes” to my call. He won’t regret it one bit, although the enemy many times will throw doubts, disturbances, and anxieties at him to cause him to waver or question what I am doing. Tell him to keep his eyes on Me, his heart fixed on Me. You are his Mother and what you have endured with Derrick will be a testimony to him of My faithfulness that I can take even the worst and most painful situations and make beauty from ashes. Right now I have broken the foundation of his family and purified his affection in his heart, taking the rightful seat in his throne room. There will be many temptations to turn back, but I am doing a new thing.
I am bringing healing, restoration, and rebuilding his family in My way and in My time. His children will be My sons and I will be their Father. Tell him not to worry, I am raising him up, much, much higher than he can imagine. I have found him faithful and pure in My sight that is why I can trust him with this role and position that I have entrusted you to give him. There is much more to come and as I am putting together this team of yours, all the gifts in each of the souls will be used and anointed for my purpose to bless so many all over the world. Do not worry again about provision for you and the others, that will all come in abundance in time because I know your heart will be for the poor, so I can trust you with much because it will be given away, leaving more than enough to take care of their personal needs. For now, I am working on the hearts of all to respond and say ‘Yes’.
“Stay close to me, Beloved, hold on to My promise and pray, pray, pray, fervently. Breakthrough is on the way.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
Well an update, after receiving this message Derrick finally called and sure enough, as Jesus said, he had five major job offers, and in church, someone gave him a prophetic word that he should be very cautious and take his time. He listened and when we offered him the position, to my pleasant surprise, as Jesus said, He accepted it! The fast was a success and Jesus was faithful! Derrick happily took the offer to come on board Heartdwellers Ghana Incorporated and his heart began to change after watching the film Mully Movie which can be found on YouTube for free. I encourage everyone to watch it. My goodness, it inspired me with such great faith! I told Derrick to watch it and he cried as his heart began to change as he mentioned that he sees himself doing the City of God Community full time in the future and he even broke off some old friendships and said, He is feeling like the Lord may be calling him to a life of solitude and prayer. I was like whaaaaaa #hushJesushush.
I didn’t have to say anything. Although he is not fully on board with everything the Lord is indeed moving slowly and surely. Please continue to pray for him and pray for this soul that is heading back to the mountain. After visiting the Lord called him to come back and stay for a year. He is leaving behind his two young boys ages 4 and 8 and an ex-wife whom he is believing for reconciliation in the near future as the Lord has promised he will restore his marriage. So for those now tarring in faith concerning a promise from God, this message is for you too…be encouraged breakthrough is on the way and as he is doing it for me He will do it for you. We are in this together!
Matthew 19:29, And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.