Holy Spirit and Father God began to speak. I came out before I could write down what they were saying, and I was hit again with the same thought that got me spiraling into resentment this morning. I began to reason with myself with what was said and argue that it wasn’t true. I knew I was contending with a demon again, but I couldn’t just shake it. I thought to myself, Lord I am a mess. I am with the Holy Trinity and look how easily I can get sucked right back into the enemy’s traps. My heart was hurting again, and I was so disappointed in myself. I decided to get two more Rhemas and I got;
“I have been waiting to share My sufferings with you. Who can understand My Suffering better than My Spouse.”
I thought, Aw, Lord, this is a real suffering for me — please help me. Then a second card came with it, which was no accident. It read;
“This is warfare — stop crying. Put your Big Girl panties on and Fight in prayer!”
I laughed realizing, Yes Lord, you’re right. No more whining about the words spoken to me, or self-pity or brooding, no more! Satan get out of my head NOW, in Jesus’ name!
After eating breakfast I decided to go back to that place to hear what they had to say. I found myself right back on the bench between Jesus, God the Father, and Holy Spirit. All three were staring at me intensely and simultaneously. All three had piercing blue-gray ocean eyes — you can get lost in them. The look was so intense it startled me as I was inundated by love itself. It was somewhat uncomfortable because the eyes of God can see right through you. They were looking into the depths of My soul.
Holy Spirit said,
“We just love what we created. You have allowed us to live fully in you, My little one, and what joy it brings us when we have a soul [who] allows us to have free reign over their will, over their body, over their soul, and over their heart. You are the light of heaven, and we enjoy being with you and living in you.”
I was amazed at such wonderful words from God himself. Me, so full of weaknesses, ill motives, selfishness? I couldn’t comprehend it.
Holy Spirit continued, “From your standard, Little One, you truly are a miserable and sore sight to behold. But from our standards, it’s quite different. We know all your weaknesses and yet love you just the same. What we desire in all souls [are] heart and their will. That you have given us, and for that we are grateful.”
“That is what I died for,” Jesus said, “to dwell in the heart of man.” God the Father chimed in, “To have My law written upon their heart.” Holy Spirit added, “And to have their hearts be mine, our abode where we dwell. When a soul gives us their heart, their whole heart, there is so much we can do. Not only transforming them — but transforming the world around them. That is what a Christian should be and look like. That is what we intended the church to be, and it will become eventually, one living organism, one true body with working members all working for the glory of God with Christ as the head —as he brings the glory of the Father again — on earth as it is in heaven.”
“I came to show the nature, character, and heart of the Father when I walked upon the earth, and I left to bring the Holy Spirit to dwell in men. So that agenda would still continue — that has not changed. But rather, in your time and generation it is so very much needed now. Many have forgotten again the character, the nature, and heart of the Father, and I am looking for souls whom I can use to showcase that — who will bring the Glory of the Father to earth in the way that I desire and in the way that would impact the greatest good. With your consent little one, you have done just that.
God the Father continued,
“With every trial, with every test, with every failure, My beloved daughter, you have brought Me glory and will continue to. You will duplicate a many of souls who will do the same. We will make sure of it, because that is what you were created for, beloved little one. You were created to manifest My glory — to be a light-bearer like John and set many other souls on fire for My glory, for Divine Love — that the zeal for their Father’s house would also consume them. So do not give up, the road we have paved for you will not be easy, little one, because you will resemble that of My Son so closely. You will suffer greatly in this life. But be not dismayed, there is also great consolation and joy for you as well, seeing many, many souls come to love My Son, Kiss My Son, and be filled with My Spirit. Has that not been the cry of your heart?”
It has, Papa.
“And whom do you think put it there?”
“Yes,” all Three said. “You will see and experience the cry of your heart to make love known and loved, but it comes with a cost, My sweet little one, and you have counted the cost. You have found the pearl of great price worthy of your life and you have consented by giving us everything. So, we will continue to use everything to ensure your life brings us glory. You will never be alone, My daughter never. Always remember, the Holy Trinity dwells within you, surrounds you, is hedged behind you, and goes before you.
“You have nothing to fear. Only if you knew how favored and loved you are, My sweet daughter. You are the apple of My eye, and nothing shall [by any] means harm you. Yes, there will be pain and many times of darkness, but that does not negate our continuous presence with you. The feeling of abandonment you will feel many times is so that you can continue to unite yourself further with My Son, and it purifies your Love…”
“…for Me.” Jesus said. “A love that is not built on gifts, anointings, or blessings, but a love that is built on a life laid down — a road marked with suffering — and the most beautiful crown of all, the crown of thorns. You never look more beautiful, My bride, than when you are suffering in Me, with Me, and for Me. So do not despise this little way we have prepared for you and so many others. Rather ask for the grace to embrace it and thank Me for it so that you may teach others how to persevere too.”
Holy Spirit then said,
“The road we have set for you is very unique. Although the lives of the Saints are a pathway for you and many others to be light in this life, you are not like any other Saint, nor will you be. Do not look to others or compare yourself, my little child. The way we are forming you is unique to what you were created to be and do for us. Comparison only will lead to bitterness and resentment snuffing out every inspiration, anointing, and courage to move forward. Keep your eyes on the cross, beloved, keep your eyes on the cross, for that will be your source of strength in this life to bear your trials with great patience and resignation to the will of God.
“That is all for now, Little One, and how very little you are. Do not despise the chastisement of the Lord or better yet, His love taps, which chisel away at all your uncleanness, your impurity, and break strongholds of sin in your life. You are being broken you are being refined and you are being molded in this fire and you are burning beautifully. With great strength now given to you, press forward — and in great humility finish this race to win, we will help you!”
That was the end of their message.