Hello Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers family. May we all be given the grace to deny ourselves and not follow the suggestion of the flesh.
So I was given this message upon coming down from the mountain, to Taos, to prepare for our upcoming event.
I woke up the next few days not feeling right. My eyes were crusted over as if I had pink eye, my nose was running, and I had chills, and aches and pain in my body. I shrugged it off in the morning as severe allergies since coming back to the mountain because the morning I was there it was very cold, freezing actually. But during the day I could feel my heart racing so fast just by walking, and I felt exhausted. During our community Rosary prayer I looked up symptoms of malaria and sure enough, I suspected that was what I had.
Malaria is very common in Africa and comes from infected mosquitos. Most symptoms don’t show up until 10-14 days later and the mosquitoes in Zambia, as I told everyone, were disrespectful! Man, my body got tore up. They bit all over my feet, on my legs, on my rear, everywhere. These mosquito bites are not like the ones you get in America that just itch the day you get bitten. These bites itched for days, and it was a fiery itch as well. Even when I returned home to America they were still itching.
I had prayed for children there who [were] sick with malaria and they were healed so I couldn’t fathom why the Lord would permit this, especially with this event coming up. I could feel myself declining quickly. When I was on the mountain before I left I humbled myself after prayer and asked Mother Clare and everyone to pray to break the curse of Malaria off of me. Hoping they wouldn’t fear me being around because it’s not contagious. They prayed and within a few minutes, I could feel it lift — praise God! But a few hours later it returned. I began to bind the lying symptoms and told my Body I would not receive it but by the evening I was out and in so much pain with exhaustion.
Not only was I dealing with malaria symptoms but stomach issues as well, as I found myself having an urge to eat anything because I was used to eating the same meal in Zambia for two weeks. I had a dream that night of eating which is not good because it’s witchcraft where they deposit something in your body in the spirit through the food you eat or entice you to eat. So when you wake up from the dream you have an extreme hunger to eat, and I knew it when I woke up. I faintly heard what I felt was Holy Spirit say, “This kind comes out by fasting and prayer.”
I didn’t discern and before doing the Lord’s Supper I decided to feed my craving and had breakfast although I wasn’t even hungry. After eating I came to do the Lord’s Supper and my readings were an admonishment from the Lord Psalm 95
The response was, “If today you hear his voice harden not your heart.”
I thought, uh oh. Then after my Lord’s Supper, I pulled three Rhemas and one read, “Satan throws sticks and like a dog, you run on all fours for it.”
Ouch, Lord. Immediately I knew it had been the Lord who told me to fast today for healing from this sickness and I didn’t listen. Rather I ate right out of Satan’s hands, like a dog. Lord forgive me, I am a mess
I used Bible Promises to discern and he made it clear that he wanted to speak to me, so I came before him saying,
Hello, Lord. Good morning. I think that Rhema was for me — you were calling me to fast, weren’t you? and I gave in to my flesh although I wasn’t hungry.
“Yes beloved, I had wished you would have sought me first thing this morning before rushing to eat breakfast. I have called you to a fast for your own good and the health of your soul. Every time you travel from now on, upon returning I want you to do a 3 day fast to flush many toxins and break you free from any curses that have been assigned to you. And many were assigned to you in Zambia although you were unaware. As I told you this morning this kind comes out by fasting and prayer. This curse of malaria was very deliberate to slow you down and to be an impediment to the event I have planned this weekend. So you see, Beloved, I need you to be diligent and be quick to follow my prompting rather than question it, and come to me immediately upon hearing something to discern so you no longer run after the sticks Satan throws at you” [smiling].
Yes Lord, please forgive me.
“You are forgiven, Beloved. In this season my anointing and grace will move powerfully through you and many of my brides which calls for more sacrifice and self-denial on your part”
But Lord, like Mother Clare said, it’s not about what I do that should cause you to heal through me or work miracles through me, you do it because you love people and people need to be touched. Because I may begin to get either puffed up in pride or easily discouraged when I don’t fast, thinking you won’t move through me because I didn’t deny myself.
“There is a point to her wise counsel. The point of it all is not to rely on yourself or look to your own righteousness for anything. I do move through my chosen vessels because people are in desperate need of My touch and My love. When you make yourself available to be used in that way I will move through you regardless of a fasted life or not. So it calls for faith — for all my brides to live by faith, to step out by faith, to speak My name by faith to those who are in sin and oppressed, and trust that I will deliver them. However, there is a place I am calling you and all my brides to — a place where your flesh doesn’t rule, and you are no longer bound to food.
“That is one of your many weaknesses, and how this would have affected your life in a traumatic way if I had not stepped in. Fasting not only draws you closer to the delights of Heaven, making you more sensitive to My Spirit, but it also brings deliverance to the soul. Many oppressions are lifted, strongholds are broken, and you are even delivered from demons that have long plagued you and physically it cleans and purifies your immune system. So fasting is good all-around especially when offered in the right spirit — in a spirit of gratitude, thankfulness, and cheerfulness — not in resentment, murmuring, and discontentment which happens more often than you think.
“So I want you to stay on liquids these next three days to be delivered from this sickness, to be strengthened and equipped with my anointing in preparation for what I will do at this event. Let my body and blood be your food and source of your contentment and strength these next few days. No longer be swayed by your flesh or the devil’s insinuations when it comes to food.
“My brides, I am calling many of you to a fasted life where you will no longer grumble when a fast is called or I call you to deny yourself pleasurable delights or delicacies that you love. I am emptying many of you even now so that I may fill you with the greater anointing and gifts. I am calling you all much deeper and intimate with Me and fasting will help.
“Only choose the fast that I ask of you because that is more pleasing to Me rather than you fasting on your own without My grace. Also, keep in mind when you fast if you allow yourself to be given over to a bad attitude — anger, fighting, strife, which the devils will be sure to throw at you, it cancels out the fast. For the fast that pleases me is one where you walk in greater humility, meekness, service to others, and relieving the suffering of others — that pleases Me rather than a fast which causes you to walk in pride haughtiness, and self-righteousness towards others. Listen to my voice, follow my lead, and offer me anything you can. Ask for the grace to live a fasted life.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
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