Hello, Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers Family. May the Lord give us the boldness and courage to press forward with all he has asked us to do and not be swayed by fear.
During my time in Zambia, it was quite amazing how the Lord was moving. After many ministry programs and setups by the Lord, he impressed on Pastor Chama’s brother’s heart that we should go and visit the prisons. I thought to myself, how can we fit that in? He mentioned that there could be up to 100-200 inmates, and they were in desperate need of soaps and razors.
I kind of shrugged it off and put it on the shelf when after prayer, Pastor Chama said the Lord spoke to him in prayer that we must go to the prison. So we attempted the following day and bought the razors and soaps. We went into town to take a young man to the hospital. Then I found myself led to pray for the sick in the hospital. We were there for 2 hours, and the Lord healed everyone we laid hands on. It was amazing! However, by the time we were done the prison was .
So I woke up that morning and the Lord gave me the reading on hospitality;
For I was hungry, and you gave me something to eat, I was thirsty, and you gave me something to drink, “I was a stranger and you invited me in, I needed clothes and you clothed me, I was sick, and you looked after me, I was in prison, and you came to visit me. – Matt. 25:36
So we went to the prison, and it was amazing, as the Lord led me to tell about the Father’s love. Many of the guys heard from the Lord when we did an exercise. Then the Lord gave me a word for all of those who were there in the prison. It was a male prison with about 100 inmates. After our exercise, they all began asking for Rosaries, so I gave two that I had away. They, not knowing the message I had just received from the Lord about them all drawing near to his Mother which was a confirmation. This is what Jesus said and I shared it with all the inmates and the Chaplin there,
“These are the sons of My mother. Let them know they are not motherless. Pray against a spirit of obstinance and a spirit of rebellion. Trust in My love and I will do the rest.”
We went home overjoyed at what the Lord did there. That following evening, I received a message from Mother Elisabeth that Mother Clare wanted me to come back home ASAP [as soon as possible] and she felt the Zambia trip was a distraction. I was so disheartened and couldn’t understand why and began to question the messages the Lord gave me being there and even the work of Children Hope Community Center. I knew obedience was my protection, so I told Pastor Chama I had to leave the next day.
With hugs and a teary goodbye, we left on a bus the following day to the city of Lusaka. It was an 11-hour drive. Halfway through our travel, they began to play a particular African movie on the bus that glorifies witchcraft and sending out curses. My heart began to hurt immediately, and I heard the Lord say, “Get off the bus.” I thought, Lord this can’t be, it’s an inconvenience to everyone. Not only was Pastor Chama with me and Pastor Brian, but his young son Elijah — plus we had already paid for a full ticket, and it wasn’t cheap. But I could feel my heart beating fast and an urgency as the bus made a stop at one of the intermediate cities to give the travelers a break. Holy Spirit said. “Get off now!” I went to Bible Promises to confirm this and got Joy. I then told Pastor Chama. They were not too happy about it but they listened. We got off the bus, trying to figure out what to do next, and were able to get another one.
We finally made it to Lusaka at his uncle’s place. The following morning I took the guys outside to encourage them to do soaking worship and then to hear from the Lord — teaching them how to seek the Lord as we do, and they both heard from him. It was wonderful! I then shared the message I got from the Lord.
When I came into prayer I was still musing over the fact he made us get off the bus, wondering if I was wrong for inconveniencing them and what was the reason. A thought popped in my head, and I felt I heard the Lord say, “The film was cursed.” That is why he made us get off the bus.
“Pray for mercy for all those who have watched it. Many curses have been released to bring destruction in so many lives because of it — it was quite serious. Continue to follow the promptings of My Spirit. You did not err yesterday but were being tormented by the devils with lies. They will do that many times as I give you promptings. It’s always best to err on the side of obedience. You can’t go wrong even when it may be an inconvenience to others or others don’t agree. I have made you a Mother for that reason and will give you instructions that others may not understand. You obey Me, and all will be well.”
Jesus, thank you for your sweet presence this morning with all of these songs. They have brought Me comfort. Thank you, Lord, for delivering us from the curses and from evil. But the two songs of breakthrough and freedom make me wonder if I have been held captive?
“But you have, beloved one, captive to so much insecurity, anxiety, and fear.”
I’m sorry, Lord, after Mother questioned this trip I’ve spiraled down thinking — has everything been a lying spirit?
“My beloved little one, look at the fruit — the fruit of you being here has been copious. Always look at the fruit. Would a lying spirit lead you here and then have you heal people in My name and touch lives?”
“So rest in that, beloved, I am with you. I am with you three and my delight shines on you all. Tell your other two sons, these souls are the delight and pleasure of My heart. How My joy is found in their obedience and their heart to seek Me and do good to others. This is only the beginning, I am calling them both much deeper, beloved, so do not worry and tell them not to fear. All things concerning the work I have entrusted you three will come to pass, but in My timing. Have them continue to sit still in My presence, and there I will speak to their hearts.
For you, My beloved one, stop fearing once and for all. That is your biggest stronghold. I need you to relinquish all and let go of the results of all things. Don’t fear being humiliated, don’t fear being wrong, don’t fear contradictions, and don’t fear being used for My glory. Let me do with you as I wish, and you continue to praise Me for whatever I allow.
Don’t be concerned with how others see you either. I’ve I have told you once before and it bears repeating — all that I allow in your life is to also train those that I have called to follow you and you follow Me. They too will be tested with delays, humiliations, and contradictions, but when they see how you respond, how you humble yourself, and how you persevere under My loving blows of sanctification they too will persevere through their trials when they come.
So let go of everything that continues to hinder you and receive My peace. Now is the time for Me to manifest myself through you and the others in a greater way. It will continue to take more sacrifice, deeper prayer, and unyielding response to give Me your will each day and you will continue to not only see — but live Heaven on earth.”
Here he began speaking to Pastor Chama and Pastor Brian as well.
“I have called you all to be carriers of My divine presence and nature. Where I send you I will go with you, what you say I will speak through you and what you do I will be moving to bring My glory to souls who have never experienced My love and intimacy. This is the season of revelation and manifestation for you all. Trust Me and breath in My breathtaking purity that is found in My heart alone, where I dwell.
I love you, My little one, and I love these two souls so deeply and unconditionally. They too will come to know Me in ways that [they] haven’t fathomed and will come to understand how to live as a Citizens of heaven, walking upon this earth to bring My kingdom. Graces are being released to them now for this new road they are venturing into. No longer fear, My beloved one, trust me, rest in Me, and wait on Me. I am about to do a glorious thing before your eyes. Be at peace. I love you”
That was the end of Jesus’ beautiful message.
Then I got these three confirmation Rhemas
- Deuteronomy 31:6, “Be firm and steadfast, Go to work without fear. The Lord your God is with you. He will not fail you.”
- Do good everywhere so that everyone can say: This is a son of Christ. Endure tribulation, sickness, and pain for the love of God and for the conversion of poor sinners. Defend the weak, console those who weep. – St Patrick
- Jeremiah 31: 16,17
“Refrain your voice from weeping and your eyes from tears. For your work shall be rewarded says the Lord.”
The guys were so encouraged by this, and I pray that you all, my brides, are encouraged by this. Fear is truly a liar but the greatest stronghold and many times the hardest thing to overcome. What are you fearing? What is holding you back from doing what the Lord called you to do? Are you afraid of failure? Are you afraid of what others will say? Are you afraid of messing things up or trying something different or doing something you have never done before? Join me, let’s kick fear in the teeth because I am so tired of fear — yet guys, it still plagues me many times. But all we need to do is ask the Lord for courage he will give us His faith, boldness, and bravery as we do whatever he tells us with Him. Because those who finish the race are souls who simply fell their way to success, not giving up, persevering, and dusting yourself off when you fall and keep going again.
I address this a bit more later on in one of the messages coming up after coming back from Zambia and my near-death sickness. I was hit with a mountain of fear it seemed I couldn’t get past, and you will hear Mother Clare’s counsel me as well.
God bless you family thank you for coming alongside this journey with me.