My name is Jahnavi, and I am a Heartdwellers since 2019.
I am so humbled to be part of this series. I am thankful to God for His loving mercy and kindness that He has invited me to be part of this family and share my testimony. Two months back I already gave my testimony on this channel. So last week, in my worship playlist, “My Testimony Song,” was playing continuously for two days. I was wondering if I have already given what could else it be? Then later I got an email from my mentor Mary Elisha that she is inspired by Holy Spirit to do a series on God’s character and my experiences in knowing Him. At first, when I read it, I cried and resisted responding as I was going through rough times but later something stirred in me. How can you know not to share the goodness of the Lord of what He has done in your life?
So once again, I am sharing my testimony of Jesus being the good shepherd and His faithfulness. As a good tender, caring shepherd, He led me to safer pasture…. A good shepherd always nurtures tenderly and cares for His sheep, He leads them to safe pastures and always protective. And not all sheep are good many are sick, untamable. Still, the shepherd loves the sheep and cares for them. And I was such that sheep.
In 2021 I went through severe demonic oppression; I had my 3rd child and my walk with the Lord was not right. Even though I knew about walking in Humility and Brotherly Love, I still walked in my own ways and lived selfishly. Lord repeatedly warned me, but I ignored it and went my own ways.
Eventually, as I wandered away from the shepherd I fell unto wolves. For nine months I was possessed by demons. I lived through hell every day. I firmly believed that Lord has left me, He hates me and has nothing to do with me. The enemy continued to heap lies on me and I believed it. So much hatred got built in my life that I gave up all hope for reconciliation with Him. As a matter of fact, Lord never left me, never abandoned me.
My distrust continued to increase, and, on many occasions, I wanted to turn away from Him. The temptation overtook me sometimes and I went away in the world. But Lord in His mercy never allowed me to turn away from Him.
He is faithful and never stopped saving me. I gave up but He never gave up on me. A good shepherd never forgets his sheep. Even though they stray away. I did stray away instead of repenting and turning away from my sins. I began to seek others for help, and many tried to deliver me, but I was not delivered. My resentment grew deep, and I continued to question Him. I continually misunderstood His good intentions.
Still, Lord is faithful even though I had distrust in Him and continued to turn away. He faithfully protected me from [the] devil’s harm.
I heard all sorts of derogatory, vile, and despicable things that no human mind can imagine. If any of you are hearing any such thing, please it is not from you. The reason [the] enemy gained on me [was] because I believed in his lies and condemnation. I have practiced offering to the Lord and thanking Him for humbling me. So please don’t give in to these thoughts are from you, no it’s from the enemy.
Finally, after much praying of my husband, mentor, and friends, and effort of a godly exorcist, I was delivered by Him.
Even after deliverance once again I lingered in fear that I will be possessed again. Partially I blamed Him that He didn’t rescue me. That’s not true His hand was always protecting me. He continued to be patient with me and began restoring my sanity. Yes! After my deliverance I was in shock and became obtuse. I refused to listen or understand. It was another difficult phase of my life.
Then Jesus put me to wonderful motherly care under Mary Elisha and guided me through her. However, there were scars in my heart which hurt me. In spite of [my] cold response, He continued to shower His graces on me.
As weeks went by, I began to see old things leaving and a better understanding in me. My life began to be normal, and He strengthened me to once again, take care of my children and husband. For that, I am so grateful to the Lord.
Soon I began to hear from the Lord, and he told me to start a blog called simplelifesimplecalling@Eden. At first, I was not sure because I had different agendas. But Lord assured me that it’s His will for me. As I began to start journaling, I realized how wonderful and simple our Lord is. I am totally smitten by His simplicity and meekness. He longs for families to be united in love and children to be raised in [a] loving environment. Lord is indeed feeding me in green pastures. But you will always have bumpy roads.
Once again, I fell in the world, and I was thinking to acquire things in the world. Since then, I began to see lukewarmness, I didn’t realize that prayer and coming before His presence was hard. I realized something is wrong and I cried out to Him.
Then Lord began to speak to me, “Money is the root of all evil”. I was startled because I barely have any money with myself. And He further said, “If your heart is in this world, then there is little room for me”. I said, “Jesus what did I do?” Then He convicted me of desire to buy a thing even though it’s of little value. Then I realized I was getting compulsive to buy it from last one week, it was very subtle not even noticeable. I was really surprised, then I heard Him say, “And, I am telling you this because I am faithful!” I was bowled over [by] this statement. HE CONVICTS YOU, BECAUSE HE IS FAITHFUL.
I AM THANKFUL TO LORD FOR HIS FAITHFULNESS AND HIS TENDER LOVE THAT LIFTED ME UP FROM DEADLY POISON OF HATRED AND RESENTMENT. WHEN I ASKED THE LORD ABOUT THIS SERIES, HE QUESTIONED ME BACK, “HOW DO YOU THINK I AM FAITHFUL?” I REPLIED, “BECAUSE YOU FORGAVE ME ALL OF MY SINS”. HE SAID, “NO, MY FAITHFULNESS IS IN LOVING YOU.” HOW CANNOT WE LOVE HIM WHEN HE LOVES US SO MUCH. I FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM AGAIN AND AGAIN.
I encourage you family, are you facing hurdles and obstacles and your faith is low and all the world seems to crash? Still trust him and believe in Him, for He is faithful to deliver you. When I was demon-possessed, I lost all faith in Him, but he restored my faith and from many complexities and deep-seated misunderstandings’ He revealed to me His tender heart and healed me from a long-standing sickness. When I was going through this trial, my body was physically exhausted, and I developed strange symptoms like hiccups. These hiccups continually came and affected me very much. My family suffered on account of me. But Lord healed me in [a] months’ time. A good shepherd always tends to His sheep.
I am thankful to the Lord for his steadfast love and His faithfulness. I can trust Him with my life. If you only knew, He is so caring, He is so tender, and He cares for you and loves you. You can trust Him with your life, and He makes everything beautiful.
Blessings family! God bless you! May these words bring you encouragement and uplift you!