If You Only Knew—God, the Vulnerable and Tender

April 23, 2022

My name is David Perez and I’m seventeen years old. And this is my life experience with Jesus, my Lord, and Savior.

When I was little, I always worshiped God. Well, I always love praising God, singing to Him every single Saturday, in the morning at 6 AM. I also prayed to God repeatedly, saying the same prayers, and praying publicly, which was wrong, and I needed to repent of that, and pray privately, in secret. But then, I started to get weaker when I committed laziness, pornography, lust, self-will, masturbation, and all sorts of sins.

Then, I just stop focusing on the Lord—but I never stopped thinking of Him. When I always continue to think of Him every single day of my life, with my imagination, and with my thoughts, it feels like He’s there with me, and He is there, whether I think of or imagine Him or not; just as He is there with you and in you too, living inside of you, working through you, whether you feel Him, or see Him or not.

I failed Him so many times. But the greatest thing is that He is there with you. He suffers with you, and He is longing to have a personal relationship with you. I sometimes blame myself because of how much I sinned against Him, and yet, He is there protecting me from taking a terrible fall that could make me lose my life. Because there were a lot of times when I could have almost died by several accidents in the past. It’s because I gave in to self-will and I wanted to get away from Him and focus on the world—on the things of this world—focusing on the pleasures of the world. Because, when I was focusing on the Lord, to me, when in my own flesh, it felt like, “It’s too much work”. Yet, when I sort of think of Him, the Lord makes me imagine Him waiting for me to come to Him. Then, I started to realize that what I’m doing is not only wrong, but it is terrible what I’m doing to myself. What I’m doing to my life is terrible because, when I focus on my own self- will, it hurts, and it pains the Lord. It sends Him pain and it also breaks his heart. He is vulnerable for me. He is really attacked, and He protects me from all of the attacks of the enemy—from making a great fall. He sometimes allows all the attacks to land on him instead of me. Sometimes he allows all the attacks to land on us but not letting us continue following our own path but to follow his way—to do it all for His glory and all for His will.

He is tender towards you. He has such tenderness and love towards you because He loves you very much, He wants to take care of you. God will always be there with you, even in times of trouble because He cares for you. And He truly wants to take care of you if you only let Him care for you. Well, He still cares for you, but you also need to allow Him to live inside of you and to work with you too. He is vulnerable for the things you have done, but He still cares about you. He cares and loves you very much. He will always protect you, no matter what you do. He loves you so much that He would rather die for you again. He would rather let all the pain, all the suffering come towards Him instead of you, because He is a God of tenderness, a God with a tendered heart who would rather cover and protect you, and let all the pain come to Him, receiving the pain and suffering, and He gives you a smile showing you that He’s got this, and He gives you His grace, his love towards you and shows you mercy and forgiveness and love towards you just as He did on the cross. Even in times of trouble He still cares for you. He protects you and gives you a smile showing that He loves you and He is always there for you even in times of trouble—even in such tribulations because he cares so much about you. That’s why He made you, He loves you. He made you unique. All He just wants from you is to have a personal relationship with Him because He made you more than that— He made you to be His children—to be one of His children—to be His kings and queens, to be a part of his kingdom to rule with Him in honor and glory. And all blessings, honor, glory, and power belong to the Lord God Almighty. We all need to show love towards others just as He showed love towards us to everyone in this world and towards you too.

Lord is powerful and He cares for you. He is wonderful, and He just wants your heart. He just wants you to come to Him, and he wants you to be His. And to be more than just His Children, He wants you to be His Bride; he wants you as His Bridesmaids because He made you to be His Love— His beloved Bride, to forever be with Him and in Him; to live inside of Him and to have communion with Him, to love Him, and to have eternal life. To rule with Him, in power and great Glory, and to rule with Him in His Mighty Name, and in His Love towards you. If You Only knew, how wonderful and how faithful He is with you you will then feel such love, such peace, and such utter sweetness from His love and His purity towards you. You will also receive such utter kindness of His purity. So be purified by Him and ask the Lord to purify your heart. It takes time, but it is worth it to speak to Him, to dwell in His Heart, to have a personal relationship with your Father in Heaven, with the Holy Trinity—Father, Son (Jesus the Christ), and Holy Spirit. You can even speak with all the Saints and Angels in Heaven because God allowed that to happen—God allowed us to speak with them too. You can ask them for your help too. You can especially speak with Jesus’s Mother, Mary, because God has also allowed that to happen too because she is Jesus’ mother. And she also has a pure heart. There is a lot in scripture that also shows and talks about her—how Jesus told Mary to hold onto your son and Jesus told John to hold onto your mother which was Jesus’ mother and it’s very significant in that verse. It’s found in the Bible verses where Jesus is crucified. Yet, if you don’t believe me, it’s okay, I would prefer that you ask the Lord first and discern his voice too if what I’m saying is wrong. Because you have a Holy God who can answer your questions and you can ask Him for everything you need. Just as Jesus said in Matthew 7:7 “Ask, and you shall receive.” Ask Him with true discernment and discern His Voice if it is truly the Lord or not by the words and by how they speak. You will also know if it is the Lord by His Still Small Voice, by His tenderness and by His love and by His sweet kindness towards you. So listen to Him carefully and receive His heart and love towards you. So with that being said, If you only knew, God is wonderful, beautiful, and faithful towards you. You then feel loved because He is more than just a God. He is a Father, a friend, a teacher, and most importantly, the Creator who knew you in the beginning and made you perfectly. You are fearfully and wonderfully made just as He wanted you to be—to be loved by Him the most in all of Heaven. He made you special, He created you to be His forevermore. That is who He really is. That is how God truly is and forever will be.. If You Only knew, God is wonderful, He is very vulnerable and very tender towards you and to all the earth.

—David

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with love...to you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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