I found myself sitting before the Lord in adoration as I began to reminisce about his goodness in my life. I thought of all the times He had been there for me, not giving up on me, helping me through my shame and difficulty, delivering me from the enemy’s plans and attacks more times than I could count, protecting me when those around me sought betrayal. He mended my wounds of rejection when family and friends turned their backs on me, provided for me—over and exceedingly more than I could have ever asked for. It truly pays to work for Jesus. He has been a loving Father, held me, comforted me, and revealed himself to me healing the deep father wounds I didn’t know I had. And the way he has loved me, words cannot describe. The way he looks at me so intensely every time our eyes meet, piercing the depths of my soul, and making me feel like I am the only creature on all the earth who is worth his love. He never even blinks to look away. I have never been loved so well, so deeply, so faithfully, and so purely in all my life. His love has healed me, transformed me, made me whole in all my brokenness, and brought restoration where I thought there was no hope and all things looked dead.
My heart was full of profound gratitude thinking of these things and all we have gone through in these past six years of our union together as tears streamed down my face and sobs took over my silence. I kept thinking, how can anyone know you and not love you, Lord? If they only knew who you truly are—how you desire to talk with us so casually, communion with your creation daily—how vulnerable and tender you are, how approachable, and how intimately available you are to all who would seek you. If they only knew that they would be loved beyond anyone’s love they have ever known on earth—so unconditionally and selflessly. If they only knew… Then I heard him say very frankly, “So tell them”. I thought, Ah, of course, I will! Which has birthed this series you all will be hearing. At first, I wanted to share my experience with this inconceivable God who has made himself so familiar with me and has revealed himself, face to face. I have seen God, I have known God, and still getting to know him more as he has made his heart known to me and it has now become my resting place, my home. He wants to you know him too, as He really is. If you only knew Him you would love him and you would never be the same.