What About Me, Lord?

February 5, 2022

Hello, brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family. I got this reading from The Imitation of Christ a while back when I struggling with the contradictions and the humiliations the Lord allowed with my trip to Ghana and the City of God community delays. As Holy Spirit does, He was right on point and all I could do was laugh in humble submission to what I now realized the Lord was doing in my soul.

I wanted to share with you guys because it falls perfectly in line with our Belonging to Christ series and really opens our eyes as the Lord is wanting us to die to ourselves completely and live for our heavenly rewards and thinking eternally.

There is a Rhema a couple of us have pulled at Mother’s house. And it’s from Joyce Meyer. It says, “The robot: ‘What about me, what about me, what about me?’” It’s from a teaching on how we can be so self-absorbed and full of self-pity in our Christian walk when we compare ourselves and nothing seems to be
bearing any fruit in our lives. She was on stage doing the robot, saying how we feel inside—saying, “Lord, what about me, what about me, what about me?” When I got this Rhema reading I was struggling with comparison and discouragement, asking the Lord “What about me?” not realizing he was breaking me to prepare me for eternity.

This is Chapter 49, and the title is called, “Of the desire after eternal life, and how great blessings are promised to those who strive after it”. I thought, “What About Me?” would be a more fitting title for this message. So I have personalized this, so the counsel given is From Jesus, speaking to us.

Jesus begins,

“My Child, often the fire burns, but the flame ascends not without smoke. So also the desires of some men burn towards heavenly things, and yet they are not free from the temptations of carnal affections. Therefore, they are not acting with any altogether simple desire for God’s glory when they pray to Me so earnestly.

“Such, too, oftentimes is your desire when you have imagined it to be so earnest. For what is tainted with your own self-seeking is not pure and perfect. Do not seek what is pleasant and favorable to yourself but what is acceptable and honorable unto Me. For if you judge rightly you must choose and follow after My plans rather than your own desire. Yea, rather than anything that can be desired. I know your desire and I have heard your many groanings. Already you long to be in the glorious liberty of the Children of God—already in your eternal home which you delight in and the heavenly country full of joy. But the hour is not yet come. There still remains another season, even a season of warfare, a season of labor and probation. You desire to be filled with the Chief Good, but you cannot attain it immediately. I am that Good, wait for Me until the Kingdom of God shall come.

“You must still be tried upon earth and be exercised in many things. Consolation from time to time shall be given to you but abundant satisfying shall not be granted. Be strong, therefore, and be brave, both in working and in suffering things which are against your nature. You must put on the New Man and be changed into another man. You must often do what you do not want, and leave undone what you would want to do.

“What others desire to do shall have good success and what you desire to do shall have no prosperity. What others say shall be listened to; what you say shall not be received nor listened to. Others shall be great in the report of men, but about you, nothing shall be spoken. To others this or that shall be entrusted; you shall be judged useful for nothing.

“Because of this your nature shall sometimes be filled with sadness, and it is a great thing if you bear it silently. In this, and many like things, as the faithful servant of the Lord, you will be tried in how far you are able to deny yourself and bring yourself into subjection in all things. Scarcely is there anything that doesn’t need to be mortified in yourself especially as much as seeing things that are adverse to your will; especially when things are given to you to be done which seem to you foolish or of little use to you. And because you dare not resist a higher power, being under authority, therefore it seems very hard for you to yield yourself to another and to forgo your own opinion.

“But consider My child, the fruit of these labors, the swift end and the reward exceedingly great. You will begin to find no pain in bearing these things then, but rather a stronger resolve of your patience. When you forsake these small trifling desires you shall always then have your will in Heaven. There you will find, My child, all that you want and all that you long for. There you shall have all good within your power without fear of losing it. There, your will, will be ever one with Mine. You shall desire nothing outward, or nothing for yourself. There, no one shall resist you; no one shall complain of you, no one shall hinder you, nothing shall stand in your way. But all that you desire will be present together and your whole affection refreshed and filled up even to the brim.

“There, you will glory for the scorn suffered here, the garment of praise for sorrow and for the lowliest place, a throne in the Kingdom forever. There shall it appear, the fruit of your obedience. You will rejoice over the labor of your repentance and your humble submission will be crowned gloriously.

“So now, therefore bow yourself humbly under the hands of all men, nor let it trouble you who said this or who ordered that but take special heed that whether it is those over you, those under you, or your equal that require anything from you or even show a desire of needing you in any way, take it all in good stride and study with a good will to fulfill their desire. Let others seek this, another that; let another glory in this and another in that and be praised a thousand, thousand, times over, but you rejoice only in the contempt of yourself, and in Mine own good pleasure and glory. This is what you ought to long for, even if that is by life or death, that God may be ever magnified in you.”

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with love...to you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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