Hello, Brothers, Sisters, and Heartdwellers family. May we all truly accept our weakness and boast in it, that the Lord’s strength would be made perfect.
I have mentioned to you guys that our community went through a fiery trial, for sure, where we all got sick. It has been hard, and we are all recuperating but it really humbled us as many of us struggled with being so weak and incapable of doing basic things some days. We found ourselves wanting to get up and get busy again but that is not what the Lord was wanting. He has been allowing a slow healing process for us.
Through things said by others, I noticed we were beginning to despise our weakness and wanted to get better so quickly but the Lord wasn’t allowing it. If we moved too fast we would pay for it the next day. So we all began to realize—just take it slow and embrace this cross the Lord has given us and trust him to heal us in his own time.
This particular morning I woke up feeling utterly discouraged as many thoughts were bombarding me once again to cause me to have fear and walk in unbelief. I decided to pull some Rhema cards and the first said, “Distinguish good from bad spirits.” So I knew I was under attack in my mind. The second said, “Give grace time to work”, meaning don’t be in a rush, trust the Lord, He is working. And, the prayer of grace you have asked for others, is working. It just takes time.” The next said, “Offer today for all lukewarm souls; they caused me the most agony during my passion”. And last was, “Your great trust in Me forces me to continuously grant you graces.”
We were doing the Divine Mercy Novena and were on the last day when I looked it up that was the intention for the last day. So I began to realize that maybe the Lord took my consolation, feelings of zeal, passion, courage, and even faith and gave them to the lukewarm souls today, who needed them to be revived and enkindled with their love for God. I began to pray for the lukewarm souls fervently asking the Lord not to make them just a flame—but torchbearers who set others on fire.
After worship, I began to pray the Binding Prayer, but I was still feeling so flat. My heart was aching as I tried to hold back tears. I felt so discouraged but I told myself to preserver in prayer instead. I began to hear the Lord speaking to me cutting off my prayer. I thought I should continue praying and then listen for his voice after I get done. But I remembered something Father Ezekiel said to me; that prayer is a means to connect with God and when we connect with God many times, in our striving, we want to finish prayer and it’s like Jesus tapping us on the shoulder to talk to us and we turn around to him and say wait, Lord, I’m still praying. When you visualize it, it’s so silly but we do that all the time. So I decided to stop and write down what he was saying. I came before Jesus,
Hello, Lord. I’m here…
“How are you feeling?” He said.
I don’t know Lord but utterly discouraged like all hope and joy of the future just zapped from me this morning, like a cloud of sadness has come over my heart although I am trying to smile through it.
“Well, Beloved, it’s what you’re meditating on and who you’re receiving from. Lying spirits abound and many demons of discouragement want you to give up and stop your forward motion, (that is why the Rhema was given) and you are constantly being taunted by demons of unbelief. I know it’s been hard, My beloved, to walk by faith and not by sight when nothing seems to have come to fruition or resulted in anything. But remember, ‘Give grace time to work’. I am working and moving in your life, the lives of your loved ones, in your nation, and the life of this community.
“All is working according to My plan. Although the enemy of your soul would like for you to think differently because they really believe they have the upper hand in
all that is going on in the world. It is the darkest before the dawn, and dawn will—and is breaking through. Will you trust Me?”
Help me Lord, please help me to trust and believe your words.
“Well, your great trust in Me forces Me to continuously give you many graces. You are riding on My grace even now. You are being held together, fastened, and sustained by My grace. It will carry you through this threshold, and in all your trials. You will make it through each one.”
Thank you, Lord. Thank you for stopping me, Lord, in prayer, to talk with me.
“Well, I know you were hurting and persevering, through your pain, to continue on with prayers and duties. But I hate to see you this way, Beloved. I hate to see My joy stolen from you. And how I appreciate, so much, your efforts to be obedient and to preserver in your prayers when you are hurting. But I am your God-man, your Honey-God [He said that smiling], and I long to comfort you and talk with you always, to bring a smile upon your face.”
Of course, I started smiling because Jesus is so sweet and kind.
“I am not distant, but so present to you, Beloved Little One. I am here for you and would prefer you talk to Me about these things rather than just to move past how you are feeling because I feel your pain too. I am suffering with you, and how very good it is when we talk to one another. It brings Me great comfort and joy as well. When your heart is healed My heart is healed. Do you understand now?”
Yes, Lord, I do. I love you, Jesus. Thank you for being such a great friend and spouse. Wow, I can feel the ache in my gut going away—slowly but surely.
“You see there, My words bring life and healing. Thank you for listening, Beloved. I want to talk with My brides about grace. You are not the only one battling these emotions and feelings. It’s been hard for everyone. My brides, I am so pleased and proud of each of you. For some, many of you have battled with wanting to give up in the storm you find yourselves in, but I am in the boat with you and will quiet the storm at the appropriate time.
“Trust Me; My grace is sufficient for each of you in your weakness. I love to see My brides weak, vulnerable, incapable, and looking to Me for help because that is your true state. You are so very weak and the more you embrace your weakness the more I rush to you with My grace. It is true that My graces rush down to the lowliest places. The more weak and lowly you are the more My strength is made perfect.
“You see, weakness is what qualifies you for My grace. I want you to really understand that. So many despise their weakness. You are taught in this world to be strong, to have it all together, to know the right thing to do, to know the right thing to say, to have an attitude that is self-sufficient, self-reliant, and self- confident. The keyword in all of those things is “self”. In this world, you are taught to rely so much on yourself therefore you despise any weakness you see in yourself. Even in My church, it is rampant.
“You have ministers, pastors, shepherds, and servants who are hurting deeply, but in order not to come across as weak, they wear masks. They can’t be open with their flock because they will be seen as weak, and they cannot, for sure, expose their faults or struggles. Why? Because they must be strong leaders not to weaken the others. I tell you, My brides, what weakens a soul is when they carry the burden on their own—when they allow pain—hurt, to go undetected or unconfessed. It weakens them and grows like an infection in their soul. It is worse when they cover it all because they, then, will produce other souls who will fall by not sharing their weakness and putting on the facade that they are strong when in fact they are the weakest.
“My beloved little ones, I took on human weakness during My passion. I looked utterly pitiful in the eyes of everyone. Even My Mother couldn’t do much, in the midst of her silent tears and pain, but sigh in pity of what the Father had decided to do to Me, in Me and through Me. I fell not only once, but three different times at the weight of My cross—My utter human weakness and incapability to walk any longer.
“With one sigh of my heart, I could have had legions of Angels come to My rescue—the cross obliterated in pieces— the ground shaking—and the soldiers and crowd goers who were taunting Me—struck dead in a millisecond just with My sigh. That is the power and authority the Father gave Me. I could’ve risen up like the superhero of your day and completely brought My enemies to nothing—in strength and much power—but I didn’t. I was not to be God carrying the cross, but a mere man who laid down His divinity to the Father for the sake of your salvation.
“For the sake of grace, the grace of courage and perseverance that I knew souls desperately needed to overcome this world’s trials and suffering. I had to be weak, vulnerable, and pitiful before all men so that the Father’s strength would be perfected in Me, and it was perfected until the end. At my last words, ‘It is finished’, meaning every grace needed for mankind was perfected in Me, it was indeed finished. Now I knew that souls could endure, could preserver, could live as I lived, and could also make it, to finish the race as I did.
“I finished it so that you all may finish well. Your weakness is so very beautiful to Me, my brides. I know each of you and each of your weaknesses very well and I don’t turn in shame, but rather I run to comfort, carry, and strengthen you. So please don’t despise your weakness, don’t be discouraged by it nor hide it from others.
“I don’t want a bride who is all together, nor do I want the world to see that. I want a bride who is faithful amidst her mess, who is enduring amidst her many falls, who is utterly helpless but continuously relying on Me, who boasts in her weakness, and who humbly accepts who she is not and who she is by the grace of God. Each of you is a woven tapestry of My grace flying high above the worries and woes of life. Rely on My grace and call upon Me for more grace and I will carry you through.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
Wow! so beautiful and profound. I shared this with Mother Clare, and she had these words of wisdom to say which I thought I would also share with you guys.
Mother Clare states,
For those who are called by God, you are appointed; you don’t come equipped. He appoints you and then He equips you afterward. It’s Christ through you that people see, not you being a high hotshot. You come naked and broken in that role so that God can use you. But if you think you have to be somebody before you become somebody, you will get humbled, and God will expose who you are.
And that is all she had to say. Take it from someone who knows and has been broken so many times and God has used her, by his grace, at the age of 75, to run, build and grow a ministry that is touching so many. So family, embrace your weakness—rather cherish it—coming from someone who is so weak and truly incapable but yet God still uses all by His grace. God bless you, family, until the next message.