Hello, Brothers and Sisters and Heartdwellers family. May you all be blessed.
In my preparation for my departure, I have definitely been feeling the weight of responsibility again as there is so much to do. And then I pulled a Rhema that said,
“Abortion event with a Healing Room with kids. I saw a vision of an abortion event we did. The kids were the ones praying for people. All my nieces and sibling were running it.”
On the back of the card, it said;
“It’s time” Pray and Begin.
I thought wait, what Lord how? With all that we have to do, and I am leaving? I presumed this vision was in Texas because my family was a part of it, and I didn’t see how this could fit into my time of now leaving soon for Ghana. Needless to say, I was in a twist of anxiety and confusion wondering if the Holy Spirit had indeed pulled this card because it didn’t make sense. I then was dragging slowly fighting to get up after this fall and definitely didn’t want to be deceived again.
I had a couple of people discern and confirmed this was from the LORD and He didn’t want me to do it in Texas but in Taos, NM, and still have my family involved I thought, whaaa…? Lord, you’re full of surprises!
You would think I would be excited because in the world I was an event planner and did really big events. I kept worrying about who would help? how I could do this? Realizing what it takes to put an event like this together, I was struggling to trust, with all the other responsibilities I have, and even to trust hearing the LORD’s voice. This morning after prayer I couldn’t take my eyes off of Blessed Mother’s picture, and I felt her begin speaking to my heart in worship. I was in tears, overwhelmed with worry, insecurity, and fear in moving forward with this.
I said to her:
Good morning Mother. I feel like just collapsing in your arms. I am so full of insecurity, of doubt, and lack much confidence in what the Lord is asking me to do. I envisioned her before me sitting down with both hands together extend to me and I collapsed my face in tears in her motherly hands and held them.
Our Mother of Mercy responded,
“And you lack confidence in him too.”
Yes, Mother, it’s the truth but I hate to say it. I don’t know how to get out of this place, Mother. Please help me. I believe but help my unbelief.
Our Mother of Mercy continued,
“My beloved little daughter, come, all will be well. Trust Me and trust My Son. He has planned to work all things out for your good. I know you and some of your children are hurting because of this fall and finding themselves hard to stand on solid ground. When you stand on My Son, standing on His nature, His character, His heart, which you all know by the way, how could you doubt? How could you even question? He is so kind, so gentle and good—very good. He too was hurt by allowing this fall.
“My beloved little children, do you not know [that] when you suffer My Son suffers? When He must correct you it pains him deeply, but it pains Him that He must correct because He knows the pain you will go under, and He goes under with you. But in all these things, it’s to bring you to His expected end for you. So, trust Him my little ones, trust Him.”
As an aside, I mentioned to you my failure in discernment. It was concerning something happening to Derrick in Iran and not properly discerning my brother’s dream. So, I still feel that the Lord has a breaking for him, but I was so adamant that it would be in Iran. And the truth is I had a motive of pride, of wanting to be right and wanting to show him that what I tell him is from the Lord. So, Jesus humbled me. Needless to say, I have spoken to some of the intercessors, and they too felt the sting of my suffering.
Our Mother of Mercy continued,
“Many graces have been given to each of you—to you, my daughter, and this beautiful flock, your children you have. Yes, many graces have been dispensed and any labor undertaken for the love of Jesus and souls comes with immense grace for you to fulfill that task. Do not worry about the results or the success of anything, leave that to Jesus and you, do whatever it is He asks of you. My beloved little ones, this is a new season. Many of the Lord’s brides are so weary, but you will see his hand move on your lives and all that He is asking of you. Many of you are being raised up in this hour with new responsibilities and new gifts. We need you to correspond with what is asked of you and the graces that I have obtained for you to fulfill the work set before you. Remember, being faithful in the little things has prepared you to be given much, much, more. So please, don’t cower in fear, insecurity, or doubt. Better yet, be comfortable in the same place and in the same thing you have been doing for so long. Your faith is being stretched and strengthened whether you realize it or not, My beloved ones. You have given him your, ‘Yes’. Now trust him to do it through you and take my hand as I walk alongside you, helping you to touch the hem of his garment each day, as we lead you into new territory. Believe and trust, I am with you. We’re doing this together.”
That was the end of Our mother of Mercy message.
After receiving this message, I began to contemplate the stretching of our faith. I know I shared with you the example Father Ezekiel gave about pressure being put on muscle in order to cause it to relax so I understand the Lord has to put us in pressure situations. However, I was still struggling [with] how this stretches our faith because I am fighting insecurity and fighting to trust the Lord again the feelings are overwhelming. As I kept saying Lord, I just need to see you move in something because when something we have been praying for or a prophetic word given happens that increases our faith.
Then I believe I was given enlightened by the Holy Spirit who made me to understand that if everything we prayed for happened right away, yes it would increase our faith, but it wouldn’t be strong faith at all. Our faith would so easily fail if the Lord stopped answering right away. We would easily fall away from Him. In these last days and the things that are about to be upon us, it says many faiths will fail…because many of people in the church don’t know how to suffer long, how to endure long, how to preserver in tribulation and still persist in prayer (that is from Romans 12:12). That is true faith—when your hope is stretched, and you must endure and persevere, your faith grows. So, finally, when breakthrough comes, when a prayer is answered, your faith grows tremendously and you are yet able to endure another long trial of faith because you know despite your suffering, delays, and waiting for a promise, He was faithful last time. So, when everyone else gives up on Jesus, turns their backs on him, and no longer has faith because he is taking too long, we will be like Daniel, who waited 70 years in captivity believing the Lord would deliver his people and never bowed down to the gods of the land and because of that he was spared, and God was faithful.
Wow, so that is how our faith guys, is being stretched personally and for our nation. We must all trust and believe, Mama will help us.
God bless you until the next message.