Journal Entry: Just Listen

October 24, 2021

Journal Entry
by Sister Therese
from September 7, 2021

Hello, brothers and sisters. May you all be blessed.

I wrote this a while ago, around that time after I started try to journal here on the Mountain. One day I came to the Lord straight on point. So, let’s go straight on point too.

Dear Lord, I want to come by thanking you firstly of the help, blessings and love you pour out on us, on a daily basis, and for being so forgiving at each fall, no matter how small it might be. You know how I make a big deal out of my littlest judgment and fault.” (I tend to get scrupulous and go to the very end over a tiny mistake, or repetitive mistakes, I make). “I come to journal, not really knowing what you will say, but I come out of obedience to Mother Elisha’s word you gave. So, here I am. What is on your heart, Jesus?”

“YOU are on My heart, Beloved! And I love you so! You think now how I often seem to bring this up to you, repeating Myself.”

I was a bit incredulous it was Jesus speaking because this of Him loving me seems to be repeated a lot indeed, making me think if it’s my mind.

“…But you know; you need it! You need to hear and accept it. You deny and reject yourself too much.”

Am I blocked, or something?

He went to say, “I have made you beautifully in My own image, with My own traits and characteristics, a beautiful masterpiece at its conception. So, you see, even in your broken state as of now, you are still adorned with My love and traits. You fear My loving gaze because of the scars inflicted on you; either your constant trying to please Me but find out you can’t do it as you so longed (on your own); or either the trails, and sufferings you went through as a child.

He said gently, “I knew you and what you would do before you even stepped on this Earth. There is really no need to feel ashamed, scared and fretful with Me. I do truly understand your substance. So, please, allow Me to come deeper into your being and bring you the so needed and desired healing, and the joy and consolation of My divinity overpowering you.”

I thought then of how exactly to do this, really?

And He said, “The way you would do that is just by being yourself with Me. Don’t fear Me to the point of being terrorized in My presence over the littlest fault you just perceived. I’m not there to slap you in the face, I am there to be a merciful husband, partner and friend, and God, who wants to make you whole, pick you up, dust you off and try again and again and again with your eyes on Me and My heart for you.

“Try to switch your focus on Me and My mercy every time you find yourself with a fault. Look to Me and see My GAZE OF LOVE OVER YOU, having compassion on you. I bless you—I see you—I know you try and did try before—but count on Me to accomplish and restore all things broken and crushed. Be with Me in this.”

Then I kind of went, saying:
You know, Jesus, I don’t really know how to live this walk with you. I just DO try too much on my own effort, and…. I fear disappointing you, or hurting you with my sins, which I know I somehow offend you. …I’m sorry.

“I embrace you even in your misery, child. You do not realize the extent of My affection for you. I am FOR YOU when you are so much against yourself.”

I thought, “Hmm, seems I need to just release and let go of the ideas of how I should be and behave in your presence (like, exaggeratedly). I have a lot of learning to do about You, Lord.

“Yes, you do. [He chuckles] I truly do love you.” [He points his finger toward me in a funny gesture, adding,] “Don’t doubt Me.” 

Aha ha…. Okay. I’ll try.

“Thank you! Go now My child, Daddy is with you.”

Amen. Thank you, Lord. 

[Right after ending this, I saw the clock read 1:11 PM. Daddy God’s nudge].

Still feeling a soft tug as if wanting to hear more of what he wants to say, seems He and I just continued to chat a bit. I picked up on these words then after, “Come to Me like this often.” Meaning, willing to listen more. “It’s such a comfort to finally have you here willingly to just type down and listen, really.  It brings Me much delight. Truly and truly, I say to you; Fountains of mercy and delight pour out to those who would just sit and listen.” 

I then remembered Mary, the sister of Martha, who would just sit at His feet and just listen to Him. 

“Yes, like that. With big wide eyes of a child in wonder at each word spoken.” Jesus freely and cheerfully mimics the ‘wide’ with his arms. 

That’s sweet!

“Indeed, it is. That’s heavenly honey for Me. [He smiles widely and cheered up]. Blessings pour out of My heart for you—just please do receive them. I will help you cooperate with Me. [Then he went to add confidently and smiling] You know I am able to do it.” 

I remembered all those events where he did show himself able to help me cooperate with his moves of the Spirit. But while he was saying that I thought in a few next seconds; “You have blessed me so much by far, you STILL want to bless me more?” I laughed inwardly.

He affirmed with cheer, “Yeah, much more!” 

Remain with the Lord, dear ones. 
Much more is in store for you.

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My Name Is Mary Elisha I started this blog 6 years ago on my journey walking with Jesus and never knew all that he had in store for me. It has been a journey of tears, trust and confidence in him. Knowing that He is my loving spouse and he wouldn't lead me astray however he has given many suprises along the way! lol Upon fully surrendering my life to Jesus, he has completely turn my world right side up. Filled me with his spirit and showed himself in supernatural ways. He has completely left me in awe leaving me with the thought.....(as most Holy Spirit filled followers of Christ also say) why didn't I surrender 15 years ago! lol. When I started this blog I was a 30 years old zealous for the Lord and desiring to make his love known because it tranformed my life. However, I didn't know the way and the road in which he would take me. It is the way of the cross, the way of holiness and the way of love. Living a life seperated from the world and compltely concecrated to him. I no longer belong to myself, but to him as he has led me to a life of hiddeness and deep intimacy I didn't know was so avalialble for all who would make their lives, their hearts his home. He has given me a new name, a renewed purpose and a heavenly family who is so very present and so real to me. Saints who cheer me on, give me council and pray for me everyday to ensure I do the Lords will and the greatest gift of all He has led me to his Mother! Who has always been My Mother just never knew it. I love Mother Mary, she is my heart, my friend and confidant and continues to prepare me to a worthy bride to her son, Jesus. It is she, who has handpicked me for this mission and to run the community "City of God: Sacred Heart Refuge" in Ghana, West Africa. This is her mission and her ministry as a gift to Jesus and I just get to be her handmaiden. Heartdwellers Ghana is an extention of Heartdwellers ministry by Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel from Still Small Voice Channel. Jesus has taught us about divine intimacy with him. As we dwell in his heart, He and the Father come to make their home within us. (John Where Jesus is all of heaven is as well because the kingom of God is within. So here may you come to get fresh manna from Jesus and any ther saints who may want to give us council, encouragment and exhortation that we may finish this race of faith and run to win the prize. To be a bride spotless, blameless adorened with purity, carying the fire of charity and zeal for our fathers glory. That we maybe ready for him when He comes back for us. Our Lord, Jesus Christ is amazing the intimate you become with him the more in awe he leaves you. I hope this blog draws you nearer to our Lord and you began to open the ears and the eyes of your heart to all that he has to say to you and show you. All of these messages are from Jesus with you. May you be blessed by his words of life. God bless you!

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