Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family. May you all be blessed
I got the Rhema yesterday “This third I will put into the fire; I will refine them like silver and test them like gold”. My heart sank, every time I get that it means a fairy trial is coming my way, and in my trials the fire is really hot. I got this Rhema in June and you guys saw the fruit of my trials concerning Derrick and how I was going through emotional torment, and we also lost one of our dear intercessors who was like a brother to me.
I have been praying and waiting for breakthrough, hoping it was right around the corner. So I became despondent when I got this Rhema, thinking, Lord, I am so tired I am not sure I can do another fiery trial please when will things change. I didn’t know if it was about Derrick, the community or ministry. Then I got a reading from Imitation of Mary and the chapter was “Preparation for Death”. I thought, Oh boy—I knew whatever this trial was I was going to die to myself yet again. When I sought the Lord using the Bible Promises it seemed he confirmed it was about the channel. And Father Ezekiel had told us, the Lord, told him, that a sifting was coming upon each of us personally and individually. So I asked our little family to pray covering one another, the ministry, and the channel. Then this morning in prayer I felt the Lord was telling me it was about Derrick, and it priced my heart as the enemy suggested every possible thing that could happen. What’s interesting, guys, is that I got the same Rhema literally a year ago, the same time if you all can remember. That is when I found out I had failed in discernment. Derrick wasn’t coming to the mountain as I had thought, and that I would have to stay in the community for another year. So you can imagine I was thinking all sorts of thoughts of the worst possible thing the Lord would allow.
When I pulled Rhemas that morning it confirmed it was about Derrick, and I was so undone because it’s been so hard already. However, during our community worship service we pulled Rhemas again and one of my cards said, “You can either be pitiful or powerful, you can’t be both”. I thought, Really Lord, I want to wallow in my self-pity. I’m tired of being strong [laugh]. I was still struggling, guys.
During our time of worship Mother Clare prays and clicks shuffle trusting Holy Spirit to pick the songs and the first song he picked was a message, called “Victory over Trials, Temptations & Spiritual Muscles”. And wow! That message was on point. It touched on what I was struggling with interiorly, and this trial that is before me. I then realized I am most likely not the only going through another trail and this sifting is for all of us. During our Rosary prayer earlier in the week, Mother Elizabeth said she saw Blessed Mother give each of us a white rose, and Mother Clare immediately felt it was “white martyrdom”, which is a life that is dead to self, a life of continuous self-sacrifice, self-denial, and selflessness until the last drop. It’s a bloodless martyrdom, as the saints say, but it is full of much tears and much suffering. In the message Jesus also touches on having victory in our trials and self-will again. He then played another message following this one which touched on self-will, as well. We don’t take anything as coincidence around here and I felt in my heart the Lord wanted me to play both of those messages on the channel following up with the message that was just posted yesterday. So may you all receive courage and strength for the trials ahead and grace to submit to the Lord and not your self-will.
Victory Over Trials, Temptations & Spiritual Muscle
Rhema from January 3, 2016
The blessing of the Holy Spirit and our precious Jesus be with us all, Heartdwellers.
Lord, I pray that you would encourage and strengthen every soul who hears this message. Oh, Jesus, You are faithful, and never will you give us more than we can handle with Your living presence inside of us.
As you are well aware, dear Heart Dwellers,…whenever Holy Spirit reveals a hole in the Binding Prayer, I am quick to make revisions. And there is one thing I have wanted to bring to your attention because the Lord continues to stress it every time I use the Binding Prayer.
So, I’m going to share that with you today.
Just as an animal that has been isolated from every bacterium never acquires a strong immune system, so it is with us. If the Lord were to remove all our trials and attacks of the evil ones, we would become spiritual marshmallows and couch-potatoes.
But praise be to God, He is continually exercising us in warfare and making us strong against all adversaries.
As I was speaking these words, I had a vision of a soldier, a big Roman soldier with muscles bulging out of his arms and his legs. Not only was he skilled with the sword, but he was very strong, very powerful. And this is what I believe the Lord is doing when He allows these trials.
One of the things I’d like to mention here, is that when you are under attack – the demons are just having a hey-day with you, you can offer all the sufferings of that attack and those inconveniences for the salvation of the soul who is on the brink of hell, who is just about ready to fall into the Abyss. And by doing that, you’ll greatly frustrate them (the demons), because they’ll reason, “Well, the more I torment her, the more she offers up to God for the salvation of that soul. And the less I torment her, the more trouble I get into ’cause I’m not doing my job.” So, it really does throw them into confusion.
I’ve often wondered why He put us in Taos, but it is well known among the occult community that the mountains of Taos are second only to the Himalayas for making spiritual sacrifices to the principalities and powers of the air. It soon became obvious to me that if that under the Lord’s direction, we could survive and thrive here, we could survive and thrive anywhere.
Carol and I and others of you continue to be tested and tried beyond our current limits. It seems like there is no end to the sorrows and pains we suffer in this life, although for most of us it is nothing like those in refugee camps running from merciless regimes.
But still, as first world countries we are suffering our own woes and trials.
With each passing day we have a choice to make, complain or come to God for more strength to endure. And believe me, I’m not for one minute saying I don’t complain!
Give us aid against the enemy, for human help is worthless. With God we will gain the victory, and he will trample down our enemies. – Psalm 108:12-13
I am the worst coward among you all, so, be at ease! I’m really the worst coward of all of you. So, I know firsthand all about complaining and fear of pain. Yet each day He gives me the grace to live through and offer to Him one more painful failure in my body, or the loss of another animal dear to our hearts. Just two days ago, we had to say goodbye to our Abbey about 14 years old, who chased a mule and got kicked in the head. We nursed and doctored her for almost a year, and yet her injuries would heal and come back until it was obvious that she had served her tour of duty down here on Earth and she deserved her reward. Saying goodbye is so hard.
But someday we will be able to say, “O Death, where is your victory? O death, where is your sting?” 1 Corinthians 15:55. Interesting note on that: 555 – 5 denotes the wounds of Christ and His suffering. Whenever I see 555 on a clock I figure, ‘Oh, Boy…we’re in for it now…’ Kind of a warning, so to speak.
Anyway, we look forward to the greeting committee when we finally are taken up and out of here ’cause all of our pets are going to be there.
What exactly is the Lord doing? I have learned from two decades of experience that the blood of the martyrs truly is the seed of the church, both in an obvious way like the beheadings in Syria and in a less obvious way, the death of a dear pet, and even prolonged illness that will not yield to prayer. (By the way, that expression: “the blood of the martyrs truly is the seed of the church” came from Tertullian in the 2nd Century, he was a church father.)
I have recognized these things happening in each of these events, a fast offering of what is dear to us for the spreading of the Kingdom of God, a strengthening in endurance, and resolve to accept whatever the Lord allows in our lives, learning detachment…that in the final analysis the only thing we cannot live without is Him…and finally the Lord does allow some things as part of a discipline necessary to our sanctification.
By the way, I have been nudged more than three times to tell you about the book Abandonment to Divine Providence written by Jean Pierre de Caussade, it gives us a profound look into the thinking and workings of God during trials. It is a spiritual classic much like The Imitation of Christ. And it has helped me like no other book to accept with docility the ways of God in my life and to abandon the purse of my own opinion, leaning on the Lord’s wisdom over my shallow human reasoning. Very good book.
But getting back to discipline as one of the elements in trials, “The Lord disciplines whom He loves, and He scourges every son whom He receives.” Hebrews 12:6. Paul certainly knew all about those scourges and permitted sufferings. He suffered SO much.
So, my point here is that while I would love to write a prayer to cover every eventuality, every demon, every situation, it simply is not possible. Were we to stop having attacks we would become even greater spiritual weaklings. So, while we can pray against them, eventually we must accept Divine Providence when the Lord permits them in spite of our vigilance and prayers. He is building spiritual muscle, guys. Detachment from earthly pleasures, including the approval of loved ones, and physical sufferings, thorns in our flesh.
And going one step further…many Heart Dwellers on our channel have complained that no matter how hard they try, they can’t rid themselves of smoking, or giving in to sexual temptation, or avarice, or any other fault that plagues us, much like a thorn in the flesh.
And here Paul explains to us by way of his example, exactly what is going on:
“Because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, for this reason, to keep me from exalting myself, there was given me a thorn in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to torment me – to keep me from exalting myself!”
Wow! What an insight!
” …Concerning this I implored the Lord three times that it might leave me. And He has said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.” Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me. 2 Corinthians 12:7-9
So, Paul boasts about the power of God working through Him, but the main reason was to keep him humble. Every time I fail to fight off some kind of temptation, remorse follows on its heels and I am again humbled. So, if the Lord is not giving you the power to overcome your temptations, look to pride…look to judging others, look to lack of compassion and mercy. That’s where I find my weaknesses and then I understand well, the Lord is humbling me. As soon as I get over myself…the temptations cease. Isn’t that amazing??
So, Lord do you have something to add?
He began, “Through and during all of these temptations My Dear Ones, I am there, holding your hand, advising you, right there standing beside you until you choose to sin… then I must painfully turn my gaze away. Oh, how grievous sin is to Me. And yet though I allow you to stumble and fall and withhold from You the sustaining grace to overcome yourself, if it were not absolutely necessary for your higher good in the end, I would not permit it.
“The solution is always for you to rush to Me, fall on your knees and beg for the graces to overcome trials and keep from offending Me. When your motive becomes ‘not to offend Me’ you are on the highway of holiness. The only other remaining thing left for you to do is humble yourself below all others, see their virtues compared to your failures and know beyond a shadow of a doubt that you are the littlest, weakest and most easily compromised soul you have ever met. Staying in this station keeps you very close to rock bottom, totally dependent on ME…and you are far less likely to sin.
“Always beware of the times of victory or completion of a task. This is when you are most vulnerable and likely to let down your guard. Your enemy waits for these times and coaxes you to take your ‘virtue’ for granted…secretly thinking you are above falling like others. That is the most dangerous time of your life so far. When you have conquered steep mountains, over and over again, Satan lies in wait for that next mountain when you will relax your guard and soar on your laurels.
“These are the times when humility has been abandoned and they are also times when it is needed the most. Always rekindle your awareness that you are positively zero in virtue without My grace. Leaning on Me in this way will sustain you when those lying in wait finally pounce with a HUGE temptation and reams of excuses as to why you should do it. And if you should be fortunate enough to have many, many victories due to My Grace, the enemy will invariably lead you into a trap with great delicacy and forethought. At that point if you have not been on guard, it is almost too late. Always, look way ahead at the potential consequences before you step forward.
“Not only is the adversary a roaring lion lying in wait, he is also a clever hunter, knowing just where to set the snares and exactly what kind of bait to use. He also watches for a string of events that make you more than usually vulnerable to his suggestions. During times of loss and trial you become weakened and seeking consolation. This, too, is a time of great vulnerability. Although at those times you are still safer than after a major victory, because then you are feeling defeated. When you are feeling defeated, you are on guard.
“I have given you these instructions, My Ravishing Bride, because you are so close to the time of your nuptials, and I want you to maintain your integrity to that final moment. Know that your greatest enemy is your self will and your greatest protection is humility, which always leans towards obedience.
“Now that you know these things, happy will you be if you do them. My Love is forever with you, dear ones.”