Hello, brothers, and sisters, and Heartdwellers Family. May you all be blessed.
Since the message about marriage and Derrick, my mind and heart have been all over the place. Ladies, I think you can understand. It’s one thing for the Lord to bring him here and another thing to think a wedding could take place. What’s funny is, after getting this message, when I was discerning the first reading in Bible Promises I that got was on “Honesty,” not lying to each other as Christians. I thought maybe this message wasn’t from the Lord, but all of the other readings confirmed it was. Then I realized that the Lord wanted me to be honest with what I have been thinking and what has happened in the past couple of days since you guys have been praying because I was debating whether I needed to share that on the channel or not.
So initially, when the Lord made it known to me that Derrick would be coming to the mountain, it was very surprising news to me. Then he began to bring up visions that I had buried long ago with him (Derrick) not only being on the mountain but of a wedding on the mountain. In conjunction with that, I had a vision two years ago, here on the mountain, of me marrying my sister as I officiated the wedding, and Derrick was in the front row. As I made it known to everyone, although I am a consecrated sister, I was married and introduced him as my husband.
Now my sister is getting married this August and all the thoughts have come into my mind, thinking, “Lord is it possible to make all this happen before August?” It all seems so surreal and such a short time frame. I have been mulling over whether to let go of this promise and not put God in a time frame because, you all know I have done that before and have been disappointed. And a part of me wants to get excited thinking, “No, Lord could this be what I’ve dreamed of for so long? You can do the impossible.”
Then during our Novena prayers to St. Joseph, the Lord began to really move Derrick’s heart and he actually began to consider, maybe coming. (Thank you, St. Joseph!!) We have been estranged for two years and have talked here and there. The Lord had me share the message with him which really moved him, but he has had a huge cloud looming over him for months that I didn’t know about. He had incurred debt from a bad business deal and a bad business partner who left him. In my pride I thought for sure the Lord was using this to break him and if I helped him, I would be an obstacle in the way of what the Lord wanted to do in him.
Boy was I was wrong; the Lord then spoke to me that he wanted me to pay off his debt fully, for him. And He said this wasn’t about me, but I was just an instrument he wanted to use to bring his Prodigal son home. I thought “Whaaat, really Lord?” I didn’t trust myself with this word so I went to Mother Clare to tell her what the Lord said, and she discerned that was his will. As thoughts of suspicion clouded my mind for a moment thinking, “How could this help him, Lord? Wouldn’t this draw him back to the world, etc., etc.?” Then the Lord humbled me further as he gave me a rhema about it when we gathered Sunday. So I had to share with everyone what I was going to keep privately to myself, of what the Lord had requested of me.
The rhema said:
“Our reason is suspicious and critical. Trust in what I am doing. Let God act and do all He wishes according to our state in life. Nothing ….is easier, yet so wonderful and dark is this road, that we need great faith to walk along it.”
Then the following rhema I pulled confirmed it even more and it said:
“When in Childlike simplicity you have just consulted your superiors, live, rest assured and in peace.”
I thought, “Wow Lord!” So I had to tell the community of the Lord’s request and of my hesitation.
If I can be honest, after that. I kept thinking, “This is a huge donation from Heartdwellers Ghana that I am giving away. What would my donors think? Would we have enough to meet our needs since the time for our departure is soon approaching?” Simply…, I wasn’t trusting the Lord. As Mother Clare told me, Derrick is a very vital part of this mission, and the Lord could drop a huge donation in one day. I shouldn’t worry.
Then the for the next couple of days I continued to get the same gospel readings for my Lord’s supper, “The Multiplication of the five loaves and two fishes” …. for two days in a row. I decided to use a different missal because I thought there might be a groove in my book. When I opened it today using a different book guess what I got, “The multiplication of five loaves and two fishes”. My roommate, Mother Elizabeth, got the same rhema two days in a row, “Jesus branched out about spreading your tent pegs and expanding.” I kept wondering, “Lord, what are you trying to tell us?” When I got it again today, I began to hear Jesus speak to me after receiving him.
I came before him as I said, “Good morning my love. It has been so hard to focus as my mind goes off into daydreams and thoughts of what if’s. Jesus, I am so sorry for the many distractions in my heart and mind, and I’m also falling asleep in prayer. My goodness, I am so sorry. I hate to have these thoughts on my mind and almost wishing and wanting they would just go away, but at the same time I am bubbling over with excitement and possibilities which I feel can be a snare for me Lord because it takes my mind off the present moment and I just daydream.
“Please help me, Lord, I have missed you and long for you dearly. Thank you for everything, Lord, and all that you’re doing. Jesus, what is on your heart?”
“Why do you hate it? I did ask you to dream with Me, didn’t I? You are not dreaming big enough.”
I said, “What, really Lord? Oh boy.”
(Smiling) “I have heard your anxiety, your thoughts, excitements, and doubts, all in the same line of reasoning beloved, but just like that reading I gave you this morning…”
As an aside here, He is talking about the commentary in the missal I got when I was doing the Lord’s Supper. It said, “Rather than being too inquisitive about details, we should hope for a happy future with the spontaneous and simple excitement of a child who sees the packages around the Christmas tree but must wait…” “The eyes of all look hopefully to you, O God…you open your hand and satisfy the desire of every livening thing.”
“Leave the details to Me; better yet, My Mother. She is very good at details and has everything worked out. You will be in awe at what she has planned and how this will unfold. I do want you in the present moment, here and now, but expectant for what is just around the corner. When your thoughts seem to veer way off, Beloved, just gently call upon My name, as you have been doing, and you will find your peace again. More importantly, you will not become anxious, but there is a summer wedding coming. Rest in that for now and don’t concern yourself any longer with how, when, and if things will come together as I have shown you.
Remember, I show you things in part to keep your hope alive and restore your faith, but the way I go about things to accomplish what I have shown you, is always quite different than what you think. So you can breathe now; believe, rest, and don’t doubt or fear anymore that you are being deceived or you will be disappointed again. I guarantee you will not be disappointed in the least. Increase will overtake you and all of my brides.
My beloved brides, many of you have fought the ‘good fight of faith’ in the arduous journey for your nation, for your family, and for love of Me. You have given Me your five loaves and two fishes, simply all that you had. Even the many of you who had nothing, you gave me your nothing and continued to cling to the hem of my garment while carrying your cross faithfully. Although stumbling many times you never gave up. And increase, multiplication will overtake you all. I am about to increase and bless my brides for I am faithful. And did I not say that a harvest was upon you? Where you have sown in tears you will reap with songs of joy, with bags of sheaves that you will not only be unable to carry but unable to contain, for it will be spilling over. With fragments left over for you to share with others and be blessing.
That is the gift of multiplication; when I multiply it is never just for you, but so you can feed all those around you. And when they receive your blessing, they too, are blessed and take what they have been given and give some to others as well. So this gift of multiplication keeps on giving and giving and giving, blessing so many. What will this increase look like? It will be an abundance of provision for all you need to advance my kingdom. Doors opening for you that no man can shut. The graces you have been praying for to launch you in your ministries, and to help you overcome the same obstacles that have hindered you for so long. The help you have been crying out to Me for is on the way. Expansion of new territory and new inroads in your gifts and your calling. The birthing of many more children who will come into my kingdom out of your obedience and some even in your own family, as the time is ripe for them to now respond to the grace of conversion and salvation.
They will come on board to be a source of help and support to you, my brides. While the world and your nation may be shaken with events that will bring many in despair, my faithful ones will shine brightly in the light of my peace, prosperity, and joy to be a testimony to others that I am their Shepherd, I am Faithful, and I am Good. Be expectant, be excited, and be at peace with what I am doing right now in your lives. Why do I keep repeating myself? Too many of you are stuck in the mire of life, still walking in discouragement, hopelessness and much unbelief. And how that pierces my heart deeply in pain to have a chosen soul who mistrusts in my goodness.
Why are you leaning so much on your feelings, my little ones, and on what they said rather than what I have spoken? Praise and thanksgiving is your weapon of choice in this season, my beloved brides. I will leave you in awe, standing amazed at what I do in your life and the promises and longings of your heart finally fulfilled. Can you not trust me and praise me even now, letting the enemy know you are walking by faith, living by faith and not by sight? And do not engage his taunting any longer.
Every one of you is being tested as I did Philip when I saw the crowd of 5,000 men who were in need, hungry. Knowing that we had nothing in plain sight to give them, I asked him to feed them. What was his response?”
John 6:2-7, A huge crowd kept following him wherever he went because they saw his miraculous signs as he healed the sick. Then Jesus climbed a hill and sat down with his disciples around him. (It was nearly time for the Jewish Passover celebration.) Jesus soon saw a huge crowd of people coming to look for him. Turning to Philip, he asked, “Where can we buy bread to feed all these people?” He was testing Philip, for he already knew what he was going to do. Philip replied, “Even if we worked for months, we wouldn’t have enough money to feed them!”
“So now I hear your cries, I see your need, your weariness and I also see what the enemy is doing as you look at your situation that seems impossible, but I still ask you, will you thank me, praise me anyway and believe me in what I am asking you to do? What will be your response? ‘But Lord nothing has changed for so long…. I can’t do that…. I’m tired…. my family wouldn’t agree…. I am just not equipped to do something like that…. no one is supporting me…. this is impossible, Lord’…. and the rebuttals go on and on and on. Or will you simply respond and say, ‘Lord if you are asking me to believe for it, I will believe and move’ …. trusting it’s my job to feed the 5,000 and it’s your job to simply respond and give me your five loaves and two fishes and watch Me Multiply what you have. Trusting the Father to supply all your needs according to His riches and glory. Increase is indeed upon you all. I bless you now with the grace to have faith, to believe, and to be in a posture of joyful praise and thanksgiving for what is already done.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.