Hello, Brothers and Sisters and Heartdwellers Family, may you all be blessed.
During worship, some things were heavy on my mind and then many thoughts began to flood my heart. I realized it could be Jesus speaking to me, so I stopped and began to write,
Good morning my beloved Lord,
I’m nervous Lord and hoping I am hearing from you and not a lying spirit. Forgive, me Lord. I never intended to share this part of my life so soon and the things you have said about Derrick are amazing and puffed up. So I just want to make sure this is you and not my mind or a lying spirit. Forgive me, again Lord. Jesus, what’s on your heart?
“Why do you fear so much, my beloved one? What I have spoken is the truth and because of your trust in Me, you will never be put to shame. You have believed everything I foretold, and you will come to see all that I promised come to pass, but not without a fight.”
Okay, family, I can’t believe the Lord gave me this message to share with you guys. This is definitely a vulnerable place in my heart that he is now asking me to share again with you, more fully. I should have known that was a setup a few messages ago when he told me to share how I was engaged to be married before coming to the mountain. But I realize all of this, again, is not about me but that others may come to see His faithfulness. Also trust when he gives you an Abraham test, not only does he make provision for your sacrifice, but he does give that offering back to you, even better than it was.
Well here it goes… When I really gave my life to the Lord completely in 2015, I made a vow of Chasity. I honestly had a deep desire for marriage, but I was so scared because of what happened with my parents and also because of what happened in past relationships. I was really happy with me and Jesus and thought I was called to singleness until he surprised me in 2016 that he had the gift of marriage awaiting me. I was scared and excited all at the same time. The Lord brought my fiancé Derrick to me at the end of 2017 and the way it happened was amazing within itself and that video will be for a later time. When the Lord made it clear he was His choice for me, within a month I accepted his proposal. And my whole family, friends were buzzing with excitement as we were preparing for the wedding. I was getting emails about wedding dress ideas, colors you know all the stuff that comes with planning a wedding. But the Lord stopped me in my tracks. I remember that day, I was looking through Instagram at some dresses my cousin sent me, and I heard Holy Spirit so clearly say, “Do you want a beautiful wedding or a beautiful marriage?” I literally dropped my phone right then and there and told him we had to put a hold on everything. I had to lay marriage at the altar until God said it was time. I had watched amazing testimonies of people who waited on God, and when they found their husbands, they got married quickly and everything fell into place so perfectly because it was God’s will. What more do you need to prepare for, right?
I had no idea the immense attack that would come against this union. It would literally take your breath away. It took mine, and my tears, my time, my prayers. I kept thinking, “Lord, if this is your will and I was faithful to wait on you, it shouldn’t be this hard.” But our relationship has been, by far, the most painful, difficult, gift the Lord has given me. How could I not drink the cup the Father willed for me? There were many times when I wanted to give up, but I loved God’s will more than life itself which, in turn, made me love Derrick all the more and endure whatever trial we faced because I knew these attacks were spiritual warfare I was not fighting with flesh and blood.
Just a little background about our families, we are both Ghanaian and come from very prominent families. However, we are steeped in witchcraft because of tradition. Both of my grandparents in my family are royalty, tribal kings, and queens. With the throne come sacrifices, blood sacrifices that were made long ago. I soon found out when I began to walk with the Lord, that one of my great grandparents had sacrificed the female marriages in our family, at the altar. Demonic altar, that is, in exchange for power. We were gifted with beauty but wouldn’t get married. So you see, my grandmother and her sisters on my mom’s side were beautiful. None of them got married. Then the next generations, my mother’s generation, were also very beautiful. They had breakthrough; they all got married but all of their husbands left them after 15 + years for younger women. Only one of my aunts endured and carried the cross of a troubled marriage. Then in our generation, there are about fifteen girls, all beautiful. But as of 2016, no one had gotten married. Then finally, two of my cousins got married. At one of the weddings is where I met Derrick. I am the oldest of 6 girls and none of us had been married yet. So, I was the first one and it was such a big deal because we had been praying. When I told Derrick we had to put things on hold he was actually okay with that because we both felt the pressures. But after a year of waiting on the Lord, he was ready to get married. However, Jesus kept telling me to wait. Then 2019, in our second year of courtship, I began to get restless and was finally ready for the Lord to tell us it’s time. But He told me it’s time….to live a life of solitude and prayer. He called me to the mountain and Derrick could not withstand the intense opposition that came against me. So he, too, broke off our engagement. I cried so much that day as Jesus told me not to worry, and he said, “Allow me to write your love story”. I then had to lay this marriage at the altar again trusting God, that he would restore us because I knew he wouldn’t bring us this far to leave us.
When I got on the mountain there were many temptations to give my heart to another as one of the brothers here thought that I was his wife. At some point, even Mother and Father agreed and began to really push the idea of me letting go of Derrick and marrying someone else. Oh guys it was such a struggle because this brother is a great guy. But I knew what God had said to me, so I stood firm in faith instead. However, there were many more times I kept asking “God, why him? Why can’t I marry someone else? What makes him so special? I’m tired of waiting. Aint nobody got time for this. The Lord would tell me so many times, “Thank Me for him” as I would think, “But why? It’s been nothing but pain, Lord”. I know guys my pride is ridiculous. Please pray for me and Jesus.
When summer 2020 came around I was sure the Lord would restore things at that time because I was leaving for Ghana. I had written a promise in my journal and got a message from the Lord about getting married in 2020, July. When I found out I had discerned wrong I was devastated and even more so when I had to stay another year in the community. Again, I had to lay this promise at the altar. So when finally Heartdwellers Ghana and The City of God Community mission began to come together I had finally come to a place with Jesus where I had no attachment to the time frame, to how things would happen or when they would happen. But I simply trusted it would happen at some point in the future. As we began to get closer to leaving for Ghana this year, I thought for sure it would be impossible, with this short amount of time, for anything to be restored, and assumed things would happen much later. I have had many dreams and visions of him here on the mountain, but with everything that had happened, I just buried it each time as my own imagination. So this morning when Jesus spoke to me about reaching out to Derrick to invite him to the community, I was flabbergasted and fearful all at the same time, because I didn’t want to be deceived again thinking, “Could this be you, Lord, really?” When you guys have heard me reference in my messages about disappointments or trusting God with a promise, and breakthrough, many times I was referring to him and this promise of marriage that I laid down at the cross for love of Jesus. There is so much more to this testimony, but for now, I will digress and allow the Lord to finish writing this love story that I’m now sharing with you and that Jesus now wants you to pray for.
Back to Jesus, he said,
“You are not new to that are you?”
(And here he is referencing what he said earlier about fighting for this promise)
No Lord, I just thought, well…
Jesus broke in and said,
“You would have a break?”
Well, yea, Lord it’s been tiring on the battlefield.
“Well my beloved one, the last round is always the hardest, but you will finish well with Me leading the way. You are yet so close to the breakthrough you have been praying for, for years. It is just around the corner, but the devils won’t let up without a fight and they will throw everything they can in this last leg to derail you and him from this blessed union I have predestined. That is why I gave you the rhema last night “It’s time to fight”. I didn’t want you to get excited and lax as though everything would be a breeze and come together perfectly. You know I use every battle to sanctify you further and clean the last stain from your garments and put more jewels on your crown. So in this last leg really fight in prayer for him because the devils will do everything that they can to not get him here. The sentiments you were hearing earlier were correct.”
(And here he is talking about all the thoughts that were rushing to my heart about him, it was Jesus speaking to me.)
“In every generation, I have a remnant and a Jacob I choose out of among the rest to carry My words, My ways, and a holy linage onward and I have chosen him for that role. Although a man racked with many weaknesses and deceptive ways, in his heart he is mine and it was circumstances he could not control in his childhood that caused him to fear being honest, fear men, and seek their honor and approval but all that will soon change. He is wrestling with Me right now and he will not win. But I intend to break the yoke of his past, his families’ ties to the kingdom of darkness and break his pride. Many curses and assignments were placed upon him as a child because the evil ones knew he was a soul set apart by Me. They tried killing him several times, but because of the prayers of his mother and those he does not know of, I have sustained him and hidden him for this hour.
(That is true, his mother told me she carried him for 11 months and they thought something would be wrong with him, but he came out fine. Then at 11years of age, he got really bad food poisoning and deathly sick. The doctors did all that they could and put him in a unit at the hospital for those who were going to die. His mother realized this was witchcraft and prayed fervently all night. The next morning all the children in that unit died, but Derrick was miraculously well and went home that day).
“I will change his name, give him a new name because he will be a father of many. I know you don’t want to share this my little one, to the Heartdwellers family, but it is necessary. He is instrumental to the Heartdwellers’ growth, stability, and the spreading of my teachings to reach unreached people groups and those who have never tasted the sweetness of intimacy. That is why I chose him for you, for he will be one of my most faithful servants and will be a humble and faithful son to Mother Clare and Father Ezekiel.
That is the reason I chose him for you, and you could not have married another. When I put two people together it is for a much greater purpose in advancing my kingdom and birthing another linage of purity and holiness to fulfill My specific will. That is why, my beloved ones, it is very important who you marry. I cannot stress that enough. In a generation that tells you to pick between options or simply marry a person with the same faiths and beliefs, will not suffice. You must come to Me and wait on Me for the spouse I have chosen for you. Many of you would easily walk past them and reject my choice for you when you walk according to the flesh. But when you walk with Me and live by My Spirit you will come to see the greater purpose of the union I put together.
I want all the Heartdwellers praying for this young man as if they would pray for their own child or their brother because he is. The devils do not want him on My holy mountain, but nothing can oppose my will if you all pray. They will do all that they can to stop him at every turn, but with your prayers backing this little one up and him as well, he will make it there. He will be a blessing and make a major impact in My Kingdom and take much spoil from the kingdom of darkness. He will be a blessing to you Heartdwellers, and that is why I am asking you all to fight with this little one in prayer to get him there. Entrust him to My Mother when you pray the rosary, lift him up before her and she and my stepfather, St. Joseph, will ensure he will make it and this union will be blessed. As you fight for this little one, for this situation, trust that I will fight for each of you, concerning your cause and promises. As I mentioned breakthrough is around the corner for all, but it is time to Fight with full faith that I will do what I said, I would do, for I am faithful.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
Proverbs 13:12, Hope deferred makes the heart sick, but a longing fulfilled is a tree of life.
So family, you guys now have a piece of my heart. I’m asking if you could please stand in agreement with me and pray for Derrick daily until he gets here. The Intercessors and I have started a Novena to St. Joseph and if you would like to join us just email me and I can send you the prayers for that too. I had pulled this rhema the night before this message and it said; “Behold New Roads! Wow! Stand, Be Amazed! Be Overwhelmed! You will be in Awe!!”
May this message encourage the one who has been waiting on a promise that God is faithful. Thank you Heartdwellers for your sacrifice, prayers and words of encouragement we truly are family, and I can’t wait to one day soon show him all who rallied behind heaven to get him here to fulfill the call of God upon his life. As you guys now become part of our story.
Love you guys, God bless you until the next message.