Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers family. May you all receive the grace of perseverance and faith to use your authority in this hour.
So family I came under some heavy oppression last week when trying finish the Mother of Mercy website and launch the chaplet on Mother’s Day. I went to the Lord to confirm this was his will, but I found myself feeling distant from him and overwhelmed with many of the responsibilities I had in the community. I would have a lot of prayer time, but found myself consumed with work, work, work and trying to finish this project by the deadline.
Because you guys were being fed with other messages, I didn’t feel the need to seek the Lord to hear his voice. Or, if I can be honest, I had already so much to do that I wasn’t trying to hear his voice for a message because that would mean more work and I just wanted to get these projects behind me so I could just rest in him again. All of this clearly, was a recipe for the enemy to enter in. The week leading up to the launching, I began to get rhemas that “I had lost Jesus”. My heart sank because that is the last thing I wanted to do. I got this rhema the day I was to ordain the priests, so I began to question everything. I lost my peace badly. to the point I was shaking. That has never happened before, and I had to run to Mother Clare for prayer before I could move forward confidently in the ordination.
You see, to a soul that just wants to please the Lord, the enemy will ensnare you with scruples and have you question constantly if God is pleased with you, and that is what I started to do. After the ordination I began to question everything; if I was in his will, or out of his will, or if I had missed it somehow. I was so insecure with where I stood with Jesus. Then a couple days later I decided to get a rhema message from Mother Clare’s website and I got the message, “I Grieved the Lord, Jesus Speak on Christmas”. The Lord admonished her in the message how she had allowed ministry to take over their relationship and he was so grieved. She said, “Lord, in my zeal to please you and get underway with the portrait and songs, truly I have not spent the time we both need together. As a result, I’ve become Luke-warm and need to return to my First Love.
“This is a universal problem with most of My ministers. They become so excited with the beauty of the work and a feeling of being used, they slowly cut their time with Me shorter and shorter to accommodate their need to produce. This indeed not be you; you know better and happy you are nipping it in the bud”.
It stopped me in my tracks and rather than doing any ministry work that day I decided to seek Him out. We had one day left to launch the site and this chaplet and I had Mother Clare discern if I was supposed to launch it on Mother’s Day and she got bad readings about it. So she said, we both needed to sit and seek the Lord.
I was immediately thrown into panic and confusion because I thought I went to him for every step to ensure that I was in his will and I would get good readings about it to move forward. I spend the whole day in his presence crying and crying asking the Lord to show me the error of my ways and thinking that I should just stop moving forward with everything and especially M.O.M.’s Chaplet and the website. When I sought him for direction, a rhema or council Jesus was silent, and the rhemas gave no clarity at all. I knew this was a cross of confusion he was allowing which for me is the most painful. So I dried up my tears and told him I would wait on him to make things clear and humbly submit to this trial.
When I woke up Sunday morning, on Mother’s Day, I had not been far from finishing the website and couldn’t understand why the Lord would want me to finish halfway. However, I knew his ways are not our ways but, in the songs he was playing over me, He kept prompting me to go forward; to be obedient to what he already told me. I felt the Holy Spirit was telling me to follow my heart. So I decided to finish the message and finish the website to the best of my ability, which is the one I shared with you guys on Mother’s Day.
When we met together as a community, I received rhemas which shattered the condemnation, fear and confusion I was under. I thought I saved it but, couldn’t find it to share it with all of you. It said, (paraphrasing) that Satan wouldn’t oppose a work so furiously if it wasn’t going to bear fruit. And another said, “It is now time for your harvest”. I was so relieved to know that doing M.O. M.’s website and spreading this devotion was his will because this trial was so difficult, and I felt a weight lift off my shoulders and the storms clouds disappear.
However, I realized there was some truth in me losing Jesus and me cutting my time short so I can get more things done before I had to go to work in the kitchen. With every correction the demons take advantage and jump on you, until they have you paralyzed with their lies to stop you from not only moving forward but getting up all together after a fall.
Monday morning I decided to take a walk and do my prayers outside with Jesus. When I received the Lord after Holy Communion, I closed my eyes, and I could see him leaning up against my heart resting his head on it as he listened intently to every beat of my heart and would move up and down with every breath I took. I was moved by the vision I saw and longed to speak with him. So this time I came before him expectantly to hear him speak.
Good afternoon Lord. When I received you, I saw you leaning up and resting on my heart. You had your ear to my heart as it was beating. You too, were going up and down with every breath I took, and you seemed so at peace. I miss you dearly Lord, and I am sorry that I allowed the busyness of ministry to get between us. When amongst other things you are my ministry. Lord, please forgive me.
“I forgive you my beloved one, I truly do. I’m sorry it’s been so hard, and I was there holding you through each trial and cloud of confusion you were under. I reserve the hardest crosses for my faithful ones because I know won’t leave my side and you did seek me until you found me. So here I am. I am pleased with you beloved, that you persevered and endured through the difficulty.” (Smiling)
“Come my beloved little one, you need your spouse, and I am here.”
I then envisioned Jesus in all white holding me. I held Jesus tightly, and as my head barely reached under his chin, when I turned my head, I kissed his chest and rested my head back on him. I said, “Lord I don’t ever want to leave this place.”
“I don’t want you to either my little one. You are home for Me, and I am home for you. I need your love and attention just as you need mine. Do you know why you saw me leaning on your heart earlier?“
No, but I think I have an idea?
“It’s so that I could listen intently to the movements and thoughts of your heart. They are pleasing to me and I hear every word of your heart. Even at times of excessive chatter out of anxiety or fear, I hear every word you speak to me and listen intently. I do that for all my brides there is not one word you speak in your heart to Me that I don’t hear. I love to rest on the heart of my beloved. It is like a pillow of love that I can sink into. Even in all your misery and failure I love to see and hear the good intention you have in every action and every word you partake of. In my great mercy I dismiss the words and moments that are not like Me because I know you desire Me above all. And I know you love Me above all. I know you are under heavy affliction, but yet you still try anyway and that pleases Me. When your heart is hurting that is when I take it and do surgery on it. Tenderly and gently removing the residue of guilt, shame, seeds of bitterness, rejection, anger and suturing it up with a gold thread of my mercy and love.”
This scripture came to my mind as He was speaking.
Job 23:10, “Yet He knows the way I have taken; when He has tested me, I will come forth as gold.”
“Yes beloved, if you could see the hearts of each of my brides, the red flesh is there, but with each trial, each affliction, each pain you have endured for Me is sutured with a silk gold thread. Where the scar once used to be is left literally golden. So many hearts are covered in my golden thread of love. Some have more sutures than others and those who endure until the end, their hearts will be as of gold because it will be literally covered in this thread of love. Until there is no flesh left, but beautiful scars of gold threads of my love weaved all around to tell a story of My mercy and of the great affliction they endured to fight the good fight of faith and win this golden heart. Do you see now, how I work all things out for you good?”
Yes Lord, I see. Thank you so much for your mercy towards me!
“My beloved little one, thank My Mother as well. You have consecrated yourself to her and I have given you entirely to her and she watch over your soul fiercely with a motherly affection that you can’t imagine.”
As an aside during this trial I did get a rhema that said, “If you invoke the Blessed Virgin when you are tempted, she will come at once to your help and Satan will leave”. So I began to cry out to her for her help and assistance, to deliver me from this oppression.
“Just as a Mama bear is with her cubs, she too protects you fearlessly when the enemy comes in for an attack. She is that way with all my brides who have given themselves over to her. It was she who led you out of your temptations and your affliction of the oppression of the enemy. It was she who again has merited you the triple crown in this trial.”
Guys, I had got a rhema from St. Faustina when I stopped everything to seek the Lord and it said, “At the same time I saw a certain person, and in part, the condition of his soul and the ordeals God was sending him. His sufferings were of the mind and in a form so acute that I pitied him. And said to the Lord, “Why do you treat him like that?” And the Lord answered for the sake of his triple crown”.
If I can be honest, all I could do was cry and tell the Lord, “Please help me, I don’t want this crown. Lord, I just want to be right with you. The attack against my mind was so heavy. I can’t even explain it.
So thank you Mama, for saving and delivering me from the enemy’s grasp!
Back to Jesus,
“My beloved ones, Satan is indeed seeking many in this hour in whom he can devour. He is coming after my beloved faithful ones with a fierceness to cause you to abort my will, my plans, and my direction for you. Did I know say forge ahead? Then why do you doubt? Many of you have been assailed with a strong spirit of delusion and confusion. They want to paralyze you from moving forward and sabotage your relationship with Me. Others, he wants you so busy doing good things, such as ministry, that I get put on the back burner and in your dryness, you cut our prayer times shorter.
This next season right around the corner will surprise you all as you burst forth with a surplus of fruit and a harvest that you can’t imagine. So if they can paralyze you, cutting your legs from under you quite literally, then you will not move forward and meet the greatest harvest that awaits you. And if they can get you busy doing things, and spending less time with me, once the harvest comes it will cause you to be further away from Me in intimacy. Doing much work for Me, but completely empty inside.
What is the remedy, my dear ones? Prayer, perseverance and great courage. I want my brides to run to My mother, Your Mother of Mercy, and ask for these graces. You all are in a battle right now and it is time for you to rise up and take back territory from the enemy in prayer. No longer take these beatings lying down. You have carried your crosses valiantly and a time comes when I want my brides to use their authority. Decree a thing and it will be established. To decree means “order something by legal authority”. When a king makes a royal decree, it is done, it is finished. Not even he can change or rewrite a decree once it is set. So I am calling you, my royal brides, to rise up with Me and decree everything I have promised; over your family, over your nation, over every promise I have spoken over you. It is time to put the enemy to flight once and for all, in the areas I have given to you to rule. Decree over your mind, over your future, over your home over your atmosphere. If you do not know what to decree, ask yourself what is oppressing you? What are you feeling? Those are sure signs of demonic company who are encroaching on your territory. Seek my Mothers intercession and she will help you. I give her charge over you all, in this charge, to take back what has been stolen.”
That was the end of Jesus’ message.
Wow, after getting this message Father Ezekiel called me into his room and said Blessed Mother had come before the throne room of God the Father asking on my behalf that I be His wisdom and He consented. Then he said he would give me His authority, as well and handed me a staff like Moses’. Father Ezekiel then said the Lord wanted me to take my staff out and began to decree and use my authority over the enemy. He had no idea the Lord had given me this message and that confirmed it. In the next message I will be sharing with you the prayers for Declaring the Law of Encroachment, on how to use your swords, and how to get your own staff to decree Gods promises and to take back territory from the enemy.
God bless you until the next message.