May God bless you and keep you blessed family. This is Rainbow and I would like to welcome to In the Garden of My Heart.
Today on In the Garden of My Heart I would like to share with you a beautiful experience I had with Jesus when I first got saved, following up on the progress that has been made since then. A while back mother Clare did messages on dwelling in the garden of our hearts with Jesus and creating a place where Jesus can rest, have peace and spend time with you. I wanted to give you all a tour of our sanctuary where Jesus and I spend most of our time together, and how it all began and developed.
Before I begin, I feel the need to address something. I want to acknowledge that I am not special or better than any one of you. The only thing that makes me special is the fact that I am the only me that God has ever created, but aside from that I am the most unworthy of the bunch. My sins are like the depths of the ocean and I am just a simple servant of God who is trying slowly, but surely, to make my way into heaven as you are. God has chosen the least likely person to experience this, let alone be sharing this with you. And the reason why I am telling you this is because if He can share with me things like these, an undeserving nobody, a total nothing, scum of the earth even—then He can do it for someone so unique and as awesome and amazing as you are. So, I just wanted to encourage you not to feel like you don’t measure up or that Jesus would never come to someone like you because He just might surprise you. You see, there are no boundaries to His love. His love is always overflowing and everlasting and he is more than willing to forgive you of your sins and heal you with his love. It says in Jeremiah 31:3 “I have loved you with an everlasting love, I have drawn you with unfailing kindness.” His love is unfailing, everlasting and forever alive! (Can I please have any Amen!)
When my relationship with Jesus first began, we often met in a beautiful green landscape area. It was very grassy and peaceful, with a slope at the far corner near the top. At the peak of the slope there was a lake glowing majestically in the distance. In the middle of the grassland area there was a tall and very healthy cedar tree with a few patches of wild flowers growing all around. Jesus and I spent most of our time there, aside from going on adventures.
(I would like to apologize for any noise in the background. Being a full-time mother and wife is not the easiest thing and it doesn’t exactly help to record in peace. So, you may hear noises in the background… I do apologize).
When I first started using my sanctified imagination I couldn’t hear very well or taste. The only thing I could do was see myself doing things, but I didn’t feel myself doing it. There are times when I would be sensing myself doing things in the spirit with Him but couldn’t see anything at all. There were also times where I knew what I was doing but it was blurry when I tried to see it.
My first year with Jesus and heaven adventures were very awkward, but quite amazing. It’s the feeling you get when you are getting to know someone for the first time. It’s just, this person is the opposite gender and you happen to think that they are very handsome and very mesmerizing to look at. You are so fascinated with the new surroundings because it’s new to you but it’s quite awkward that you secretly have a thing on the person you are exploring with, even though you have not gotten to know him/her yet! I remember back then—and I still do— I when I couldn’t look Him in the eyes or even His face because, I would be so… mesmerized! So taken aback by His love. It was something that could make anybody faint. Every time I did, I turned like a red tomato and felt like running away because I could not contain my feelings. In fact, I believe for the first year or two we had not had a long conversation with each other because I was shy and terrible at hiding my feelings. But He was gentle and waited for me to get comfortable. And, then we spoke, after a very, very long time. My experiences with Jesus were few and far between for about two years and a half because I was in the world and did not love Him enough to make time for Him. I don’t think I cared much either.
When I started to take it seriously or at least take HIM seriously—or try—we had created together a little loft on the cedar tree where we would sit and just relax. The cedar tree turned into an oak tree later on, by the way. Till this day it is my favorite tree and on that very same tree sits our treehouse!
A couple months of adventures and meeting there had past when one faithful day that space turned into a garden blocked around with green garden walls. But it was locked. When I got to the gate, I was presented by Jesus with a golden key. This key was shaped like a heart, with a sapphire gem at the top. I took the key and opened the gate. Surprisingly—yet not surprisingly—it was quite empty, not much to see there at all. In my hopes of making it better I instantly run off and began creating, just to make the place look good or at least comfortable. I divided it into four sections, which I kept in my new Upgrade, after which I added a golden walkway in the middle of the garden vertically. From that, I added horizontal walkways to show that the garden had been divided. I added benches, flowers of many colors, a waterfall and a simple treehouse from the cedar tree. There was a back entrance that led to the lake nearby.
Now, let’s call that garden upgrade ‘Garden 1.0’ because it did not last long at all. In fact, I believe I had so many upgrades, I think I lost count! I mean, one time there was an ice-skating ring, there was a huge waterslide, there was a pool. There was a movie area! There was a gazebo! I believe there was a secret underground tunnel!— …I had fun! Let’s just say I overdid it, and I had fun. And He was patient through it all.
Strangely enough though, as I grew with Jesus and our bond became stronger, so did that garden improve. I had not really asked Jesus for help to create it but felt like I could do it on my own. Like some of us do… But sometimes we end us slowing down and realize that we really need help. When I gave Him free-rein to takeover and change where He can—He did. I would enter into the garden many times and see Him tending to it, keeping it clean and making it better. It would always be well kept and like new when He was there. What I did not realize was that He made that garden His home. A place where he wishes to reside, relax. A place where He wishes to be forever.
After many upgrades and growth in myself later, I present to you the Garden of not “my” but “our” heart, that is to say Jesus’s and mine.
It would be way better taking you on a camera-view tour because my words will never, ever, ever, be enough to describe how peaceful, serene and beautiful it is. We have worked hard on it for quite some time, together—not just me alone. But I believe that Jesus’s love is what makes the garden so alive! It’s His energy that flows through it, that gives it THAT beauty.
There is a beautiful golden walkway leading to the big golden arched gates. On each side of the walkway, the Lord recently planted some beautiful looking flowers to make the entrance more appealing, so to say. He planted some lilies, tulips, violets and chrysanthemums. Back then He said it has a special fragrance about them that He liked, because I asked Him if we could plant sunflowers and He said it didn’t quite fit with the theme…—only Jesus knows what He is talking about! (chuckles)
On entering the gate, you instantly notice our huge—and I mean unbelievably huge greenhouse that takes up the whole right side of the garden. It’s called Elowen Fluer. Or what I like to call Oliver because it means “nature lover”. Elowen Fluer however means “elm flower”. There we grow fruits and vegetables. Oh! And there are some huge trees as well! I believe there is a mango tree. (I quite like mangos, especially mango chow, that is something we eat here in the Caribbean). I believe there is an apple tree and an orange tree as well. We also plant ground produce, so that should give you an idea as to why it is SO big. The greenhouse is made up of a transparent glass that is not too thick or too thin. There are also a few openings that allow sufficient oxygen in for the plants and trees.
The left side of our garden is divided into two areas. The first part is where our treehouse is. Our treehouse is not a regular one, not like the ones you would build for a kid to play in, nor like a club house. Our treehouse is more of a treehouse home with three levels, a beautiful balcony, lounge area on the third level and a yellow swirly slide attached on the outside, near the side entrance. I will let you guess why we decided to put that there! In front of the treehouse, we have our beautiful picnic table where we do our activities, and also somewhere for the kids to hangout. Near the wall we have a beautiful golden standpipe fountain for outside watering purposes, and a lot of wild flowers growing around the tree. The second area in the left side of the garden is our playground for the kids. Here is where we come to play and create. And Mother Mary visits there often too, to play with the children and to bring comfort to them. The playground is quite huge with swings, slides, a trampoline, a small eating area and more… In fact, I think I will add in a bounce house if Jesus agrees…!
I am guessing you are asking who are the kids that play there? Well for one, me, because I’m a big baby! But mostly any child, everybody is welcome; the children from the nurseries; the trafficked children; aborted children; our children; the children in Heaven. Even the angels can come to play because they too are very playful. There is always an opened back entrance for them to come in and play and always to see Jesus. There are always refreshments and a lot of things to do! For some reason they just bring joy to the garden! I just love having them around.
And that, my dear family, ends my simple tour. Quite simple, isn’t it? Not that much to it but it’s quite deep. It’s a place where we really, really dwell together. I wish I could take you guys into a—not just an exterior, but an interior tour. Our garden is quite small in comparison to our second one which has a huge white castle in it. Oh boy! It’s called Fenella. It’s quite huge!
To draw you back to the point I am trying to illustrate is, when I first gave my life to Jesus, I was given the land to start build my relationship with Him. That is represented by the grassland area. Then as I developed with Him and began to change, I had a little loft, and as I continued to grow—a garden was developed. But it was empty so I ran in without His help and put things there that I thought would look nice, but He didn’t go away, He stayed. And one-by-one He helped me to get rid of the things I put in there that was unnecessary—as He did with my life. When I asked Him to takeover, He took my ideas and advanced upon them, making them perfect. He transformed my heart into His home—that is displayed in the garden above. It took time for me and Him but now it is a place where we spend most of our time.
I would just like to encourage you not to give up on Him and a relationship with Him. I guarantee that if you keep working at it, He will too and will never give up on you. And He will keep working with you to develop that place where you guys can rest. And, eventually, it will become like second nature to you. Just close your eyes and, POP—you’re there! Not much effort. But that take time. For some people they get it right away, and for other people takes time. I was one of those that took a lot of time to change and become a better person. But He is there with everybody.
So, I am very beyond grateful that you joined in with me, and I hope this encourages and gives you hope to DREAM, to really, really dream and create that garden with Jesus.
Now, if you guys would like a more in-depth tour of our treehouse and the greenhouse, then please do leave a comment below, I would also love to hear about that. And I would also love to hear your garden and its progress too, so that I might be able to upgrade mine—see some of the things that I think I might wanna add there that YOU have, and you can add some other things that I have that you need. And maybe when we get to Heaven together you guys can come over—I’ll make you guys something, or just sit down and we would chat, hug on each other and just love on each because…that’s kinda what heaven is all about, it’s just so loving and so peaceful.
So, you can email me in at firstname.lastname@example.org
Let me know about you progress and if you wanna share your garden with me, I would really love that! May God bless you, till we meet again.
Bye-bye, Rainbow out.