Hello brothers and sisters and Heartdwellers Family. May you all be blessed.
No one ever wants to be pegged as being jealous especially, us women but there is a very real assignment against the body of Christ targeted to cause division especially within the daughters of God. The Lord had me do an event 2 years ago called “Great is the Accompany of Women” from the scripture Psalm 68:11 The Lord gives the command; The women who proclaim good news are a great army:
Jesus has made it clear to me and many others that in this later times he is raising up lionesses who will preach the gospel. It will be the women leading in these last days to carry Gods word to the ends of the earth to draw many souls back to him. You see it now all over the body of Christ as the Lord is raising up many female evangelist who are highly anointed and being used by him.
However, the greatest weakness we can fall prey to is the spirit of competition and jealousy. Where we began to compete with one another in ministry and become spiritually jealous of one another’s gifts and position in the body. I have heard many say quickly when the issue of jealously is brought up that, “oh I don’t struggle with that” but you never know what’s truly in your heart or how you can fall into that sin until you’re tested and can be honest about what rises out of us or the thoughts that come to our mind.
1 Peter 1:7
These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.
The Lord doesn’t let me easily get away with things. I am coming to love that and see it as his great hand of mercy upon me. He is very quick to convict me of sin and even better have me confess my sin openly to others. The Lord has been raising up a soul here in the community who will at one point lead her own community as well. I had been praying for her and Mother Clare’s friendship to deepen and grow closer in the bonds of friendship and brotherly love. The Lord began to answer that prayer and I have been elated however I began to realize in the process I began to feel pushed aside and forgotten. Here it is again that darn sin of respectability creeping its head up as I tried my best to cast down these thoughts and submit to the Lords will as more and more it became apparent then jealousy began rise up. Immeadiatley when I senses it I asked the Lord to forgive me and help me be okay with my place and accept it all in humility which he did. If I can be honest I was too ashamed to confess that to anyone so I kept it between Jesus and I.
Then I began to feel a spirit of competition as the Lord was raising this soul up to now hear from him and receive messages. I could sense there was comparison going on about our messages so it became even uncomfortable to try to hear from the Lord in our hermitage since we room together. I could feel such a heaviness and anxiety that came over me in the room. Only until I stepped outside to write did I have such peace and easiness in hearing from him. This went on for about a week until I realized maybe there was something in the room and an assignment launched against us. Against our gifts, against our relationship and against the ministries God had called us too.
So during my weekly confession I made it a point to share all my sins except that one. I know I am a hotness, thinking for the first time Lord, you and I talked about this, I repented there is no need to share it with my confessor. Wrong, the Lord is very serious about me walking in purity and having a clean conscience before him to do this work as he has told me. So after receiving an absolution from Mother Clare I asked her to help me discern a personal situation for me and she got “Jealousy” and said Hmm I wonder why the Lord gave me that.
Oh my goodness guys, can I say my ears were hot as I twiddled my thumbs in nervousness, saying to her I am not sure. When I knew very well it maybe him wanting me to be honest about this unconfessed sin but, because of shame I said nothing. Then she went again for a second reading and got “Jealously” again. I was like awe man Lord he wasn’t answering her at all and I knew at that point he wanted me to be honest and confess this sin. So I put my pride aside and shared with her how I had been feeling with her relationship with this soul. She immeaditly retorted I have had thoughts of jealously too. I was stunned, but so relieved as she felt this was an assignment against us three and something we needed to pray against.
Thats one thing I love about Mother Clare she is so honest and transparent about what she is going through which gives others the freedom to be honest and transparent. She said, that if she was feeling the same thing, most likely these feelings weren’t from our hearts but from the demons trying to stir up division among us. She then absolved me of now all of my sins and I truly left with a weight lifted from my shoulders. I thought for sure I had confessed this and it wouldn’t go any further.
Then once I got home I sat before the Lord and went to the BP wanting to discern another situation and got “Jealously again” I thought No Lord I already confessed this to my confessor but he now wanted me to expose this and confess this before my roommate as well. So I mustered up the courage to tell her what was going on as she too was getting readings on Jealously and I asked her if she had felt that in the room. We then prayed together and began to bind the spirit of jealousy and competition telling it to get out of our hermitage. Assignments like this have happened before and the Lord revealed there was a small demon in the corner of our room who wanted to remain hidden and she was able to discern it and tell it to get out!
I share this with you all because it is honesty and transparency that will expose the devils and put the demons to flight every time in every situation when we confess our sins one to another. Many times we are fearful of being judged, of being made fun of, and of being looked down on when we expose our sin or even bad thoughts we are having and many times it may not come from our hearts, but it’s outside trying to get in. It is the demons tempting us with this accusations and negative thoughts for us to come in agreement with them and sin.
When an assignment of division happened the first time Jesus told me”we need each other”. Now that is the truth and one of the many ways to conquer the spirit of competition and jealousy is praising the Lord for a gift you see in someone else because you know it is needed in the body. We are members with different gifts and we need each other.
At this point I said,
Jesus do you have anything to add?
“Comparison is a deadly killer of life, of gifts, and anointing. That is what led Saul to birth the sin of murder in his heart to kill David. Jealously will kill everything it comes around and chokes out any hope for growth. That is why I said Wrath is cruel, anger is overwhelming, but who can stand before jealousy? Proverbs 27:4. I am glad you caught on to my promptings little one and exposed this demon and assignment that was against you and has been in the community for quite some time. Jealousy and competition is a double edged sword not only does it cut down the person that is the source of envy but it stifles the soul that is infected with this poison by causing them not to see how unique, beautiful and gifted they are so they never apply themselves and continue on in laziness and insecurity because there eyes are fixed on always comparing themselves rather then seeing themselves in my mirror.
It can lead not only to physical murder, but spiritual murder which assassinating someones character as demons of suspicion accompany this demon inflating and exaggerating every action of the one who is the source of envy. Which opens a much wider door for the demon to enter through. Jealousy is the biggest source of division in my body and that is why I hate it so much and I am quick to expose it. It was the cause of the division and birth of denominations in my church. It has been the cause of many ministries being torn down by other so called believers who put themselves in the position to become the judge. In the world and even growing up you have been taught to continously compete for the top spot, to strive after what you want, too keep up with the jones as they say but in my kingdom you must be least of all and last of all, there is no striving but simply being in Me, and the only thing to keep up with is to imitate me, for I am meek and humble of heart.
Don’t think the disciples didn’t have their fair share of this assignment and test over and over again until they realized that they each served a greater purpose in my kingdom collectively and all that was done was for the salvation of souls. To impede one another because of jealousy means to stop souls from being saved. When they realized that, they praised me for the gifts and anointing given to each of them and encouraged one another in moments of despair that it was all for souls. That is why they were all able to lay down their lives for the gospel. You too my brides must realize there is no need for comparison or jealousy it is all about souls and that person is anointed or gifted in a unique way to bring in certain souls just as you are equipped and gifted in a unique way to bring in certain souls that they cannot reach. If you only knew you are a masterpiece, a uniquely fashioned one of a kind bait, if you will, to draw very special fish into the Kingdom and when you work together with others in my body encouraging and lifting them up for the greater good and for My glory you then become force to be reckon with. For you are all members, but one body with different gifts that are each needed.”
That was the end of Jesus message
I would like to end with this scripture that came to my mind
1 Corinthians 12: 14-27
For the body does not consist of one member but of many. 15 If the foot should say, “Because I am not a hand, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 16 And if the ear should say, “Because I am not an eye, I do not belong to the body,” that would not make it any less a part of the body. 17 If the whole body were an eye, where would be the sense of hearing? If the whole body were an ear, where would be the sense of smell? 18 But as it is, God arranged the members in the body, each one of them, as he chose. 19 If all were a single member, where would the body be? 20 As it is, there are many parts,[b] yet one body.
21 The eye cannot say to the hand, “I have no need of you,” nor again the head to the feet, “I have no need of you.” 22 On the contrary, the parts of the body that seem to be weaker are indispensable, 23 and on those parts of the body that we think less honorable we bestow the greater honor, and our unpresentable parts are treated with greater modesty, 24 which our more presentable parts do not require. But God has so composed the body, giving greater honor to the part that lacked it, 25 that there may be no division in the body, but that the members may have the same care for one another. 26 If one member suffers, all suffer together; if one member is honored, all rejoice together.
27 Now you are the body of Christ and individually members of it.
God bless you guys until the next message.