I woke up this morning, thinking of the Lord, asking what was on his heart and I looked across my bed on the wall were remnants of dirt from the guys building the house, but as I looked more closely it seemed to form an image of Jesus. It looked like he was walking on the shores, but alone. I was seeing his back. It was like the picture Mother Clare used on the message “Togetherness” but his bride wasn’t there. He seemed so sad. All these feelings came in my heart as I felt his grief yet again. Sure enough before doing the Lord’s supper, I just felt led to get a reading from Mornings with Saint Therese and it said;
Console Jesus: “The trials of Jesus, what a mystery! He has trials then, He too? Yes, He has them, and often He is alone. He looks for consolers and can find none. He has trials. Many serve Jesus when He is consoling them, but few consent to keep company with Jesus sleeping on the waves or suffering in the garden of agony?”
So I knew my beloved Jesus was hurting and had asked me to do a teaching on intimacy. I came before the Lord saying: “Lord I feel this ties in with you desiring your brides to spend time with you and you feel alone.”
Jesus is there anything you would like to add?
“My beloved, how my heart aches and longs for my beloved. But she runs off to the world merely seeing me as a decision, a short prayer, the scripture of the day. But I am much, much more. Yes, I am your God but I have also made myself to be your friend, bridegroom and I am a man who has needs. I long for your attention, how I need your love and devotion.
Yes, I need you. Your God needs you. You are a masterpiece that fits perfectly to me, nothing else will satisfy.
Fear and Condemnation keep you from me, but may I tell you they are tools of the enemy to keep my beloved spouse away from me. I know all things yet I love you! Please, no longer allow shame to keep you from me. The same tool that was used with Adam & Eve. How it broke me to pieces to see them run away, in fear, in hiding from me, (Jesus was crying and I too was in tears, feeling his heart that moment he called for them but they ran instead)… their God, their Father, their friend, their healer and restorer. Only if they would’ve come, acknowledged their error, how I was ready to forgive and retire them but yet they feared me instead and continued to blame each other.
My beloved ones, fear and shame have stolen years away from me. I created you for myself, do you understand that? That means I know every crack, every weakness, I know your form because I created you yet I love you dearly and desire you next to me. I no longer want quick morning routines to get me out of the way but, I desire to do life with you and spend all my time with you. Would you ask me to help you with breakfast? With the kids? Help you with work? Go on walks together, runs to the grocery store, they are most fun when I do it with you! I love to be included in every aspect of your life, yes even the difficult and ugly areas as you would say. Don’t shy away from me or push me away. Invite me to these areas, invite me in these occasions, invite me into your whole day and you will see how I make my presence known to you. You will see how much more peace and resolve you feel at the end of your day when we do life together.”
Afterwards, as I was praying the rosary, all these images and emotions where flooding me as I prayed the Sorrowful Mystery, since it was Tuesday. I saw Jesus on the cross just like in the images of The Passion. As I prayed the third mystery I saw Jesus now being beaten by the Roman soldiers, making fun of him. Then he being tied up in the dungeon underground awaiting his walk to calvary. I saw blessed Mother in tears bending down right where Jesus was hanging and I was right next to her with my ears to the ground as he was beaten and downcast in the dungeon.
Then I saw vision of him circled by a mob of people punching him with their fist and also beating him with clubs before he was taken to Pilat. I saw even the children spitting at him, mocking him even the ones that he had healed which broke my heart even more. The demons had even taken over the children, and how that hurt him the most. I began to cry, and cry because I was right there watching the mob so overtaken by the intensity of hatred they had for him and how they beat him.
Indeed he should’ve died. No human could’ve withstood the blows. But I knew angels were ministering to him and given him heavenly strength, as was shown to St. Anne Emmerich. Then I saw Jesus’ back on the cross. I was at the foot of the cross with blessed Mother crying and crying remembered all the good he had done for mankind, for these people, for me.
The goodness and love of God on the cross for us as I cried and cried overwhelmed with sadness. Then again saw Jesus being handed to blessed Mother when he died. She then handed him to me, his bride, to hold. Then we were in the tomb and blessed Mother told me to stay with him there again as I cried, and cried remembering that I had put him there with my sins. How lonely Jesus was now in the tomb all alone and desiring his brides to respond to him even now to also stay with him in the tomb in this hour. Spend time with him <3
– From Jesus with Love