It has been a long while since I wrote a blog forgive me for my absence. I have been really busy here in the community and also my Youtube Channel however, the Lord reminded me that I wasn’t feed the flock on the website. Moreover,
he really wanted to get his messages out. To spread his writings and words far and wide to bring hope to many. Before I was just writing down things I have experienced and lessons Jesus was teaching me. However, now Jesus has restored the grace of hearing his voice. So I will be sharing the messages he gives me everyday so that you maybe encouraged and strengthened as well!
Since my fall in discernment last year I lost the grace to hear his voice. If I can be honest I was saddened but a bit relieved because I would always become so full of anxiety when trying to have conversations with Jesus or write down what I thought he was saying. The devils would pound me with doubt, unbelief, fear and so much anxiety that I would be deceived again and more over that I was just talking to myself. So it had 9 months and I had became comfortable just getting rhema words from him and getting instructions through the books I read. Also through my spiritual covering as well. Mother Clare who is my spiritual mother, told me that she wanted me to began journaling again. So despite by hesitation and fears I had to be obedient so I began today writing all that happened during prayer
I woke up this morning after having a dream with a friend of mine in it where he gave me some ice cream to eat. I ate it all there were more to the dream but I didn’t remember I then asked Holy Spirit the dreams with me eating something is that spiritual warfare/ witch craft and I got in the BP “Holy Spirit” 1 John 2:27. By the way BP is referring to the Bible Promise I use for discernment. It is a tool Jesus has given us to use to go deeper in discerning his will and its only $2.99 on Amazon. I encourage every believer to use this for discernment as well. So thought, uh oh and felt I needed to really pray in the spirit.
Then I went outside to use the restroom and I saw on a bucket the word “ SCEPTER” and I knew that meant authority. I felt the Lord was reminding me to use my authority. As I set with him in adoration for a bit I began to readings from the Bible and various holy books to get some direction from Him. I got readings on “Guilt” and the last reading I got was titled “Hearing and Seeing Jesus”. What stuck out to me that it said “99% of the time we don’t hear or see Jesus because of our unbelief or false guilt …self-hatred of ourselves so thought the Lord then maybe wanted to speak to me”
I thought okay maybe Jesus wants me to practice again hearing his voice.
So I came to him writing in my journal saying,
Lord from all of the readings you gave me this morning in prayer I feel in my heart you are wanting us to use our scepters, the authority given to us by consecrated a fast and praying for repentance for ourselves and our nation Lord?
Lord is there anything on your heart?
My Beloved daughter why so tense and full of anxiety I am right here with you. I have always been and dwell within you little one. No need to fear, my desire is that you would began to hear and see me more clearly but, it has been a water gate of guilt that has stopped you from coming to me. Hence all the readings I gave you today were in reference to the steep condemnation and unbelief you were walking in. There is much I want to tell you and much I desire for you to be prepared for.
I am so proud of you my little one, Mother Mary Elisha that name suites you very much. I will use you to speak as an oracle on my behalf. Many won’t listen, many will rebel and many will disregard my words to you because of your stature, your demeanor, and how you look but, be not dismayed you are my voice. I have put my words in to your mouth even though many times they may be strong words don’t fear.
For as Father Ezekiel said your words, your prayers, will be those that snatch your brethren from the edge. So don’t fear little one, the fruit you bare will be much later but, walk in obedience to me and to your superiors Mother and Father Ezekiel. You are indeed blessed to have them as your shepherd and overseers. They adore you and love you very much, don’t take their wisdom and council for granted. Never do that dear one, I will always honor your obedience to them rather than any sacrifice you give. For when you honor them you, honor me.
Now I want to talk to you about what is to come. I have called you here on this mountain as a beacon of hope for all nations and a source of light for those who are in darkness. Don’t think everyone I send here will be fit to walk in the Franciscan vocation but, many will come in their season to grow, to be stretched, to be purified, and then to be taught if they are willing to yield to the authorities I have put overhead in this community. If they don’t they too will leave in a while but, your job my little one is to love, love, and then love some more. You here not only to pray but, to be an example of my love to all your brothers in lowliness, in humility, and in meekness. Submit to all my beloved and don’t take offense I want you to really work on that my love
Lord I can’t work at anything please help give me the grace Lord too truly have this attitude of heart its so hard for me Lord
“I know beloved that is one of your greatest weaknesses and my greatest strength in you. So the graces have been given, but you must have a better resolve dear one. Don’t get lax daisy and when you feel that way just call upon me and I will be near. Of course always run to my Mother, she is a treasure trove full of graces and mercies dear one. She is the one cradling, nurturing and pruning you through all of this. You are my special gift to her dear one.”
Thank you Lord!
(However, I was doubting again and being filled with anxiety to stop writing and Jesus could sense that)
Jesus read my thoughts,
“I see you tensing up already. Ease up my little one, ease up take a deep breath. I want you to write all that I say to your heart. Receiving my thoughts and love for you as easy as breathing
Lord you make it sounds so easy, (at this point I was thinking Jesu has to be kidding it is so hard for me, the anxiety and the doubt are overwhelming)
“But it is my beloved when you have faith and confidence in me. That it’s not what you do, or how you feel but you come in my presence because you know I love you. You know I desire you and you know I want to speak to you. Not only for your sake for the sake of others my little one
Oh Lord please helps
“I am here for you my beloved I truly am. Share these things with Mother Clare let her council be your guide dear one. You are truly blessed, extremely blessed dear just always remember the greater the privilege the greater the humility dear. That should cause you to go lower, lower, and even lower loving your littleness and nothingness and seeing me as your all in all.
Me: Okay Lord thank you so much Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you, Jesus I trust in you
That was the end of the message from Jesus, with Love!