Romans 8:38-39
For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I found myself what looked like in a raging storm of emotions a couple of nights ago. The waves were fierce and the wind even fiercer as I found my thoughts going into a deep deep into a dark pit. I kept telling myself Nana you have been here before don’t take your eyes of Jesus don’t take your eyes off Jesus but, it was too late. I had completely lost my peace and all I could do was cry out before him in Mercy. The enemy shot one arrow of doubt that triggered my emotions and turned into a snowball effect of me doubting if I was in Gods perfect will. This strategy is called a sucker punch, is when your doing perfectly fine going about your day and a situation, a circumstance, a word is uttered by someone or something and triggers an emotional melt down. You my friend have been sucker punched by the demons.
I began to seek God asking why frantically, is something I did and I am outside of your will? Have I missed you Lord, have I missed you? I felt like Peter was on the boat and confidently walked out to meet Jesus the minute he took his eyes on the waves he began to drown…I was drowning in my pit. Looking for answer’s all over the place because when I sat in Gods presence I got nothing. It had been a struggle for a few months to hear his voice. It was after reaching out too two dear friends of mine who put my thoughts in perspective and I began to realize…I am being tested. When the Lord is silent its because I am being tested with the storm raging all around me would I cling to his promises? With all the emotions raging in my heart I still had to go to work and counsel and encourage online with their walk in Christ. Ironic huh lol but, the Lord used one of them to encourage me. As he wrote me back saying I had helped and ministered to him greatly. He made a statement that he can now return back to Jesus because there is HOPE IN HIS LOVE and it hit me like a lightening bolt.
That was the problem I had been trying to hope in my love for Jesus for too long. If I can be honest my passion for him was dwindling and I was so weary and tired all the time. I felt like I had nothing left to give anyone because I had put hope in my love towards Jesus. I began to feel discouraged because MY love felt like it was decreasing, wasnt exciting anymore but that was just it. That is how our love for God will be sometimes conditional but when we HOPE in HIS love that is unwavering, unconditional, consistent, relentless, faithful, trustworthy, passionate (all the time), and always available. So from my pit, finally I declared my weakness and reached out to receive his love. Despite my falling terribly, giving in to the tactics of the enemy, giving in to doubt and lies against his character. Jesus loved me back to life and nursed my gaping wounds so I may rest in him as he continues to fight this battle. I finally he spoke to me in a song that kept playing in my mind ” BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD”. So I declared yes Lord I will be still in this storm and HOPE in YOUR love for me not mine.
So do you find yourself in your own pit in the beginning of this year? The pit can be your circumstances, your own thoughts, and your emotions. That have been weighing you down heavily and you seem to not have a way out. You seem to not hear Gods voice and you don’t know where to turn, Hope in HIS love. Because He loves you he will never leave you nor forsake you, He has not forgotten you and is right there in the pit with you. He had me rewrite Romans 8:38-39 as a declaration over myself and personalize, you should too because HIS word stands!
“For I am persuaded that neither losing my job, nor losing my car, nor spiritual warfare attacks of the enemy, nor moving back to my moms house, nor the criticism of family and friends can separate me from HIS love. For God has called me, qualified me and justified me. I will hope in his love knowing that he is working it all out for my good!
-From Jesus with Love
Yes! Amen. I’ve been feeling the same way, Sometimes I get so weary with everything and things get dull and not fun. Especially towards the end of the year a lot things been thrown at me and family and it’s hard to know what step to take cause everything is blocked and it gets overwhelming. Most often I never hear from God so him being silent during this time wasn’t abnormal to me either. But, I try to remember all the promises like you said as well as all the positive things that came out of these trials and it does help a lot. I pray for your continual growth in Christ xoxo -Sabrina
Hey Sister Sabrina!, I know 2017 was a hard year for everyone and spiritually especially whats going on in our nation. Many times the end of the year will be the most difficult that is when the enemy is at work the most but we just have to continue to fix our eyes on him for sure. I have a ministry that I am apart of that has helped me tremendously hearing and seeing Jesus. Its truly Jesus himself teaching us on that channel I would love for you to check it out because he is always talking in different ways we just dont perceive it 🙂 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QZecIhH7skU&t=8s. Praying for your continual growth as well. God bless you sis!
This was a good read. Before I got to the second paragraph I gathered that you were being tested. Sometimes I have a hard time resting in Jesus because I like to figure out everything about a situation based on my own human intellect and the Lord doesn’t want that. But when I just seek Him for Him and not for the answer the peace returns and eventually His will is made clear. He is certainly a rewarder of those who diligently seek him. Be blessed
Yes, your so right took me a little while longer to find that out lol Lord help me and your so right when I find myself frustrated trying to gain understanding then I recognize Nana, stop rest in him and abandon yourself to his perfect will right now. So thank you so much for your words of wisdom and encouragement. God bless
Beautiful encouragement!!
I absolutely agree with you on that. Such an eye opener. Now I realize hat I too have trusted in my love and devotion to Jesus.
What a beautiful confirmation this is to the rhema of yesterday, it read: “your worth is in my blood, nothing in this world can take you out of my hand.” And “the enemy tries to stop you from using your gifts. My advice to you is: do it anyway”
God bless you dear dear sister
All glory to the Lord sister Keshavari, haven’t we all fallen into to that time and time again. I keep having to remind myself stop relying on your own strengthen in anything lol Oh what a beautiful rhema sis, and yes I receive that…..will do it anyway! God bless you as well with love , Nana
Haha it’s me sis, Shahin 😁 This is a wordpress account I had, I hadn’t changed the info on it that much. God bless you sis