Fighting The Fight of Faith: Obtaining The Crown Of Patience


“Be prepared to fight if you desire to gain the victory. Without fighting you cannot obtain the crown of patience” – (rhema from holy spirit)

That’s the rhema: btw for those that don’t know, a rhema is a holy spirit inspired word from the Lord) the Lord gave me May 10, 2016 after my alone time with him. I just didn’t know how long and how right he would be about this….then again he is God I should know by now lol However, I found myself called to a radical step of faith this month.
So I found myself excited and nervous to take this huge life changing leap of faith to move because the Lord was taking me into new territory. I asked him to please don’t make me like Abraham, packing up my things with no specific location besides “just go and I will show you”…..and that’s exactly what He did lol

With my lease at my apartment being up I just knew the Lord would have me continue to live there. It made sense in my mind being that I had built relationship in my mission field which was across the street with those I was evangelizing too, I also was hosting a small group from my church at my apartment and to top that off I didn’t give a 60 days notice so would have to pay the penalty. However, I have come to know that our limitation are nothing for the Lord. So he began to speak to me to move, yes move into another city in a low income poverty apartments.  My first thought was that’s not Jesus lol but, he began to confirm this nudging which I asked him too several times. I questioned it because of my lack of provision, no job, no car as of yet but, then the Lord came through. As he always does with a 401K I had completely forgot about, so the provision was ready.  He also confirmed in a dream where I had a going away party, then through a friends random statement lastly, with two other ministers showing up in the same mission field to reach the lost as well. The Lord had told me that I was there to sow for a season and others would reap. He then wanted me to go to another mission field where the field was ripe for harvest. You see when the Lord called me I knew that I wanted to do missions, I loved to travel, I loved other cultures and once the Lord captured my heart I loved people. However the beginning of last year he told me that “America is a great mission field and is about to be the greatest in history”. So I am a missionary hear in America, then again all Christians are 😉

So with 3 days to move out of my apartment the Lord finally speaks to me where I should live. He was specific to the point of mentioning how long I would be there, what I would do and how much I would be paying. I was so elated, ecstatic, nervous all at the same time. I was hearing from everyone some encouraging and some saying this was crazy, how did I know if it was truly the Lord, and it didn’t make sense etc….so I had to fight this fight of faith trusting that my trust in the Lord wouldn’t put me to shame and to obedient to what the Lord told me to do.

Psalm 25:3
No one who hopes in you will ever be put to shame, but shame will come on those who are treacherous without cause.

However, I was dumbfounded when the owners of the location I clearly heard from the Lord said no. I felt like I just had a sucker punch to my belly and a loss of breath. I had 1 day to move and no where to go….but back home the very place the Lord told me not to go back too. I went through so many emotions. tears, fear, doubt, shame, bewilderment, frustration and even anger. I wondered Lord how could you have me step out in faith as you kept telling me to trust in you and now I looked like a fool. ….(side note isn’t it funny how the Lord answers our prayers so many times I prayed Lord I am sold out for you I want to be a fool for Christ but now when It happens I am complaining and crying about it).

To be honest I don’t have a full understanding why the Lord allowed this door that he clearly spoke about to be shut but all I can do is trust him. While abandoning myself to His sovereignty and His perfect will for me at this time and throwing myself at the mercy of my Lord. Realizing that I am being tested in obedience, in trust and most importantly dying to myself. Dying to self- Nana that Jesus may live, not being concerned with where I live, what others think, how I feel and most importantly looking a fool for Christ. So I am now staying at my sisters house for the meantime and have moved my things into my mothers house. Realizing that when he gave me this word MY timing said I would have to stop fighting by Tuesday May 23, 2017 because that’s when I had to move but, HIS timing is not my time as I continue to patiently wait fighting this fight of faith to obtain the crown of patience knowing that God Is not slack concerning his promises even when what he says doesn’t turn out like what we envision. TRUST HIM-HE IS FAITHFUL!

-From Jesus with Love


Being Ordained By God

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Matthew 22:14 For many are called, but few are chosen.

I am learning in my walk that its a wonderful grace that’s given to all who are ordained by God. For the longest when the Lord called me I was running for man’s approval, man’s validation, and man’s support of what God had called me to do but when God ordains you He calls the unqualified, the unequipped and the uneducated. Those without status, title, and influence to become a light house in their generation. Fortunately, for me I fit all of those qualification and you do too!

When I began to walk in the direction the Lord called me to I got a lot of opposition. Not only from the enemy but many times from well to do meaning Christians who would question what the Lord told me to do because of my many non-qualifications. I too believed I had to go the “normal route” the way everyone has gone who is called by the Lord but I have come to realize that MY WAY was normal and GODS WAY never is lol.  These are some of the few things I heard and some things I have learned:

The first thing the Lord put on my heart was to start a prayer meeting at my apartment my first year for walking with him. I heard “you don’t have a covering so you shouldn’t do that”….actually I heard there
Psalm 91:4 reassures us, “He shall cover you with His feathers, and under His wings you shall take refuge”
Learned: I am married to Christ so the Holy Spirit is my covering

As the Lord continued to lead me the Holy Spirit began to impart a love in my heart to pray for everyone that I met or encountered. I heard “ you shouldn’t be so quick to pray for everyone or lay hands only be led by the Lord”
Philippians 2:3-4 Do nothing from selfishness or empty conceit, but with humility of mind regard one another as more important than yourselves; do not merely look out for your own personal interests, but also for the interests of others.
Learned: God loves everyone and wants to touch everyone through you if you would allow it!

I had many tell me “you need to get a spiritual mother or father to help guide you in this spiritual walk”. So I began searching and the Lord was closing every door.
John 14:26 But the Helper (Comforter, Advocate, Intercessor—Counselor, Strengthener, Standby), the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in My name [in My place, to represent Me and act on My behalf], He will teach you all things. And He will help you remember everything that I have told you.
Learned: Although having a spiritual mother and father is good in Gods timing the best counselor is the Holy Spirit who is the best spiritual counselor you can have!

I thought I needed to go to seminary school and others told me that I must if I am called to “ministry” However, when the Lord began to confirm that He would teach me I was scoffed at and called prideful to think that God could teach me.
John 6:44-45 For no one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws them to me, and at the last day I will raise them up. 45 As it is written in the Scriptures,[a] ‘They will all be taught by God.’ Everyone who listens to the Father and learns from him comes to me.
That in fact God loves to teach his children and by the Holy Spirit, He is the best teacher. Furthermore in scripture he even confirms that many of us in these last days would be taught by him

I find myself today unqualified in my own strength but qualified by Gods grace. I find myself unequipped by my own training but equipped by the trials God has allowed. I find myself uneducation without any vocational ministry studies but educated by the Holy Spirit. I find myself without status in the church but in the Kingdom called a “a royal priest”. I find myself without a title but in the Kingdom titled “a warrior bride”. I find myself having no church pulpit but my life being unraveled before the “cloud of witness” as a platform to impact all of eternity!


Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.


Yes you….you also are chosen, anointed, appointed and ordained by God in this generation for such a time as this. He will instruct yo and teach you in the way you should go. He will counsel you with his loving eye on you. Stop looking to men and believe what God has said and called you to. So my brother or sister…Go NOW, go into all the world and make Jesus known!

-From Jesus With Love

YOU Are Called To Ministry


The Lord has been really teaching me on Ministry what that looks like and actually what that means. I hear often people will say oh your called to “ministry” or I am called into “ministry” but, I realize ministry is not just something your called too but, a minister is something that you are.

 Minister:  (verb) 1. attend to the needs of (someone).

As a christian WE ARE ALL CALLED to be ministers of Christ!  Its not about having a title, working in a church, or having a platform but in whatever area and location you are called to be an ambassador of Jesus Christ. I thought when the Lord released me for my job 6 months ago for sure He would open the door to start full time ministry, honestly having no idea what that looked like. However, I have come to understand. That I have always been in full time ministry when I said “yes” to the Lord Jan 1, 2014 His ministry in me stared. The Ministry of reconciliation that is, which all believers are called too.

Reconciliation: (noun) 1. the restoration of friendly relations.

He has been using me to restore many back to friendly relationship with him! You see the Lord spoke to me to apply for a job out the local shelter I had been waiting 6 months to get a clearance from him as to what he wanted me to do. So finally when he spoke I scratched my head a little thinking really Lord you want me to go back to the “market place” as we call it. Back into the corporate america in my heart I spoke I thought I was going to go into ministry and He reminded me “you already are.” At your former job didn’t I use you there to draw many to me, since you have not been working haven’t I been using you to minister to people through your social media platforms, outreach, small group, and evangelism in which my response was….Oooh I see lol.  As he was reminding me that now he wants to send me there to to be His ambassador and minister to people in that capacity.

2 Corinthians 5:19-20
or God was in Christ, reconciling the world to himself, no longer counting people’s sins against them. And he gave us this wonderful ministry of reconciliation.
20 So we are Christ’s ambassadors; God is making his appeal through us. We speak for Christ when we plead, “Come back to God!”

So as a believer YOU are Called into minister YOU are an ambassador for Christ, YOU are called into the minister of reconciliation. To draw all men your sphere of influence that is given to you back to Jesus Christ.  So are you meeting the needs of those around you? At your job are you being a light, are you providing hope, encouraging words and speaking truth to those who are lost and in desperate need of the Love Jesus. Are you reaching out in your communities,  strangers that you pass by who are in need and even to your own neighbors  are you sharing the love of Christ? My friends no longer see Ministers as those who preach, who teach, who are in the church or just pastors because YOU are a Minister so lets get busy with works of service God has given us all to do!

Ephesians 4:11-12
So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers, 12 to equip THE SAINTS for WORKS OF SERVICE, so that the body of Christ may be built up