Rejecting God To Seek Men



When we surrender to the Lord we find ourselves so full of his love. We become so grateful of his grace to not only save us but make himself known to us. Oh, how wonderful that is! Then you want to share your testimony, your faith and him with everyone but, soon find many reject him. You don’t seem to understand why they don’t get it, why they don’t get Him, Jesus Christ and his wonderful grace for them. Oh how his heart breaks and sometimes you can even feel that grief and if your anything like me you will make a vow not to ever reject him as long as you live….by his grace of course. Even reading the scriptures of the Gospel and seeing how the Pharisees, the Jews, even though from his own city rejected him and I began to wonder being grieved again how could they. A few months ago I was so grieved looking at our nation, our world and so many still reject him and how its hurts him so deeply.

Then the Lord spoke to me and said you have rejected me and I said Yes, Lord before I knew you but I am all yours living for you now. I love you. Then He said No, even now you reject me and I said Lord how?! and He said seeking the affirmation from men and rejecting who I said you are and called you to be. Does my opinion not matter?….I melted

You see when I surrendered the Lord ask me to lay down not only my will, but my dreams, gifts and aspiration to follow him. I was CEO of An national African scholarship pageant called Face of Africa, I had my own clothing & Jewelry line called Nana O Couture, and I was just beginning to get my feet wet in acting again. I had told myself 2014 was the year to be fearless and move to NY to follow my dreams but, then the Lord interrupted as he always does right lol He revealed himself to me bringing me to my knees and asked me to lay all that down to follow him and wait on him.  At first I kept wondering what am I waiting for then he opening my mind to visions and dreams he showed me he had called me for His use, for His purpose for ministry to be a servant of the Lord. I first thought “Me” Lord really, I never would have thought so I was so excited upon waking up when I had my calling dream seeing myself on  televised stage praying and binding the enemy I then immediately text close family members that I finally realized what the Lord has called me to do! However,  there response wasn’t what I expected no one really affirmed the dream at all then that’s when my doubting came in.  So I began to seek the affirmation  & confirmation of men who didn’t seem to see the call on my life. In the process continually rejecting what the Lord had shown me in dreams and spoken to me about in his word. Hence, rejected him over and over.

I remember having a clear vision of me running after crowds of people for a word of affirmation, confirmation as to who they think that I am and seeing the Lord  far from me left all alone with his head down feeling neglected and rejected by me because to be honest his word wasn’t enough for me…sad but, true

I began to strive in all that I did so others would maybe see the anointing of God upon my life and if they praised me I was so excited and encouraged however, if they didn’t see it I would then be discouraged doubting that God has called me to use me.

John 12:43 – For they loved the praise of men more than the praise of God.

I remember even going to be counseled by an evangelist and she asked me what I was doing with my life and exciting told her God has called me for ministry and she asked how did I know. So I told her the Lord told me and he revealed it of course she paused for a moment then said sometimes we can interpret dreams wrong and that I shouldn’t be stagnant. I should start my business again, and if “I” want to go into ministry that I should take some bible course part time. To say the least I was confused, down trotted and utterly discouraged. However, the Lord reminded Nana again what did “I” tell you. Stop looking for the affirmation of men, pastors, prophets. I even had a dream where he was warning me about running too pastors and prophets he gave me the scriptures

Psalm 32:8 I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.

When the Lord called me he told me to wait on him, so everyone thought I was crazy for just stopping everything I was doing and just wait. Family members unknowing and lovely tried to push me to do something rather than just sit and being idle or so they thought. Not knowing God has and is continuing to work on my heart, mind, soul and spirit daily to be more like him. He is trying and testing me I need to show myself approved ONLY to GOD and NO ONE ELSE! I was reminded when a pastor made a statement that if you take credit for failure doing the work of God then you will take credit for the success of the work of God. Wow, what a powerful statement and one I need to be reminded of everyday.

Galatian 1:10
10 Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.

So what has the Lord said about YOU, that you are not believing, what labels have been put on you that you need to take off or better yet have you been seeking your purpose, your identity and calling through others or only by Jesus Christ? Its definitely a learning, stretching and growing process but Trust God, Trust what he speaks to you, what he shows you and what his word says. (preaching to myself right now hehe) The Holy Spirit is the best teacher so “He” will teach us and guide us into all truth and to know that we shouldn’t ever live to seek the approval of men but, only of God and guess what he says about you…. and me too APPROVED!  God bless you, Love you but, know he loves you more!



Death Where Is Your Sting!

In this past week I have 2 deaths in my family. I had my dear 88 year old grandma pass away suddenly and my uncle pass away from cancer within 5 days. My uncle was my dads brother who was diagnosed several months prior with stage 4 cancer. He got the family together about during the Christmas brake to let us all know the doctors are giving him only a few weeks to live. So we where somewhat prepared but, honestly who is really prepared for death. Then my beloved grandma who raised me as a young child until I was 5 years of age in Ghana, West Africa was my heart, so funny, beautiful, strong, wise and so compassionate. I see so much of her in my mother and I would like to think in me as well. She had been sick for a while however the week she passed she was doing perfectly fine. My whole family  was excited because we had made arrangement to go to Ghana to visit her on in February for her 89th birthday. I was sure we would get the opportunity to see her because only me and my youngest sister  had been to Ghana and there is 7 of use and 8 grandchildren she had never met. So she so yearned to see us, dance with us, sing with us and take pictures with us in her words lol however, that wasn’t Gods plan.

The Lord gave my sister and a friend of mine dreams concerning my grandmothers health as I had prayed to know his will and he had revealed that was his will to have her come home. However, I had prayed hoping not too soon so  we would be able to see her in February so I found myself slightly shocked that I didn’t cry when finding out my grandmother passed. My heart was heavy for my mom but, me and my sisters even held a praise and worship night that evening. I sought the Lord because I was thinking is something wrong with me and the Lord reminded that he had given me “His peace that passes understanding” and I thought ooooh this is what it feels like wow.

Philippians 4:7
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus

Yes, death of a loved one or honestly death period can be very difficult however as Christians we should be comforted that on the Cross when Christ died and shed his blood for us and we accept that as the truth in death we also resurrect with him to our eternal and very real home. So It should be a celebration and nothing to fear! By Gods mercy the day my grandmother passed the Lord gave my sister a vision with my grandmother walking on streets of gold holding Jesus hands and singing so loud as she loved to do as a chorister. She had angels all around her laughing who had plugged in their ears as if she had been singing forever  which made my sister burst with laugher in the middle of her tears. She told me she wasn’t sure if she made that up and I told her no, that was definitely from the Lord because “His Joy is our strength”(Nehemiah 8:10)! What a funny, thoughtful and amazing God we serve who would comfort our family with that image in the midst of our  mourning. My father also had dreams of my uncle passing before he went on which were from the Lord to prepare his heart. What  a gracious God that we serve!

Even in the media alone we have had more than 5 celebrity deaths all in a week not to mention the attacks all over the nation. Death by bombers, terrorist attacks, suicide, stabbings etc you can name it the news has always been filled with death but things seem to be declining rapidly  . Interestingly enough so a post or quote by late actor of Harry Potter Alan Rickman ” Death comes for us all in the end”

alan rickman death

Which got me thinking how false that statement is and how its sad so many believe that.  You see for us Christians  who have surrendered to Jesus Christ, given their lives to him, lived for him and believe in him death is only the beginning! As the scriptures say

1 Corinthians 15:55-57
Where, O death, is your victory?

    Where, O death, is your sting?”[a]

56 The sting of death is sin, and the power of sin is the law. 57 But thanks be to God! He gives us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ.

Things will soon began to happen in our nation with death all around us like never before seen in history. We are in the last days and Jesus will soon be returning. He asked us to not love our lives because if we do we will lose it (John 12:25). Some will have to defend their faith in Jesus Christ with their lives are you ready to do that? Many will have to witness loved ones dead or being killed will that alone make you walk away from the faith and not trust God? Are you ready to die for the hope in which you lived by in an eternal life with Jesus Christ knowing death has no victory over us or will you cower in fear that death for you is the end so you would rather keep your life and take the mark? Or you would rather keep your life and deny Jesus Christ?  As Christians we should always keep that heavenly perspective that earth is passing away and our earthly bodies are too. You see death is just a means of  us all finally entering into our masters joy, our eternal home, and eternal life with Jesus Christ! So may God give us comfort through his spirit and word when death is near or all around us. May we take solace in the fact that as Christians we don’t die but live to be resurrected in Christ! Love you God bless you!

Matthew 25:23
“His master replied, ‘Well done, good and faithful servant! You have been faithful with a few things; I will put you in charge of many things. Come and share your master’s happiness!



What Type Of Candle Will You Be In 2016?



I was talking to a friend of mine a couple of weeks ago and she stated how happy she was that the Lord brought me into her life because my passion and zeal for the Lord ignited her passion and zeal for the Lord which had got stagnant. I have also had the privilege of seeing this amazing change in her walk as the Lord ignited her desire for intimacy, spiritual revelations and gifts. Seeing her stepping out of faith to do what God ask, opening her mind again to dreams and visions, having a greater compassion for others and a unwavering boldness for the Lord like never before! I have been amazed at what the Lord has truly done and he reminded me that’s what it means to be ” a light of the world” , “a lampstand that gives light to all who are in the house” The Light we carry is not for ourselves not only to be a light to others around us but to ignite a fires in others as well so then WE become a city on hill that cannot be hidden!

Matthew 5:14-16 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; nor does anyone light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. “Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.

The light in us is the holy Spirit which the spirit of the living God dwelling within us. The Holy spirit draws us to the father, testifies of Jesus Christ, changes you, convicts you, gives you spiritual gifts and gives you a hunger for the word of God. As our world gets darker our light gets brighter. The fire, the light of the living God inside of us which causes people to draw to you because they see a difference. They see that  Joy, Peace, love, wisdom and Fire for the Lord  and were called to turn them to Christ! However, so many Christians are comfortable being just being lights setting no one else


There are many believers of Jesus Christ but very few followers. You see there is two parts to our salvation. The Lord ask us not only to be hearers of the word but doers as well. You go to church every Sunday or when you can, do a few good deeds, pray when you can , don’t read the bible and think that’s good enough. You live like the world and state your RELIGION is Christianity. To be honest nothing in your life has changed to reflect you are a follower of Christ. Your flame is not lite because you have not surrendered fully to the Holy Spirit, you have not fully surrendered to God. This is what you call lukewarm and the scriptures state

Revelation 3:16
But since you are like lukewarm water, neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth!

You do nothing to impact those around you to bring them to Christ because you have no light yourself. You don’t live or are led by the Holy Spirit but by your flesh so therefore you are in darkness (Romans 8:6). You see Christianity is a relationship with Jesus Christ, a faith, a way of life not a religion. When you believe and surrender beginning to read his word (the bible) it changes you because that is what is word (the bible says) and that is exactly what it does because Jesus Christ is the word! ( John 1:1) You began to take him into you and he changes you inside out! If you identify with this candle don’t lose hope for Gods grace is on your life. Repent, tell the Lord you fully surrender to his will in your life. Laying down your dreams, ideas, will, everything and ask him to baptize you with the Holy Spirit. Then began to read his word the bible and watch you become in awe of what he does!



This is the Christian who has gotten weary of well doing.

Galatians 6:9
“And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not.”

They were on fire once but the road, the walk became to difficult so they decided to give up. Began to backslide follow there own ways of doing things and direction as well.  Or the cross you were given became to hard to carry. You unfortunately allowed the woes of this world, the heavy burdens, trials of this world to snuff out your light. Therefore you too are unable to impact those around you. To be honest some can become bitter, mean, resentful Christians as well. Even jealous of those who are on fire, warning them they too shouldn’t get excited warning them the walk with the Lord is hard and secretly hoping they will fall to the same demise. Rather than encouraging and building up. Therefore, they too are unable to impact those around them with the light of Christ. However, if you identify with this candle there is hope for you as well and Gods grace is sufficient! Draw back nearer to him, he has never left you nor will he. He is a worship and praise away from once again igniting your passion for intimacy with him. Know that he loves you right where u are at, knows your situation and has heard your cries. He has not forgotten about you look to him and know that he is still and will continue to be so in looooove with you!! (Romans 8:31-39) He actually learns for you more than you yearn for him!


candle with flame

This one is interesting, yes we are called to let our light shine and quite a few Christians have their light shining in these last days which is amazing! However, the Lord had put it on my heart that there are too many Christians who have a lack of love for their neighbor,  strangers,  and the lost. They know that they are saved having the indwelling of the Holy Spirit and are changed. However,  they’re complacent satisfied with their own salvation and that’s good enough but that is not good enough for the Lord. He gives ALL of us a commission. Not just preachers, pastors and evangelist but ALL his children too

Matthew 28:19
“Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

So we as we continue to ask the Lord to send revival, heal the sick, bless the poor, and to save souls. He looks at us saying I have sent you. You have the spirit of the creator of the living God, the power and authority to do all the works that he did and even greater he expects us to do! You either don’t know how to share your faith or  state you don’t feel  led to touch people, say anything, or bless someone. The Lord said they would know we were a disciples of Christ because of our love for one another to truly love one another! To know that people all around you are perishing for eternity yet you want to leave it to the pastors on Sunday to do that. No, the Lord calls US all to do that and not only to let our light shine but in WORKS (doing) is what would make people glorify the father. ( Matthew 5:16).  If you identify with this candle ask the Lord for wisdom to minister to everyone you meet. To set you a blaze being a sweet aroma to everyone you pass with his love, kindness, compassion, mercy and grace. Most importantly to give you boldness and courage this year to share your faith!


flaming torch

This is not just any Christian but the ones set on fire, sat a blaze by passion for the Lord and his word. Their one goal is to become a living sacrifice for the Lord. Not only do that have an intimate relationship with the Lord but they are so passionate about others experiencing a relationship with him as well. They are concerned for their brothers & sisters, their neighbors, the lost with compassion to see them be saved. Their excitement, joy, peace, wisdom & faith in the Lord and his ways set them apart. They are bold  & courageous for the things of the Lord however, walk in compassion, meekness and lowliness in all they do. The fire within them is so consuming with passion and love for the Lord that it lights up every wick (candle) that comes their way. Not only are they a light in a dark world but they are overflowing with the fire of the living which cannot be contained but only spreads to all those that come near it! You see if all Christians become torches then that’s how we become like the old church. Walking in authority and power turning the world upside down as was said about the disciples that came before us

Acts 17:6
But when they did not find them, they dragged Jason and some brethren to the rulers of the city, crying out, “These who have turned the world upside down have come here too”.

2016 is going to be a turmoil year, as the world around us gets darker its time to set our fire a blaze and began to turn the world upside down with the powerful Gospel of Jesus Christ, The powerful action of love, compassion and kindness towards everyone, and the powerful act of full surrendering to the Lord in every area of your life. As you draw closer to the Lord in intimacy know that light in you is just not for you but for everyone else around you. To set them on fire too by sharing your testimony, your faith and the gospel with everyone. Most importantly tell them, tell everyone that God is crazy in love with them, to repent come out of their sin and that the kingdom of is at hand!

So what are you doing with your light this year?  If you really believe what are doing about it.Go out and set the world on fire for Jesus Christ!

Love you but know he loves you more. God Bless you!